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yappx . backiie agaiin . hmm . sorriie . yst nabe bllog . cooh am too tired lerh . afte visit hiimh . 12.3opm reached hiish hse . waiit forr hiish mummy to b ready . den siince Tingda stil haven go out . he eat , den chatt wiit hiimh . so nervous upon seeiin hiimh . wonderiin cn get iin anot norr . shagg . ard 1pm . finally . hiish mummy iish okay lerh . den slowly walked to MRT den to YewTee . shagg . reached YewTee ii tot she was goiin to tak cabb . as its alrdy 1.35pm . we mus reached at 2pm . scare latee . den tks to hiis PO . saiid walk very fast de . coosh very near . damn it lorr . ii wil nv 4get the longg distance & the biig merry go round we walked . while walkiin , hiish mummy kiip complaiiniin dat he siiao diing dong . do all tiis bo liiaos tiings . haiis . liisten lerh ob coosh answer herr back nor . no choiice . hiieh owas asked me to talked niicely wiit hiish mummy . hmm . so fiinally . asked so many ppl . & finally , afte 15miins walked . the deep , long way .. & we reached . den go regiister all dat .. den mus waiit agaiin . stupiid .!

fiinally , abt 2.30pm . fiinally cn go iin lerh . so so so anxiious lorr . haf nort been seeiin hiimh for abt 1wk . den fiinally go iin2 the room . table by table . wen to fiind hiimh . YESSH .!!!! fiinally c hiimh lerh . hiieh kept smilin . hiieh chatted wiit hiish mummy 1st .forr nort more den 5miins . hiish mummy passed to me . & everytym left ish miine . hhaas . siilly hiimh . so happy upon seeiin hiimh . chatted . & hiieh stil , the same . jus abiit tann . dunno why . den chatted & hiieh stil the same . asked me dun wrk . asked me forr hiimh come out can lerh . den backiie to our seriious topiic . ii told hiimh everythiin lerh . buhh addiin wit a NOT CFM yet . so hiieh repliied wiit the answer im waitin forr . wil b responsible forr everythiin . & fiinally . he said . okays , we *ahem ahem* bahs . im so happy . & ii asked hiimh agaiin . askiin hiimh cfm anot . & hiieh say YAHS . hhaas . so happy norr .

hmm . nw everythiin so called settle liiaos . im so happy . yahs . 2more days to go to 22th . hmm . nth much . wont realii feel sad . coosh currently im countiin dwn on hiish release date . next mth 20+ . ii shall asked hiimh a cfm date duriin the next visit . hhaas . tmr goiin hiish hse to helped hiimh to packed hiish tiings . & hiish mummy asked meto . coosh she saiid she dunno hw to pack . yahs . so mus go dwn hellped abiit . anythiin , ii wil try to calm dn & talked wiit hiish mummy . coosh its tyme to let the past to go . cant blame her too . aiiyahs . nw everythiin iish haf to waiit forr hiimh release & say & do . anythiin else forr me to worry ? mayb nort bahs .

she told me smtiing . she said herr feelings .. saiid dat my "ahem" will nort mak it. ii know she dun meant anythiin . buhh she nv understand hw it hurts me . so ii decided nort to persue tiis prob . yet ii cant 4get hw she tell me . buhh nvm . ii beliive hiimh . ii know who cn giib me the happiness . who cant . okays . as ii saiid . all tiis re arranged by god . its all a fated giift frm god too . cheriish it b4 youu regret . tiis iish wad ii know nw niia .

smtymes ish beta to b alone den haviin frens . coosh every1 grows up day by day . & every1 ish changiin day by day . youu wil nort know wad wil happen tmr . anw , iim reali wonderiin . wads BFF stands for . its nort a regret versiions in lyfe . buhh a questiion forr youu to answer to urself everyday . haviin true frens , who cares , loves , shares & dotes on youu iish so xiin fu . ii was once statiisfiied wiit dat .. buhh nw , tiings re diff . nort sayiin im jealous or wad . ii jus fiind dat , iim so so so stupiid & silly iin sayiin BFF owas come iin front ob BF . buhh im totally wrongg . ii made a wrong choiice . coosh seeiin dem owas wiit theiir loved ones onii . its beta den hafiin a BFF too . mab to dem , BFF wasnt dat impt like wad ii tiink too . hmm . iif ii can turn tyme away , ii wil make a U TURN . & says my BF ish impt den anythiin else . wil ii b able to overcome tiis ? ii dunno . ii tiink , iim too scare to mak frens anymore . coosh the old frens wil owas b 4gotten as dey haf & iish njoyini wiit their new frens nw ..

anw , yst iish 19th . ish LIANX A bday . HAPPY 20TH BDAY . nw youu re same as me . we re iin our twentiies . diff tiings happens . overcome all & stay as happy as b4 . all the best iin wadeva youu do too . stay pretty .=D

ii know ii haf been up & dwns wiit my mood swiings & emotional changes. buhh .. ii jus cant tak it. ii know sm ob youu re weii lerh wo hao. alright. all ii wann to say iish. very siimple. tings & path ish ii chose de. ii ownt regret. okays.? yesh, thank youu forr ur adviice & feeliins. ii wil hear & kiip it within me. & the final anser wil b myself choosiin the road ii chose to walk. okays.?

if 1day, ii realli regret or wad. dun worry. ii wont blame youu. buhh to blame myself. as its the final decision ii made. okays. & ii wont make youu fiind me a fuss. ii will brace up myself. overcome everythiing myself. bcoosh ii know ii can do it.

riight nw. exam ish round the corner. ii jus wanna study hard. make a PASS iin it. everythiin, shall come afte my studiies. okays. dun worry. ii wont miix my personall feelins wiit studiies de. ii will try my best to make everythiin the best. includiin myself.

every1 will haf a chance to fall iin lyfe. so dats owas up & dwns. no matter wad the outcomes ish. jus brace up, b strong & overcome iit. tiis iish wad ii learn. okays.

1yr ago, ii tot ii wouldn't b seeiin hiimh again. we chose to break off. & liive ourself.
1yr back, we re here tgt. haviin same *probs*. & its all by FATE.
cheriish wad we haf nw & never regrets.
bcoosh everythiin ish destiny.
its fate.
& ob coosh a test frm god.
Pass or Fail? hhaas. no1 knows. onlly y0uu =DD

ii promiised dat ii wil b very very happy n satisfied . ii promiise to cheer up & everythin . everythin ish backiie to normal . ii shall nort tiink too much anymore . yaya =))

2day wen over to find Tingda to read the letter & tings . & im very very HAPPy ii swear .. he never 4get abt me . he asked hiish mum to briing me over to visit hiimh . he asked hiish mum to talk wit me . he asked hiish mum n bro to look afte me . im very very happy . & he didnt 4get abt me .. coosh the very last part ob the letter , he wrote for me .. askiin hw's my exam & study .. askiin me to take care & wait forr hiimh . im reali very happy nw .. ii promiise . & ii made a promiise upon seeiin the letter . ii wont EMO anymore ..

& the promiise ii made withiin the god .. & ii win ..
ii cant sllplast niight .. ii swear to god to make a decision ..
ii saiid . if 2day goiin to raiin , it meant ii shall gibb up on hiimh & everythiin & b strong to face up the fact ob beiing *ahem ahem*..
if it does nort raiin , it means , ish worth my waiitiin & everythiin wil b fiine ..
so ii wen out . & mit hany ..
& 2day ... ...
was a SUNNY day =))
ii won . iim happy . so nw , im very happy & stronger lerh . jiayouus ..

so lets tlk abt my happy tings =))

hmm . b4 mittin my HANY . ii wen to fiind Tingda 1st . den Winnie asked me to acc herr go shoppiin at viillage . so go lorr . no choiice . im bored too . she oso quite frenly . hhaas . den acc herr shop shop shop . saw stupiid Irish . hhaas . she onii regconise my sound den cor me de . hhaas . so funny . yappx . afte Winnie shop finished , ii wen over to Qiji to fiind my Hany . hhaas . ate my lunch wit her n her Bf .. den chatted . aftedat helped Tingda packet lerh . ii acc hany & her bf go junctiion walk walk . chattin happily on my TOPIC . hmm . den afte dat watched MAMA MIA . the moviie . nort bad . buhh its all singiin part . den bside me grt a stupiid lady kiip siingiin thru out the whole moviie . till ii BTH , den ii changed seats . kiip changiin . abt the 3rd tyme . & at last , ii changed wit hany's bf . right to the last seat . hhaas . damn KPO lorr . den afte moviie . acc Hany to Shugar ter do tings . den saw my UNCLE . omg . my ahyi's husband . he saw me , quickly he walked damn fast . & jus within 1min niia . ii lost hiimh . wah lan a. gort family lerh . stil gort fling . ii hatee it . den omg lor . wen ii complainin to my mummy , sorry . ii dunno my ahyi beside herr . den they kiip askin me non-stop tings . im sorry dat ii lost hiimh alright . buhh frankly sayiin . tiis type ob husband dun wan oso good nahs . realii . he haf too much ob tings to let me say abt hiimh . ii jus hatee hiimh . my ahgu , mummy , daddy . many ppl .. all hatee hiimh .. eee ..

hmm . den afte dat , we headed to JERK THAI . my fav .. makan dinner . yappx . suddenly .. im sososo CRAVIN for thaii food norr . ii haf lots of fun wit the 2 frens . even im like a light bulb .. im very happy . coosh she's my best fren . she owas tryiin her best to mit up wit me to listens to my unhappiness . tks girl . love ya .. hhaas . & tks forr ur lucks . ii wil do well in my exam de . okays .!! hhaas .

& here's the end ob my day for 2day . tiired now .. go sllp lerh .. tata =))

at last . ii cn ease myself abiit lerh . coosh while waitin for Tingda's sms makes me tinks too much . so ii tried to called up hiish hse & asked hiish mummy . yahs . hiish mummy told me no calls frm there , buhh ther's a letter abt it . she asked me to asked Tingda better . alright . so tryiin hard to get stupiid Tingda th whole day . finally , hiieh read th letter & told me dat , hiish inside DB alrdy . so shall jus onib waiitiin for hiish release date . buhh th letter nv say wen he wil b release . haiis . nvm bahs . at least ii know th stupid MPs ish nort wastiin hiish tymes by pendiin th case . at least hiish inside DB ..

im QUITE relieved . buhh stil im stil waiitiin paiitiiently . my headaches stil haven goes off . damn paiin nor . hmm . im realii siick . nort dat siick . buhh ii know wil b very worse if ii dun rest well . & iic ant b afford to b siick now . ii niid to build up my health . for *smting* . & ob coosh my upcomiin exams nahs . siick lerh hw to go sit forr exams ? dots -,-"

im gonna b strong . stays strong .!
waiitiin forr youu =D

PS. iim reali wonderin . wil youu reply to me mahs ?
pls dun cos me to depression again hao mahs ?
ii trust to lovee youu .
so dun hurt me again .
wil youu ?
my heart is bleedin again .
im scare .
im scare dat youu wil ignore it .
& leave me alone .
wil youu do dat to me again ?
re ur promises true tiis tyme ?

ii cant get to sllp.
ii miissed hiimh badly.
if only he will b by my side nw.
in2 hiis hugg. cuddling me to sllp.
ii ob coos wil nort feel so depress n cryiin whole tymes.
ii dunno why.
cant understand hw.
all ii haf to learnt nw ish b strong.
ENDURE . can ii mak it?

watchiin 恋爱女王 agaiin . stl haven finished th show .
more n more touchiin . very niice .
nw exam break . at hme . like wann ki siiao .
shagg . no mood . due to sm PERSONAL REASON .
its nort cfm yet . buhh im stil stressiin upon it .
blessed me to overcome it bahs . hmm .
anw , im doiin self study at hme . everyday nahs .
buhh nort a very longg tyme . emily asked me to focus .
& im tryiin . i wil do it de .

haiiz . realii no pllace to go . or any1 wante to mit me .
all seems so busy . haiis .
anw , wed im mittin my hany .
yappx . missed her . its tyme to update agaiin .
shagg . its nort earlii lerh . gonna turn in soon . tata .

PS. emily , ii dun bllame youu for neglectiin me wen im troubled .
coosh afte ii read ur post . ii find dat youu reoso th same as me .
so stress up . nvm bahs . lets' overcome everythin .
JIAYOUUUus ..

suddenly ii miissed hiimh agaiin . missed hiimh badly . & ii miissed hiimh askiin me why ii like to send hiimh sms wit -,-" face .. so cutee . den he wil began to send diff face =)

im tired . yahs . youu wann gibb attitude den gibb bahs .
im tiired ob tryiin . ii triied to talk to youu nicely . yet youu stil seem so fed up .
wann to continue tiis frenshiip or nort SUITS YOUU BAHS .!
im tired . ii hatee to b treate tiis way . ii didnt know what did ii do wrong .
made youu treat me tiis way .
ii know youu wil b readiin tiis .
& ii dun miind . coosh im tired . siince youu say dun tel youu abt my tiings .
fiine . b it .
ii dun miind . coosh ii had enuff .
ii dun owe youu anythiin .
yuu owas made me tiink dat youu re th best fren eva ..
coosh youu owas lend me ur ears ..
buhh nw ..
im totally wrong ..ii dunno wads' wrong wit youu ..

yahs . ii know im a loner .. ii dun niid frens .
den b it bahs . all ob youu re jus th same ..
youu know who youu re .
dun fren dun fren lahs . n niid so chiildiish de mahs .. ?
showiin me those f**k up attitude . okays .!

hope youu njoy ur day & lyfe .
goodbye ..!
ii jus dunno wad th f**k ii do wrong & made youu treat me tiis way .
youu nabe talk to me wit : suits you bahs ..
& nw youu did .
youu know th attitude wen talkiin to me mahs .
youu know hw ii feel mahs .
yahs . ii tiink too much .. mayb youu doesnt mean anythin ..
buhh pls lahs . those words n words youu used to talked to me , HURTs me .!
okays .! ii know youu gt mny frens .
dun haf me oso th same .
its okay .! ii leave your world .

GOODBYE . youu jus disappoint me .
in many ways . yahs . youu re educated person . im nort .
coosh im frm NT .. & youu re nort .
happy . im jus an ah liianx . & youu ? gort good future ..
we re 2 world frens ..
okays .!

hmm . wakiie up by bro disturb . cooh he wann to play comp . play my ds . eat my honey star .
hmm . nvm lerh . coosh he dunno ii sllp at 5am .
lols . cant get to sllp . fiind drama show to watch ..
& finally , found th 恋爱女王 .. so watched lerh .
quite funny . lols . its jus a aii qiing ku shii nahs ..
watch til espoide 2 lerh . gonna carry on later ..

miissiin hiimh dearly agaiin .
its very hard forr me to get to bed .. ii try driinkiin ..
even lots ob martell ii driink . ii jus cant stop miissiin hiimh .
haiiz . mummy asked me wad happen .
& ii told her .. bf wen to trainin in ns .. cant use hp or contact me .. abt 2mths ..
den very emo . nth to do . no mood to go out or leave my room . so ii criied ..
den frens all busy wit their own lyfe . no1 ish ther forr me ..
den mummy asked me to tiink positive . coosh she udnerstand my feeliins nw ..
she knew dat im very emotional .. & depress .
she asked me to go fiind Nini or my aunty .. or even herr . if im realii lonely .
mummy , ii know ii haf grown up . ii shlld b thiinkiin positive sides .
& nort so emo .. buhh im tryiin very hard arr .
tymes takes pllace de .. okays ?

haiiz . ii wil try nort to tiink so muchh .
ii wil kiip myself busy .. buhh at least let me miiss hiimh abiit hao mahs ..

ii miissiin hiimh agaiin . siians . bro nw playiin wit my ds .
later gonna go backiie . no1 acc me agaiin .
haiiz . im sucha loner .
ii learn to b strong . ii tiink ii wil do hse wrk n mak myself busy n self study to 4get those unhappiness .
if nort he c lerh oso wont b happy .

im tryiin . hmm .
anw , ii hereby intro youu guys to go & watch 恋爱女王 .. its a very niice show .
& th AH XING damn yandaos . hhaas .
hmm . as forr girl , ii tiink th JIA XIN & QIAO LE oso pretty ..
hhaas . go do my tiings lerh .. tata .

PS . sorriie lin .. ii didnt turn up .. ii jus dun wiished to leave my room .
ii know its a golden opportunity . buhh stil , sorriie ..

ii jus miiss miiss youu so much . its th-2nd niight lerh ..
cant sllp . & im driinkiin alone lorr . sorriie .
ii know ii promiise you dat ii wont driink without youu .
buhh plls understand me forr nw . my feeliins . my miind . ish miissiin youu dearly .
no1 understands me . ii know ii chose youu made many ppl dulan me ..
buhh plls . ii made th choiice myself . jus allow me to b happy hao mahs .?
dun doubt hiimh . ii know he haf once hurt me .. buhh nw , why cant gib hiimh a chance to mend it ?
gort wrong mehs ? wen youu all ignores & neglect me de tymes .
who's th one ther to support n makes me happy ?
wen its my bday , all ob youu cant mak it , gibiin xcuses .. who's th one gibbin me surpriise ?
wen iim lonely .. who's th one listeniin to me ?
plls . im oso human . im a girl . ii niid more attentiions too lorr .
ii know many ob youu haf ur own lyfe , own bf probs ..
buhh me ? ii know ii cant kiip sayiin myself stress , mayb youu all re stress too .
buhh .. ii jus cant accept th facts dat frens re ignoriin me ...
treatiin me like MEI YOU de ..

wen iim cryiin , who ish th one ther to wiipe my tears ?
if youu wann me truely to b happy , why choiices ii make lerh . youu guys cant jus wiished me good lucks ?
ii understands dat ii told youu all many diff tings .. like hw much ii lovee GJYJ .. buhh ..
he jus cant changed away hiish habiit n attitude .. why mus ii b wit hiimh ?
wen ALJT haf alrdy doiin hiish part to mak me happy & changed forr th better ..
cant ii jus gibb hiim th chance mahs ?
why mus ii stuck at th old shoes .?
everyday quarrel over lil tings .. who wann it ?
if GJYJ can mak tiings to b misunderstandiin . & mak all th miscommunicatiions ..
wad forr stayiin tgt ? wil we b happy ?
if youu truely treats me as fren ..
wil youu wann me to choose sm1 who know hw to wrk to earn money while serviin Ns ..
or sm1 who dunno wad he strive forr tmr .. doiin & wrkiin those on & off jobs ?
who can mak me survive ..
yahs . it might b true dat wadeva ii wann , GJYJ cn gibb me .. buh happiness leiis ?
my daddy's trust leiis ? hw youu wann me to do ?

yahs . ii might b sayiin diff tings frm past n 2day ..
buhh if im happiier den b4 .. cant youu jus bless me ?
cant youu jus open ur ears n let me talk ?

or mayb ii wasnt impt to any1 ob youu lerh ?
if tiis ish so .. den plls tel me .. ii dun wann to b like a stupiid ..
makiin th world to listens to me , wen every1 fiinds it dulan n fan ..
ii dun wann to b a clown .. sorriie . im a girl n human too .

nw im 20th yrs old lerh .. many tings to me seems easy to accomplished ..
buhh sm oth tiings may seems to b complicated ..
as longg ii feel dat im happy .. den dun stop me hao mahs ?
im realii tired lerh ..

ii jus cant feel dat my frens lovee me ..
tiis ish my feelins riight nw .
yahs . youu miight b hafiin ur own probs unsolved ..
buhh .. if youu promiised to b my frens .. den frens cum b4 bf or gf .. isnt it ?
mayb im wrong bahs ..

haiiz . dunno lahs .. jus finished th 1030pm show on channel 8 ..
th show actor was Chen long's son .. fang Zhu Ming .. de show damn niice ..
yahs . its abt a girl , 16th yrs old niia .. th family very riich . so many tings was control by th daddy .. n den th FZM gort in2 sm r/s wit her .. den th girl pregnant .. n dy both run away frm hme ..
n wante to build up their own family n gibb birth to th baby ..
coosh dey tiink dat th baby ish innocent .. den many ups & dwns ..
in th end , th girl wan to gibb birth , den th girl's dady ask police catch FZM ..
buhh in th end , de dad nv sue th FZM .. n understands wad th daughter wann ..
n gibb FZM a chance .. buhh den th court wante FZM to tiink properly n seriiously abt briingiin up th kiids ..
so endiin up , he go priison 3mths ..
afte dat , he released . n dey were happy ..
coosh dey were th loviin paiirs ..

so sweet . n th show ended ..
tiis show tells us to b responsible forr our doiins ..
dun regret in th future ..
parents seeiin theiir kiids doiin wrong tiings oso very hurt de ..

if it were me .. ii wil briing up th kiids . no matte wad happens .
coosh th kids ish innocent .. ii made 2 mistakes lerh ..
ii wont do it agaiin . iim goiin to b strong . & b like th girl ..
face everythiin & nv regret ..
outcomes ish dependin on both hands ..
one hands clapp , nv b as loud as two hands de clapp ..
tgt , ii beliieve ALJT wil nort let me dwn agaiin ..
we wil clapp our hands to our future de ..

im waitin patiently .. wit my tears ob miisses ..
no matter wad happens .. nth pull me dwn ..
ii promiise ..

cant go to bed even if ii haf drunk alot ..
watchin 恋爱女王 nw .. quite nicee ..

th-feelin within me ish so so so bad .
actualii goiin forr revision klass . yet im too tired to go lerh .
coosh last niight , ii haf been dreamiin abt smting .
kiip wakiin up frm sllp . ii tear iin my dream . ii swear it hurts .
haiiz . ii know he oso dun wiished to c me iin tiis states .
buhh as ii saiid . everythiin happens too fast .
okays . yahs . ii shoulldn't sound like as iif gort ppl diie .
buhh th feeliins ob miissiin ur lovee ones ish like dat norr .
hmm . perhaps ii wil b reali okays . giib me more tyme .
ii wil do it de .

iim scare to b at hme . ii tiink ii goiin National Library to studiie . self-study allone .
better off den stayiin at hme cry & cry .
riight ? get prepared forr my exams ish impt ..
hmm . anw , ii haf jus update my bllogshops tiings .
go ther c c bahs . anythiin jus text me .
ii wont b answeriin calls . due to my card balance low .
hmm . so sorriie . & nw , iim goiin to prepare to go self study lerh . tata ..

ii feel so chiildiish at tymes . & im here emo-iin agaiin .
ii miiss y0uu dearly . it all had happen too fast .
yesh . yahs . it miight b tyme matters . buhh nabe wil ii tiink dat its so fast .
ii jus argue wiit youu abt th cor y0uu made to me & th anger ii vent on y0uu .
why cant ii jus understand y0uu more abiit . kn0wiin dat y0uu re alrdy very stress .
& ii shlld TI LIANG y0uu . & nw , its abiit too latee . coosh y0uu re g0ne .
y0uu jus left me a msg : Hmmm . I going in le . Wait for me . Take care . Ya..

wad am ii goiin to do ? its so sudden . & nw ii kiip repeatiin & liisteniin to th song y0uu sang to me .
Wang Lee Hong - Wo Men De Ge .
ii miiss y0uu more n more . ii even dream ob y0uu .
ii dreamt dat y0uu criied too . ii kn0w y0uu oso dun wann tiings to happen so fast too .
buhh nw , tiings happen , cant b helped .
dun worrii . ii wil wait f0rr y0uu . c00sh y0uu t0ld me to .
ii w0nt leave y0uu de .

& nw im tryiin very hard to b strong & waiit f0rr y0uu .
yappx . th l0ngest oso 14days or more . ii trust y0uu .
& ii trust myself . nw ish my exam break . & im g0iin to fiind a j0bb to wrk & save money .
ii kn0w y0uu reject me frm w0rkiin . buhh nw , y0uu wen iin lerh .
ii tiink ii shlld helped y0uu out . & oso can helped myself too .
coosh ii cant everythiin oso rely on y0uu de mahs .
ii wann b taii taii . buhh oso wil wait f0rr y0uu to b out & mak me a taii taii .
hhaas . lookiin at ur fotos , ur smiles , ur lovees f0rr me ..
all seems so sweet . im statiisfiied . ii wont asked forr more .
jus wann youu to miiss me more wen y0u re inside . kays .?

c lahs . earlii told youu dun AWOL lerh .
c lahs . haiiz . anw , ii wont blame y0uu . coosh ii knew y0uu wante to celebrates my bday .
y0uu wante to acc me more . y0uu wante to mak me nv f0rget th day of surprise y0uu gave duriin my bday .
thanss , im very happy . & statiisfiied & contented .
thans forr everythiin . ii nabe regret on putiin hopes on youu agaiin .
ii wil cheriish everythiin . & nw , im braciin myself up to study hard forr my upcomiin exams & wrk hard to save money ..

Ji de xiiang xiiang wo ahh .
Wo hen xiiang nii leiis .
Wo duii nii de aii yong yuan du bu biian ,
BECOOSH I LOVEE YOUU .!!!

& horr . stupiid tiing da . kiip disturb me .
mak me tiink too muchiie . ii know he wante me to b happy .
& ii wil .
n0thiins g0nna pull me dwn =D

Ps. ii fiind dat lin haf changed . coosh herr attitude ob talkiin wit me iin MSN ish realii diff frm th past . ii dunno why . or iissiit coosh ob JT ? haiiz . buhh ii hope to c my once last owas by my siide de lin b backiie . she asked me nort to tell her anythiin my stuff . yahs . & nw , my 1 n onlly listener gonna leave me .. mayb every1 gonna leave me bahs . ii know wad im doiin . jus respect my decisions . ii mayb b fussy . buhh tiings re all happeniin too fast . many tiings re unsaid . ii oso cant fiind th answer myself . who wil reali b ther for me wen im sad ? mayb if 1 day .. ii wen miissiin agaiin . den pls dun cum & fiind me .. jus leave me allone ..

& nw im lookiin at our fotos nw .. ii miiss youu badly til ii criied agaiin .. feelins re quite helpless . buhh stil , th-happy tymes wil stil b rmbed . waiitiin forr youu ..

hmm. jus gort hme frm bugiis. mit up my dearest grace n emily for dinner.
theiir treats wors. settle our dinner @ Jerk Thai.
thans forr th hello kitty keyboard , th dinner , th cake & th kiip cant blow off de candle.
ii njoyed. & im very happy too.
at last, finally. ii met up wit youu girls.
haf alot ob niice tyme.

ii lovee youu two nahs. dun say ii er xiin.
buhh its reali true.
hmm. n nw, nth to do. bloggiin.
& abt to start off for my assignment liiaos.
damn rushed. & frii ish my c2 exams.
ohh gooshh.=(

yapp . ii gt my surprise .
& im nort celebratiin .
all ob youu re busy .
& nvm .
iim all alone .
cryiin nw .
tiis ish hw my bday spent .
im tired .
& ii tiink ii am nort impt to any1 .
nvm .
ii understand .
iim jus loner ..

my eyes ish bleediin ...

yahs . backiie frm bugiis lerh . hmm .
very happy . quite STATISFIED bahs .
coosh ii haf received several presents lerh .
hmm . nort bad .
& ii gort a NECKLACE frm taka jewerlly , whiich bought by my beloved , mummy .
lovees you . tks .
& ii oso gort a new NOKIA 312o(white) & 2 T-shirts frm Junting .
lovess* .
tmr , mummy treats for rebondiin .
coosh ii took off my extenstions once agaiin .
looks untidy . so decided to rebond .
mayb a new haiircut =)
whahas . im very very happy forr everythiin .
been siick . buhh nabe go c doc .

& finally . ii made a clear talk wit GJYJ .
& we re nw best frens . hiish stil waitiin for me .
we shall decide our r/s once my studiies over .
& iin th mean tyme cn go tiink ob wad we wann .
& changed our attitude . if we re meant to b tgt .
fate wil briig us backiie afte my studiies .
finally ii haf overcome to say out everythiin .
it took me very longg . its better to mak a clear talked .
cooh many mis-communiicatiin withiin us.
at least we re nort regret . & hopes everythiin changed & b diff afte our long changed .
& changes to th better attitude forr tiis r/s .
at least ii feel release abiit nw .
buhh stil , im gonna concentrate on my upcomiin exams .
its very impt to me .
ii promiise to do well & studii hard .
jiiayouss .!!!

yahs . 1day more , my 2oth bday cumiin lerh .
im happy . im wonderiin do ii stil receviied th same surpriise frm frens ?
ii dunno . yahs . btw , mit crystal jus nw . coosh jus riight im at bugiis too .
so miit up & chatted . talked alot . hhaas . 1st tyme mit herr alone .
niice chattiin & shoppiin . & ii njoyed* =))
smtymes ii miiss th past . buhh it semms to b diff nw lerh .
crystal ish riiight . every1 ish busy wit their own r/s . nort reali cares abt th frenshiip we used to haf .
its true nahs . buhh why ppl owas changes wen they starte their new r/s .
ish BFF impt or BF ?
to me .. ii realii wil choose my BFF .
wad abt dem ?
do they miiss me ?
do they care about me ?
do they lovee me ?
ii dunno . nobody knows . buhh heaven knows .

ii haf changed . nort so jokiin type lerh .
ii turned to b more n more emo .
why ?
what makes me changed so much ?
seriiously , ii dunno .
coosh ii am very very scared to hurt by DEM .. realii .
it hurts ...
its huirts , wen th one youu lovee treat youu as SPARE TYRE . isnt it hurts .?
it miight takes a few miinutes to b frens & lovees & to hurts ,
buhh it miight takes a yr or more to heal ..
do youu agree wit me ?

ii may b seriious at tymes .
buhh overall .
ii stil niid some1 who reali reali cares abt me to stand by me .
listeniin to my lil complaiins .
who wil b ther ?
to me , my frens , all haf their own new frens . & ii guess they haf totally 4gets abt me .
im so sad . & tiis ish th reasons tat ish hurtiin me ..
makiin me emo-iin .
ii dunn wanna say out . buhh its been a longg tyme siince ii haf tiis feelins .
& ii dun tiink ii can hold it anymore ..
ii realii criied out .
im sucha FAILURE ..

& nw , im wiishiin myself a HAPPY 2oth BIRTHDAY ..
hopes every1 ish happy ,
hopes everythings goes well forr me .
hopes forr th better hopes ..

朋友一生一起走
那些日子不再有
一句话一辈子
一生情一杯酒
朋友不曾孤单过
一声朋友你会懂
还有伤
还有痛
还要走
还有我... ...

hhaas . my 2oth bday 1st presents . & ii gort it lerh .!!
my owas wante de CLEAR TOTE BAG .
omg . im so damn f**kiin happy nor .
whahas . hmm . & gort a perfume frm VICTORIA SECRETs .
whohahax . ROMANCE WISH .! so damn frangrance .
im damn damn happy .


hmm . dat day had a lil misunderstand & so-called quarrels wit huihui .
coosh she horr . dunno hw to say .
ii shall jus cut short & simple .
she asked me abt wher did ii get my stuff , paiints forr my DIY shoebitz .
ii was like .. HUH .? wanna copy my idea .?
den she kiip addiin on say actuali dats her IDEAL .
& wad she long ago owas wante to haf a shoe ob her own .
pls lahs . youu onii askiin th wrong questiion & akiin ppl duLan nor .
ii alrdy wore A SHOE OB MY OWN 2 F**KIN YRS AGO lerh leiis .
& its my LONG LONG ago de idea ob doiin tiis biiz .
jus dat ii dun haf enuff tyme to search forr th paiint .
askiin tiis type ob tings . who wont ???
plus its my shoebitz nor .
den in th end ii lazy to type . buhh she kiip ask me hw if her designs same as me .
damn easy right ? like tiis means sure cfm COPY me de mahs .
coosh desiignin a shoe , depends on th creatiive youu haf .
& oso th imaginatiions mahs . if youu jolly well gort th SO SAME desiigns as miine .
wahs lan a . baby oso know its cor COPYCATs .!
wahs . sayiin all tiis nw oso makes me piiss off nor .
shag . didnt go skool . coosh due to biig raiin 2day .
too lazy . & ii dun like to get myself wet . hmm .
so iim nort goiin to skool . oso nvm de nahs .
coosh tmr SATURDAY , stil gort reviisiions .
arghh . gonna go sllp awhiile . later gort tings do .
tata =)

PS. raiin raiin go away , plls =))

4 more days . im countiin dwn .

& ii gettin older each day .

th feelins of beiin in th twntiies feel soooooooooooo ... ...

hhaas =)

my desiign ish muchiie biigger & more niicer .

tiis ish th-OMOS th same desiign niia =D

felt abandoned .
abandoned by frens , ladiies , lovee ones & myself .
th feelin nw ish like sittin on th roller coaster .
ii might seem to b happy at my face & in front ob youu .
yet , my heart ish confused & sad .
im sorriie for all th hurtful feelins ii haf cause .
youu made me no choiice .
& ii tink ii reali need tymes to tiink abt it .

backiie to skool . priinted my notes at last .
bought sm tings forr my room .
did a lil tidyiin .
tiired afte dat & ii fall asllp .
wakiie up by th cold air blown by th raiiniin wiind .
so cold . & ii felt so lonely .
no1 was ther to comfort me .
im left alone .
haiiz .

6more days to go .
& its my TWENTIES liiaos .
im xiin fen .
buhh im oso lonely .
ii wann presents =D
ii wann tat clear tote baggiie .
ii wann my smiles backiie .
ii wann to b happy .
ii wann to pass my exams .
ii wann every1 to b happy too .

nth muchiie . let me cool dwn now .
& tiink ob wad ii realii wann bahs .
take kares =)

nabe go skool . hhaas . naughty huh .?
buhh no choiice . promiised to go tmr . & nabe skiip skool anymore .
alrights .? was wit JT siince m0rniin .
den afte dat bcoosh ob smtings , ii walked off , & criied .
saw my LIN & YING at bugiis .
so qiiao . tot they wanna go town . buhh ended at BUGIS .
hhaas . so tagg along wit dem . haf our same old craps non-stop .

hhaas . nth muchiie . jus chatted & update wit latest news abt each othe . hhaas .
my two beloved pretty meiis=)

nort forgettiin tellin YING a stupiid lame joke .
yahs . its nth . buhh stil ..
ii feel dat its damn damn okay niia .
buhh stil , she can kiip laughiin non-stop . OMG .!!!
ii saiid to her wen we were inside a shop sellin SLIVER tings .
den siince dats nth forr me & lin to c , we wante to go off .
& ii told yiing tis :
" stopiin playiin wit others' cock , go liaos lahs .!"
den she kiip laugh non-stop .
coosh to herr mayb she converted to bcome guys de dat tings .
hhaas . bhh seriiously . no lahs . coosh th shop used th wince cock to put at th rack .
mayb stop ppl frm stealiin . so yiing tinks ish cute & played wit it . -.-"

afte dat , sllacked at th cafe at BUGIS STREET . treate lin a cup ob 7-up .
hhaas . ii very good horr ?
hhaas . sllacked & talk cock .
dots . yiing played wiit my DS til very jii dong nor .
funny girl .
afte dat walked awhile more & dey wen backiie to WDLS .
as forr me , ii wen to fiind JT .

hmm . morniin goiin skool again . shag . gonna go sllp . buhh stil cant reali fall asllp leiis .
even if im very very TIRED =(
smtymes ii feel dat , smtiings & feeliins dunno why cant b said through mouth .
& it seems so complicated . ii tot ii wil b wit GJYJ forever .
& made my fiinal choiice . buhh nw ....
tiings re diff . ii regretted . coosh he made me tiinks dat we werent th one forr ach othe .
coosh he jus over-controlled me . & very sensetive .
whiich ii hatee th most . ESPECIALLY read my bllogg wen ii dun like .
arghh . why lovee seems so hurtful & fan naos de .?
can sm1 pls EXPALIN to me .

ii reali reali rathe stay siingle & do wad eva ii like .
ii jus hatee th feelins . coosh it made me feel so EMO & mood-swiing nor .
hatee it . hatee it . hatee it .
haiiz . liianx a asked me to type my feelins to her by email .
yet ii stil dunno wad to write .
ii know smtymes ii make decisions too fast den regret sure KPKB .
buhh . plls lorr . oso nort ii wann de mahs .
ii REALI tot he changed forr th better lerh mahs .
iin a r/s . yesh , there might b UP & DWNs ..
buhh ii jus cant tak it nahs . dunno hw to descriibe .
if im CONTROLLED . ii wil sure fiind ways to run away de .
ppl who known me well enuff . sure wil know de .
ii wann & lovees FREEDOM .
if he realii lovees me , he wil understand & wont repeat th wrong doiins .
buhh nw .. dont youu tiink its too latee lerh mahs ?
even if youu say he haf CHANGED ..
sorriie , over means over . my feeliins forr hiimh starts to FADE .
& ii bliieve everythiin wil nort b mend agaiin .
coosh can youu imagiine ,
he can kiip coor me .. den ii nv answer ,
he wil go fan my bro .
even my bro tiinks he very fan nw .
made me scolded by parents & bros forr disturbiin dem .
ii dun like tiis way he bhaviin .
its very very fan .
who likes tiis type ob feelins leiis ?

yahs . he treats me like a priincess .
very dotee me .
yet he tiinks too much ..
quarrels too muchiie .
tiings re changed .
& ii dun tiink dats a chance to mend it .
coosh iim very tiired ob waiitiin forr hiimh to prove me wrong .
my heart nw , ish reali very numb lerh .
th LOVEE we once haf , wil owas b ther .
& nort forgettiin th quarrels we had .
coosh it hurts too much ..

ii jus like my current lyfe .
ii hope ii wasnt wrong .
& made a riight choiice .
ii jus lovee my FREEDOM .
ii wanna pass my exams .
ii wanna earn more money .
ii wanna go forr holidays .
ii wanna b a BETTER person den th past .
everythiins ish goiin to b changed & nort goiin to b like th past .
& ii wil prove all tiis ii haf saiid ish TRUE .

& nw . im EMO-iin agaiin .
iis wear ii did lovee hiimh alot ONCE .
as forr nw ?
ii dunno eithe .
coosh ob smtiings ii cant accept .
my feelins ish very ruan .
mayb he wil fiind a better girl afte hiish NS .
& ii dun tiink ii suiits hiimh .
sorriie . coosh iim stil decidiin hard .

L E A V E . M E . A L O N E ... ...

7 more days to go .
ii dunno hw to celebrates my bday .
wil ii haf surprise ?
wil ii b happy ?
ii dunno .
iim waiitiin .
waiitiin forr lil surpriise bahs .

PS. can sm1 plls lead me th way out ?
out ob tiis emo-in lyfe .
im very scare , tiired , lonely & hurt ..

hmm . yoz . m0rnin . wakee up jus to blog & do lil hse wrk b4 ii go out wors .
hhaas . yst wen to ahma's bday celebratiions @ Ah Yi Bao Yu Restaurant .
hhaas . super duluxe & relatives all were here .
daddy & uncle sang til scream .
c0usiins play til so happy .
ahg0ng happy til drink too muchiie .
ahma happy til driink wit us .
hmm . th past few days forr me might b smhw shag & emo .
buhh nw , stil feelin okay .
coosh ii lovee ahma . c she so happy oso good wors .
hmm . ii bought ahma th jade de necklace . she very happy .
& she lovee it so much dat she asked me to helped her wore up .
lols . its th 1st tyme ii bought her present . yesh , she's touched =D
she happy , ii oso happy lerh .
wiished her good health , live l0ng .!!!
happy 70th bday , ahma ..
hmm . shag . jus no mood go skool . coosh 2day ish teacher days' .
& ii wil b out later . stil cant cfm whether im mittin my lin & ying anort .
dots -.-"

nth muchiie leiis . ooh yahs .
th TRZ hor . say til so loud . den everyday kiip msg me .
like findin xcuse to asked me go out .
& ii starts to feel irratates nor . meii you yong qii de nan ren .!
say 1 word oso cant do it .
actii0ns speaks louder den words . yet he ish like :
speak loud , actiions hide . hhaas .
wu liiaos . im nort entertainin hiimh eithe .
waste ob tyme niia . ii hatee most ish guys bhaviin like hiimh .
f**k .

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