its been a couple of months since you left my heart behind cryin` all my tears out as my eyes becomin` blind nothing feels the same cuhz i`m so used to being held friends would be concerned of me but never would i tellthat i was gettin` hurt by the only one i ever loved the one who was created to be sent to me from abovei still don`t know what went wrong, or why we had to end not only were you my baby but you were my best friend and now it seems like i`ve lost everything i ever had everything worth livin` for, flyin away from my hand slivin` everyday, questioning myself the same thing you left without a reason, left me here reminicin

remember the days we used to share when you told me that always nd forever you would care now you left me alone, holding on to the fone hopin` things would go bacc to how it was long ago tell me why what made you decide to leave me bacc tell me why there was nothing that you, you didn`t have tell me why

bacc when we was younger, we both each made a promise tellin` each other that we would always be honest of how we felt, what we thought, and soon that day came you took my hand, asked me out, and walked together in the rain we spent hours on the fone, we were close like white on rice playin around, asking me to one day be your wife when they saw you, they saw me standing right next to you matchin` everyday, matchin` clothes, matchin` hat and shoes always dedicating songs we hear to each other always thinking that all of those days would last forever tell me why everything had to come to this you dont understand, there`s so much things that i miss

remember the days we used to share when you told me that always nd forever you would care now you left me alone, holding on to the fone hopin` things would go bacc to how it was long ago tell me why what made you decide to leave me bacc tell me why there was nothing that you, you didn`t have tell me why

whatever happened to the promises you made whatever happened to the future you wanted to create now it`s all down the drain, all the time we spent, wasted whenever we had problems, we had always fixed and saved it so why the change of heart, tell me why are we apart when you told me before that you loved me since the start tell me why you suddenly wanna leave our past behind baby all i`m asking you is to please tell me why(tell me why, tell me why)

theres so much pain for me to hide inside but you don`t even notice so theres no use to hide i miss the feeling u gave me wen you looked into my eyes and now when i remember the moment all i do is cry the day you left, baby, you took my dreams with you i can`t even rebuild them cuhz i`m standin alone without you stop giving me all the stories, cuhz i know those are lies jus open your heart, look into my eyes, and tell me why

remember the days we used to share when you told me that always nd forever you would care now you left me alone, holding on to the fone hopin` things would go bacc to how it was long ago tell me why what made you decide to leave me bacc tell me why there was nothing that you, you didn`t have tell me why remember the days we used to share when you told me that always nd forever you would care now you left me alone, holding on to the fone hopin` things would go bacc to how it was long ago tell me why what made you decide to leave me bacc tell me why there was nothing that you, you didn`t have tell me why

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when JB yst wit my two loveely .

yappx . been longg , siince ii last went .

yesh , ii changed my blog's songs again .

my current playiin song so niice & meaninful .

lol . hmm . wen JB . didnt buy anythin .

onii helped hubby buy ciig . lol .

ate our lunch at malaysia's SWENCENSE again .

hhaas . wasnt eatiin well . coosh chii bu xiia .

lols . afte dat wen sopp ard . nth much . dunno why .

den came back spore ard 4pm+ , den wen to Lin's hse to wait her changed .

actuali was goiin to town wit dem , buhh last miin ii didnt .

didnt wiished to mentions .

hmm . wen to bugiis to find hubby .

suddenly very emo .

msged lianx a .

lols . & ii dunno why kiip cryiin .

den ii was alone at bus stop .

criied til gort an office lady offer me a tissue .

lols . lok so much like a clown . haiis .

buhh reali . ii dunno wad happen to me .

buhh Tingda told me its normal .

coosh inside my body , hermones ish changiin .

so very easily emotional de .

ii reali hope ii can overcome everythin .

alrights . yahs . hubby was right .

ii wann my preciious to b a happy baby , so ii cant b too emo .

ii mus stay happy & lok at the bright side .

arghh . im tryiin hard .!!

& afte dat , wen to CCK , wen to find hubby's ahyi .

chatted abt our prob . den decision oso made lerh .

so hopiin tings wil b fine .

me & hubby wil overcome everythin .

& ii wil learn to b a good mummy , good girl ..

ii live for myself . nort for others .

so tose who c me no up de , ii wil prove wrong to youu .

okays . ii lovee myself , my frens , my hubby & my baby ..

ii tink ii cant kiip runnin the facts .

so ii haf told mummy wad happen .

& nw waitin for herr to come hme .

& ii shlld have a good talk wit her lerh .

hopes tings wil b okays .

& as forr my studiies , mayb ii wil stop for awhile or changed to part tyme .

coosh my health wasnt doiin good .=(

bcoosh ii drink too much cold water .. arghh .

ii mus kiick away my bad habits .

my laziiness , my crybaby attitude , my emo attitude & no COLD drinks =xx

L爱ve ends @6:18 PM