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2008-12-24T13:05:00.003+08:00

BLOG SHIFTED.

I GONNA B STRONG.

I LIVE FOR MY ONE & ONLY,

PRECIOUS.

Dear god, pls gib me the power & not to tear again.

Let me forget the unhappiness.

For n0w & f0rever.

http://bytchii-iris88saysgoodbye.blogspot.com

withour y0uu, im stil d0in fine, ii pr0miise ..

2008-12-22T01:07:00.003+08:00

with0ut y0uu,

ii g0nna stay str0ng.

im tired ob l0vee.

y0uu lie t0 me ab0ut l0vee agaiin.

wil ii b able t0 stand agaiin.?

thinkin backiie t0 the past,

ii mis y0ur smiles badly.

ii mis y0ur hugg badly.

buhh y0uu w0nt gibb it t0 me anym0re.

ii kn0w.

im n0thin t0 y0uu.

ii kn0w others mayb very great.

im jus a l0usy gf.

im n0thin.

ii n0rt fit t0 b y0ur wife.

s0 ii tink ii leave,

& y0uu wil feel better.

ii wil heal my heart agaiin,

jus let me drink til im l0st.

afte the great cry,

mayb ii wil mak it again..

ii feel..

ii juss feel like dyiin..

buhh..

ii dunno hw..

the finall tyme ii made tiis choiice.

2008-12-22T00:39:00.002+08:00

tis tyme ii shall say.
its the last tyme ii said & cfm my relationship wit hiimh.
im tired.
im really tired.
im a girl too.
ii cant accept hiish on& off pattern.
ii haf no much tyme to listens to apologise or othe tings.
no matter hw he wan to qii me oso like dat.
like othe girls, so wad?
ii dun gibb a damn.
jus tak it dat im wrong to trust hiimh.
im wrong to b in lovee wit hiimh.
nvm, ii walked away without hiimh acc me anymore.
im lettin go.
ii swear.
im tired.
he jus dunno hw to appreciate my doins.
my result ish ZERO.
ii failed again.
he worth my nothin.

so ii decided.
my dearest preciious wont haf hiimh as the daddy.
he dun worth to b.
if he cares for me,
he wont treat me tiis way.
all ii wann ish a happy r/s.
a guy to pamper & care for me.
yet he cant do it.
ii cant dragg on anymore.
ii haf no tyme to wait forr hiimh to lovee me like e past..
jus tak it dat im a failure.

Happy 4mth annii, siince e day we patched til nw.
y0uu gave me happiness once,
y0uu gave me sweet tymes once,
y0uu h0ld me thru darkness once,
& its tyme to biid goodbye.
im s0rriie, & ii haf to leave.

precii0us wil d0 well with0ut y0uu.
& on behalf ob precii0us,
we biid y0uu go0dbye.
ii kn0w y0uu n0 l0nger l0vee me.
y0uu l0vee othe, n0rt me anym0re.
y0uu owas told me dat im y0urs.
im one & only y0urs.
buhh nw, ii kn0w y0ur heart changed.
s0 ii leave.
im really tired.
tc..

simple entry. co0sh im lazy..

2008-12-17T18:40:00.004+08:00

Bel0ved & me =D

im so0 so0 lazy t0 bl0g l0rr.
hhaas. pregnant w0man ish very lazy de mahs.?
l0ls. crazy. ii w0nt blame my bel0ved precii0us.
its my precii0us.
im l0ngin & waitin f0rr precii0us next appt check up.
yahs. 0ff day 2day.
sllp til afterno0n den wake up f0rr breakfast cum lunch.
den helped mummy t0 d0 lil hse wrk.(ii cant b a lazy mama=D)
hmm. afte dat watch tv awhile, wen t0 napp.
til n0w. hhaas.

yesh. g0rt t0 rewind back t0 m0nday.
met up wit my bel0ved, ker0u.
went t0 her place & waited f0rr her t0 prepare okay.
bef0re headin t0 amk hub f0r dinner.
hhaas. afte dat went t0 NEWYoRK f0rr dinner.
yahs. had a l0ng chatt everywher we g0.
afte dinner went t0 singtel t0 cancel tings.
den went t0 s11 & chatted.
hhaas. to0 l0ng nv mit her lerh
s0 we kiip chattin n0n-st0p.
den my bel0ved acc me hme.
p0or her, c0ugh s0 l0ng stil haven okays.
buhh anw, h0pe she faste g0 check up.
(*ger, dun wait til m0re serii0us arr.!!)
went h0me & chatted.
she left abt 1130, afte dat ii ate again,
bef0re g0 t0 bathe & sllp. hhaas.
ii kn0w im a piig lahs.
buhh my weiight seems n0rt t0 put up much leiis.
any ideas t0 gr0w m0re fat.??
wheepx.

n0w waitin f0rr my dearest mumm t0 call me.
yahs, co0sh she wante t0 bring me 0ut f0rr dinner wit her.
as she's meetin her frens @ YCK.
l0ls. ii tink dey re haviin SAKAE SHUSI as dinner.
im s0 l0ngin t0 eat SHUSIs =DD

sorry f0rr neglectin my dearest blog..

2008-12-14T19:26:00.003+08:00

Yoz =D
im backiie here to blogg once agaiin.
finally im free to sit dwn here without any1 disturbiin me.
yappx.
jus came back frm family dinner.
went to old hse ther makan ZHI CHA.
siians & tired.
whole m0rnin til evenin was keepiin my room.
n0w my ro0m lo0ks m0re cleare & bigger.
n0 m0re tables & stuff bl0ckiin my ways.
hhaas. im a go0d girl indeed.

yahs. thans f0rr my frens tagg.
im happy & ii appreciate every1's cares.
xiie xiie nii men w0rs.
many tings happen.
happy & sadd.
buhh nw,
finally ii learn to relax myself.
f0rr the sake ob precii0us.
im willin t0 d0 or give up anythin f0r my lil precii0us.
ii love f0rr precii0us.
ii kn0w givin birth t0 a baby/child isnt simple at all.
buhh nw,
ii dun mind.
im willin t0 wrk hard & earn enuff jus f0r my lil precii0us.
ii w0nt blame lil precii0us f0r tiein up my lyfe.
ii mis clubbin lyfe,
ii mis night lyfe..
buh stil.. ..
im d0in fine wit my lyfe n0w.
wrkin tyme means wrkin tyme.
rest tyme means rest tyme.
durin wrk,
ii haf frens dat 0was ther t0 cheer me up,
acc me durin wrk.
im happy & fulfil.
as f0rr rest tyme,
ii haf my family members t0 acc wit.
they care f0rr me & lil precii0us.
ii l0vee my lyfe.

afte the cut ii hurt myself,
finally,
ii learn al0t ob tings in lyfe.
yesh,
ther might b ups & dwns.
y0uu might haf enemies ard y0uu.
or s0me1 might b hatiin y0uu.
buhh wen y0uu re al0ne,
cl0se y0ur eyes,
& actualli y0uu stil haf many care f0rr y0uu de frens b by y0uu,
ppl wh0 appreciate y0ur help or care de,
& many othe.
s0 live f0rr y0urself,
dun give up,
dun tear f0r any fault y0uu did or gib.
face the w0rld n0 matter wad happens.
y0ur s0ul ish y0ur real parnter in lyfe.
n0 matter hw much y0uu tear or hurt y0urself,
y0uu wil nv ever b able to step out ob the darkness side ob y0ur w0rld.

hhaas. tis ish wad ii learn in lyfe.
im happier den the past.
waitin f0rr lil precii0us arrival.
takin care ob my health,
as precii0us need my healthy health to0.
the w0rld ish n0rt dark..
l0vees*

the scar that will nv b erase in my lyfe again.

n0 matter wad,

or h0w hard it takes,

hurtin myself s0lve any pr0bs.

STAY STRONG =D

ii simply l0vee it..

2008-12-03T13:00:00.003+08:00

th 25 stiches. LetItBleed..

Happy Family = frm hiimh(alexLJT)*ily*

th very 1st t0y ii asked hiimh t0 get f0r me frm th c0in pick-up machine.

jus 1 c0in & he did it f0rr me.

always rmb..

th day celebratiin JJ's bday @ ECP.

he g0rt it f0rr me.

co0sh ii owas t0ld hiimh ii wanna play SuperMario.

th 2nd t0y he g0rt it frm th c0in pick-up machine to0..

Dear, ii kn0w y0uu wil b readin my bl0g. im s0rry t0 b s0 cruel t0 y0uu. buhh ii really left wit n0 ch0ice. th tears, th blo0d, th mem0ries, & precii0us y0uu given me.. ii wil nv 4gets. rmb my msged. ii wil wait f0rr y0uu t0 change n0 matter wad happens. bco0sh ii kn0w y0uu cn d0 it.. f0r th sake ob us, pls dun hurt or mak urself suffer. im t0rturin to0. ii kn0w th pain. if y0uu l0vee me truely, change & pr0ve every1 wr0ng, alrights.? PS.iloveey0uu. n- matter hw l0ng it taks, y0uu re stil my hubby, my precii0us daddy..

alexLJT & irisHCY

Never Ending Love

since 220808

Forever, i l0vee y0uu.

Let it bleed..

2008-12-03T12:52:00.003+08:00

Let it bleed.
many tings happened.
Jus within a day, a scary night.
ii dunno wher t0 start.
im c0nfused & paiin.
ii left wit n0 ch0ice.
yet im stuckin in th memoriies we haf.
ii cant leave it al0ne.
ii cried.
ii regret.
ii hurt myself badly th very day.
haviin 25 stiches on my wounds,
it d0es n0rt paiin my w0unds,
yet it hurts my heart..

th deepest scar ii ever left wiit.
ii kn0w im fo0lish.
ii kn0w its my fault.
buhh ii haf n0 ch0ice.
ii jus cant c0ntr0ll myself.
im tunin insane.
ii need helps.

rmbin th day.
ii let it bleeded f0r abt 1hr.
th po0l ob blo0d,
th deep cut,
reminds me ob hiimh.
ii l0vee hiimh s0 much.
yet he didnt really kn0w it.
ii need himh s0 much.
yet he turn nasty t0 me wen eva hiish feelin l0w.
ii miss hiimh s0 much n0w,
ii w0nder he kn0ws ma.

th msged,
th w0rds,
th pr0mise,
we b0th made..
ish it stil ther f0rr us t0 fulfil mahs.?

ii wil wait.
wait f0r hiimh t0 turn t0 th best he can b.
ii kn0w he can & wil d0 it f0rr me & precii0us.
n0 matter wad,
ii wil wait.
ii might b cruel nw,
buhh ii really left wit n0 ch0ice.
ii jus wann th best hiimh.
ii l0vee & ii need hiimh badly..

went f0rr blo0d test check up on Monday,
th day b4 2day.
precii0us ish 4mths old lerh.
waitin paitiently f0rr 29th dec.
an0ther check up.
& by den,
my lil precii0us ish 5mths lerh.
& n0w,
im talkin wit my lil precii0us.
it kn0ws hw ii feel.
we b0th missed th tight hugg frm its daddy,
frm my hubby.

waitin f0rr hiimh,

every mins, every day..

n0 matter hw l0ng it taks.

ii wanna b a HAPPY MUMMY =D

2008-11-27T14:30:00.003+08:00

ii wanna b a happy mummy.
yst ii was unhappy awhile.
buhh afte hubby's pr0mise & cheer up,
ii feel much better.
yahs. bco0sh ob dat bytch again.
ii pr0mise myself,
ii wil nabe let th0se unhappiness stupid bytch t0 interrupt in between us.
she's n0thin buhh a cheap bytch n0rr.
ii kn0w nw im pregnant.
cant anyhw say ppl or scold ppl.
n0rt go0d & wil affect my pregnant..

buhh th0se msged afte y0uu read lerh,
ii swear,
y0uu b like me.
cursin herr..
the sentence ii wil nabe 4get ish tis :
No matter y0u are marry or not, I not mean ask you to dont want her(me) nor dont responsible abt her(me), I just hope you can come back to me, come and find me when you have the time..

wahs. if it was y0uu,
th0se bytch send these sms t0 y0ur hubby or bf..
wil y0uu h0t n0rt.?
she reali made me feel dat she ish a cheap bytch,
she haf thr0wn all the girls face l0rr.
wtf*

den hubby msged her ask her dun contact hiimh anym0re.
den she say wad she wil d0 it.
she wil 4get my hubby,
co0sh HER BF oso dun like her t0 c0ntact my hubby.
wth*
g0rt bf stil sent these sms t0 my hubby.

& m0re h0t ish dat.
she oso msged my hubby askin hiimh,
say wad ii tis type ob onii kn0w h0w t0 HU SHI LUAN XIANG DE NU REN stay wit hiimh, can he tahan me..
f**k l0rr.if ii g0rt the chance t0 c herr in face,
ii wil gibb herr 2 tight slapp.
I SWEAR .!!
1st slapp : For thr0wing girls face, being a bytch..
2nd slapp : Saying th0se nasty & n0 l0gic tings bhind my backiie abt me & precii0us.!

Dear readers, if these type ob bytch happens in y0ur l0vee lyfe, wil y0uu gibb it a damn.?
OMG.! stil can say wad NO MATTER YOU ARE MARRY OR NOT.. she dun mind.. buhh ii mind okays.! mayb her CB very itchy lerh.. jus g0 r0und & let ppl f**k l0rr.. ii tink if ii am a sweep fl0or de guy ii oso wanna c0nsider 3tymes.! n0rt 4gettin t0 tel y0uu. she ish older den my hubby 9 yrs old l0rr. bco0sh ob my hubby, she d0 these BU YAO NIAN de tings. wtf*
ii admit, she ish n0rt very pretty, buhh she need t0 d0 all these tings mahs.? er xiin leis. & ii never sayii prettier or wad. at least... ii w0nt d0 all these. co0sh kn0win ppl alrdy gettin married, why stil b0ther t0 break ppl's happiness up.? d0nt feel guilty at all mehs.? if were herr, wad past ish past. never lo0k back on the relationship again since ppl ish GETTIN MARRIED.. ii w0nt d0 th0se breakin ppl's family up de l0rr. she called me INSANE.. buhh in fact.. she's m0re childish den me.. im 20yrs old & ii kn0w these type ob tings cant d0.. buhh she's f**kin 29yrs old, she d0 all these..

hmm. a brand new skins =D

2008-11-26T12:42:00.003+08:00

yesh. ii changed my bl0gskins again. hhaas.

n0rt bco0sh ii b0 lia0s.

buhh bco0sh the previ0us de very ma fan.

mus kip refresh.

lagg bahs.

ii stil prefer tis type ob skins den th0se clickin links de.

hhaas. a cllap f0rr myself.

yappiie =D

hmm. yst wen t0 fetch hubby(he says n0rt fetch, buhh wait f0rr hiimh).

t0 me ish the same l0rr.

anw, wen t0 wait f0rr hiimh at YewTee.

yahs. he was sl0w. yet he says ii sl0wer. humptx =x

den acc hiimh t0 wrk.

hhaas. its been a l0ng tyme dat hubby t0ld me wit hiish own w0rds sayin IM PRETTY.

l0ls. ii s0 happy ahh.

l0ls. many t0t ii g0 mak hair.

sh0pie aunty t0t ii g0 tak my weddin f0t0 yst s0 ii mak up.

hhaas. s0 funny. co0sh its been very l0ng tyme since ii last mak up l0rr.

buhh yst dunno why g0rt the mo0d.

hmm. acc hubby til abt 9.3opm & ii to0k the train hme lerh.

co0sh ii nid t0 be hme early, if n0rt mummy g0nna nagg at me again.

shagg. reached hme, msged & chatted wit hubby awhile.

den ii makan abiit b4 ii g0 wash up & everythin den turn t0 bed.

l0ls. sllp ard 1am+.

co0sh was waitin & msgiin hubby.

afte he bathe, ii wen t0 sllp.

didnt sllp well.

co0sh my c0usin kip kickin me.

til ii dulan, den ii gib her a light kick & she ownself roll dwn my bed. whahas.

ii kn0w im bad. buhh os0 she ownself r0ll de. n0rt me.

afte her r0ll, she climb back t0 bed again.

hhaas. lame l0rr.

m0rnin wake up, acc mummy dey all g0 market.

jus came back n0rt l0ng den mak my bl0gg.

g0nna g0 rest afte tiis. tired.!

f0rever im sho0 tired.

hubby say im pig.

sadd.!

its been very l0ng siince ii update my f0t0s h0rr =D

mummy-t0-be

laziin ard ..

2008-11-25T09:46:00.002+08:00

haf been laziin ard at hme.
due to grandmothers' arrive in spore.
shagg. nth f0rr me t0 d0.
ii wanna wrk.
buhh ii scare ii cant tak it.
lalalas.
waitin f0r my r0m & biig day t0 arrive l0rr.
c0untin dwn every single day.
hhaas. b0th my biig day falls on the CNY.
shii0k siia.
hmm. c0min m0nday g0rt precii0us check up.
oh yahs. im sho0 happy.
co0sh c0min wk, precii0us ish 4mth 1wk old lerh.
whahas. buhh stupid lorr.
co0sh mus wait til 29th dec den kn0w whether ish girl 0r b0ii.
hhaas. nvm. its okays de.
co0sh al0t ppl t0ld me shld b b0ii.
co0sh ii dun wear make up 0r rather mak myself pretty like the past.
hhaas. g0nna b 0basan.
shagg. hmm. g0nna g0 acc wit the 2 kids again.
jus came r0und here t0 update co0sh ii wanna dwn l0ad new s0ngs.
hhaas. hubby haf been sweet lately.
jus simply l0vee it =D

tears flowing down once again..

2008-11-22T21:11:00.003+08:00

im feelin so dwn & upset once again.
ii t0t all th0se unhappiness ish g0ne & never c0me back t0 me again.
buhh ii was to0 wr0ng.
ii was hurt 0nce again.
n0rt blaming by hiimh 0r any1.
buhh myself.
im selfish.
ii onii kn0w h0w t0 sllp & n0rt kn0win tat he needs me.
ii was so wr0ng.
buhh n0w, ii dun tiink tats' any chance f0r me to turn back.
he never listens t0 my situati0n n0r understands my feelins m0re.
he msged me th0se nasty msged.
he ish g0in backiie t0 her.
he t0ld me she wasnt like me.
he t0ld me she cn acc hiimh m0re..

my tears fl0wing n0n-st0p.
hurtin myself once again.
family members t0ld me ii was to0 fo0lish.
family members giving me all supp0rts & c0urage t0 face the w0rld once again.
im n0rt al0ne.
buhh ii stil rather kiip myself al0ne in my ro0m.
thinkin, crying..

ii knew n0thing buhh crying..
what ii did wr0ng.
ii haf my reas0ns.
buhh why must hiimh using her t0 make me m0re sad.
ii dunn0 h0w.

bco0sh ob tis relationships, ii haf endure everythin ii needed.
buhh stil im s0 l0nely.
ii envy 0ther l0vers.
s0 sweet & happy.
yet it wasnt me nj0yin.
im t0rturin by l0vee..

been tired & busy.

2008-11-18T15:13:00.004+08:00

been tired & busy wit n0thing.
dunno why too.
lols. always feel sllpy.
im turnin to b a piig so0n.
hhaas . sat mit hubby afte hiish wrk & wen to BQ to celebrates Winnie's bday.
hhaas. so sad. cant drink.
was fun ther too. njoy myself too.
afte dat hubby fetch me hme 1st, den he go hme alone.
po0r hiimh. hhaas.
den yst ish mummy's bday.
nth much. daddy bought mummy a POWER RANGER bday cake. lols.
cutee. had dinner at c0ffeesh0p.
fall asllp very early agaiin.
yst m0rnin wen check up f0rr preciious.
mummy acc me go.
coosh hubby niid book in camp.
hmm. early in th m0rnin lorr.
wen ther check up, scan, do r0untine check ups also took me long hrs.
reach ther at 8am, abt 11am den leave th h0spital.
saw my preciious.
damn cutee.
turnin abt, m0vin ard, kickin.
th shape ob preciious ish more & more clearer.
buhh too bad. stil cant c whether preciious ish a b0ii or girl.
hhaas. wait til next check up bahs.
enc0untin f0rr 6wks tyme.
ii gr0wn fat again. xtra 2kg.
0mg. every mth im gr0win fat by 2kg.
hhaas. h0pe dun gr0w too fatt.
lols. wait hard to slim dwn. LMAOs.

& dearest precii0us ish alrdy 14wks6day biig..

wiished my dearest MUMMY & WINNIE happy bday =D

so longg siince ii last blogg..

2008-11-12T15:44:00.002+08:00

been so long siince ii last blogg.
many tings happen.
sad de im nort gonna raise a word abt it.
buhh ii shall jus rake th good news.
hmm. monday wen to Register of Marriage to settle hiish daddy's signature & our vertification.
dunno hw to say onii know me & hubby need SWEAR & say th documents of long words.
hhaas. afte dat, headed to amk to mit mummy & haf lunch tgt.
so niice ob hubby, treated us wit PING SHI lunch.
den afte dat hubby's daddy wen off.
left me, hubby & mummy.
so we wen to buy my tonics.
lols. spent abt $200+ wit jus onii PAO SEND & th chicken essence lorr.
damn ex. hmm.
den wen to walk ard til abt 4pm+ wen hme rest awhile.
hmm. monday night didnt wen forr klass, coosh ii was late.
& cant get in2 th klass..
so acc hubby & treated hiimh to watch moviie o07.
hhaas. nice show bahs.

den as forr tues, didnt do anythin much.
mornin wen to market & ahyi's wrk place.
coosh ii nid to get myself a new slipper, as mine slippers ish all very slippery.
mummy say ii nw ish 2 ppl lerh.
mus b more xiiao xiin.
hmm. afte dat wen hme, rest awhile coosh my left hand was in pain.
mummy said ii carry too heavy tings.
so wil pain. shagg.
hmm. den in th evenin, wen to ah ma's hse chit chat.
afte dat headed to SHENG SIONG.
lols. very song lorr. coosh goes everywher ish wit mummy.
coosh she ride her motor lonbang me.
saved alot ob my transport fee.
whahas.

as forr today, tidyiin th whole room.
finally its clean & tidy.
coosh grandmother & two cousins ish cumiin to spore forr holidays for abt 2mths.
so ii nid to tidy up so dat they wont anyhw touch my tings too.
hhaas. later stil gt klass.
abiit lazy to go. coosh busy wit hse wrk th whole day.
shagg lorr. gonna go rest awhile.
den gonna prepare forr klass soon.

hmm. next monday ish cumin nearer & nearer lerh.
mummy's bday & my preciious appt check up.
hopes everythin goes well.

& my big day ish cfm lerh.
o2o22oo9 @ 4pm =D

everythiin ish backiie to normal lerh..

2008-11-05T13:23:00.004+08:00

everythiin ish backiie to normal lerh.
we were okays alrdy.
& everythiin & arrangement ish made too.
ii choose n decides everythiin.
& ii haf decided to gibb it a last chance.
ii believe he wil mak me b bless & happy de.
ii trust hiimh.
bcoosh ii lovee hiimh too much..
ii love my baby too much..

preciious,mummy wil nabe leave y0uu al0ne ever agaiin.
mummy wil care f0rr y0uu m0re.
f0r n0w,
mummy wil jus niid to wrk hard, study hard & tak care well f0rr y0uu & my health.
mummy & daddy ish waitin f0rr y0ur arrival w0rs =x

& btw,
my previious p0st mayb s0und very hurt .
buhh afte all,
its all my feelins.
ii dun mean to hurt any0ne.
mayb im jus too depress & lack ob l0vee duriin my pregnacy perii0d..
im s0rriie f0r ein selfiish too.
ii l0vee all the ppl ard me too..

& n0w other den waitin f0r my lil preciious arriival,
im waitin f0r precii0us check up.
hhaas. so tat ii cn kn0w its a ger or b0ii.
whahax.
& im waitin f0rr o2o22oo9 @ 4pm.
the day ii say : Yes,i do!

omg , later startin my new part tyme klass lerh.
hmm. so shagg & stress.
w0nderin hw my new klassmates lok likes.
whahax.
Business Operations..
h0pes everythin g0es well f0rr me.
STUDY HARD =DD

everythin ended..

2008-11-03T01:41:00.002+08:00

im jus a fool.
im too stupid to believe those words he said to me.
im jus a toy to hiimh.
breakin up seems easy.
yahs, jus end everythin bahs.
im tired ob endurin.

he dunno hw much torture hiieh haf giben me.
he dunno hw much hurt he haf giben me.
he dunno hw much tears ii haf tear forr hiimh.
he jus dunno wad ii need most nw.

im simply nth to hiimh.
ii cant step in2 hiish lyfe at all.
ii am jus nth in hiish heart.

he cant feel my lovee.
he cant feel my paiin.
he cant feel anythin.

ii hatee hiimh nw.
ii hatee myself too.

sry preciious, hope youu know why mummy choose tiis path.

爱太痛...

2008-11-02T03:26:00.002+08:00

ii decided to let go. for now & forever.
ii told myself to endure no matter wad.
buhh now.
ii cant tak it anymore.
scold me wen ever you like, ii endure.
use force on me wen you re angry, ii endure.
buhh now..
you scolded my mummy wit bad words.
re you human?
wad do we owe you?
we re not your dog or rathe owe you anythin.
ii tink we re reali thrug.

im tired ob plsiin you everytyme you re angry.
im tired to endure wad ever attitude frm you.
im tired ob quarrellin over lil tings wit you.
im tired ob everythin.

ii shall let go nw.
mummy ish right.
she dun wished to c me in paiin next tyme.
now paiin rathe den next tyme more paiin.
ii let go.
im a loser.
happy.

preciious, sorry, mummy cant kiip you anymore.
mayb without mummy, you wil get to a better family.
sorry for being cruel.
im nort a good mummy.
tak care preciious.
ii love you always.

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了

2008-10-31T21:33:00.002+08:00

im sick again . so nabe go wrk . shag .
he didnt know hw sick ii am .
yet hiish throwin temper at me .
tinkin dat ii purposely dun wanna find hiimh .
my heart ish cryiin , coosh hiieh dun understands me at all .
buhh yet , ii cant feel any tears frm my eyes .
am ii tired ob cryiin ?
or ii haf no more tears to cry .

ii haf to b strong .
for the sake of preciious .
buhh im a girl too .
ii need a someone to b ther to hold me wen im feelin low .
my heart broke in2 millions ob pieces .
im very very tired .
tired ob quarrellin .
who wil b ther forr me ?

tmr til tues , ii wil b wrkin full shift frm mornin til closin .
gonna b more & more tired lerh .
ii af no choiice .
ii haf to earn more b4 no much tyme .
coosh preciious due date ish next yr .
ii mus b strong no matter wad .

next wed ii wil b startin my part tyme klass lerh .
ii haf to wrk & study at the same tyme .
dear god , pls allow me to b strong .
ii know nw adays many ppl turn to b siick .
buhh nw , ii cant afford to b siick .
pls bless me wit good health .
jus good enuff to let preciious to b healthly .
im willin to do or gibb up anythin forr my dearest preciious .
ii left wit no lovee frm hiimh .
ii jus wanna dotee n lovee my preciious .

吃不能吃睡不能睡
没有了你全都不对
我都学不会把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠
笑不能笑哭不敢哭
人不像人鬼不像鬼
朋友都说这不过失恋
但我却连呼吸都胆怯

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了

我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了

能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把爱割舍
...我不能睡...
我不能够不能够不爱了

g0nna prepare f0rr wrk agaiin =D

2008-10-28T13:16:00.002+08:00

g0nna prepare myself f0rr wrk agaiin . stress . ther g0es my 0ff day agaiin . haiiz .

yst mit up wit my huilin , she acc0mpanied me t0 pasta mania . hhaas . had my lunch , chatted & catched up s0me stuff , wen sh0pping ard , den 0ff she went , & ii went back t0 sh0p t0 wait f0rr hubby . shagg . wait f0rr hiimh damn l0ngg . den ii wen BHG sh0pping n0rr . siianx . stupid 0ff day . hhaas . yst pegg w0rk wit hubby , den 0ng al0ne at village . damn it wn ii wrk , 0ng 0was free to g0 sp0t check , 0was say sh0p dirty , yst DEEPAVALI , ii wen dwn sh0pp , 0ng nv g0 .. stupiid lo . hhaas . den afte dat abt 10+ waited pegg & hubby t0 cl0se sh0p , den hubby b0ught me to THE CATHAY . den ther n0 sh0w , s0 cabb dwn to ciine . watched MAX PAYNE . quite niice , we reached ther ard 11+ . den we watched 1.35am sh0w . we was like ... dunn0 h0w t0 spend 0ur free tyme lo . walkin here & ter til tymes up . shagg .

saw Fabian . buhh nv called hiimh . hhaas . den afte sh0w , cabbed h0me . washed up , & sllp . & n0w g0iin f0rr wrk lerh lorr . wad a day .

hubby = stringray
& he nv allow me to eat stringray .
he t0ld e he make me happy awhile , coosh yst hubby say preciious ish a baby girl .. buhh many ob my frens all say cfm ish b0ii . & im w0nderiin .. arghh .. buhh nvm lahs . girl or b0ii all the same . n0 matter wad , ii wil survive wiit preciious =D

ii made the stupidest mistakes.

2008-10-27T15:26:00.002+08:00

many up & dwns . ii swear ii really cant tak it or hold it . buhh stil ii stil haf to edure .
ii made a stupidest mistakes . ish to trust dat he haf changed frm the past . & nw , im totally wrong . coosh everythin changed . he wasnt dat sweet anymore . all tiis thans to hiis beloved bro & mummy . ii jus dunno why . why cant they jus stop breakiin us up . we haf nort been quarrel for almost 2wks . den suddenly , coosh ob their stupid acts , we endin up quarrel almost everyday . im tired . im really tired . im stil holdin on nort bcoosh ii nid hiimh . its bcoosh ob my preciious . ii dun wann my preciious to haf a broken family . buhh nw , afte eery quarrel , it seems like everythin ish fated . its fated dat ii wil b a loner forever . ii deserve no man to love & dote ..

im very depress , & ii know its turnin in2 depression . buhh ii jus cant stop the way he scolded me during every quarrels . im jealous the way he treated others so well & yet nort me . imjealous dat he nv scold any1 so badly buhh me . im goiin to kii siao anytyme . buhh im really tryiin my best to avoid all these . it hurts me . ii miss the hiimh , whom treated me so well everyday b4 he went in DB . afte he released , he changed . everything changed . ii cant feel the lovely hiimh . im so alone nw .

he promised to go out wit me , coosh its a very longg tyme since we can off tgt . ii haf been wrkiin non-stopp thrug the whole week . & ii did nort complain . yst we ended up quarrel over lil tings , & he wen to wrk & leave me at hme .

ii really feel like letting go . buhh my heart cant allow me to do dat . why ? bcoosh ob preciious . everything ii do nw , ii wil scare dat ii hurtmy preciious . ii tried to gibb in all bcoosh ob preciious , hw long more ii can endure ? ii cant find my frens , coosh ii dun wann dem to worry & he wont really allows me to go out . ii cant find mummy coosh she haf her tings to do . who can ii find ? ii tried talkin to hiimh , yet we ended quarrellin again . ii jus niid abiit more loved . who wil gibb me dat ? im human too . ii haf feelins too . so ii cant vent my temper or anger , ii jus gort to hurt myself . ii haf been hurtin myself , ii rather feel paiin den enduriin it inside my heart . coosh ii feel suffocated . ii cant breathe anymore . ii niid more space .

my part tm klass startiin on the 5th ob nov . gonna prepare myself frm study & wrk . hopiin ii wil handle tings well . ii miss myself . ii miss everything iiused to haf . ii miss my frens ..

happy annii =DD

2008-10-22T01:06:00.002+08:00

HAPPY ANNI , my Hubby .

lovee lovee .

lazy to updae .

gonna sllp soon .

tmr gort wrk agaiin .

i jus love my lyfe , my hubby =DD

started wrkiin agaiin =D

2008-10-21T07:40:00.002+08:00

yappx . been wrkiin for a few days lerh . currently wrkiin at hubby's wrk pllace . hhaas . new wrk frens , new lyfe , new schedule ob lyfe . n0rt so b0red & em0ti0nal liaos . hhaas .

dearest fren , pls takiie a look at tiis n0tes . hhaas . ii haf change my number once agaiin . very s0rriie f0rr the tr0ubles . buhh really n0 ch0iice nahs .

ii l0st my handf0niie , thanss t0 my itchy hands . sunday niight quarrel wiit hubby . den suddenly cant c0ntr0l , as my hand was h0ldiin my handf0niie , s0 under anger , ii threw my handf0niie to the ground . at 1st hubby dunn0 wad ii thr0w s0 didnt b0ther . buhh afte awhile , wen ii ran 0ff , he den realiise it . buhh by the tyme he realiise it , my handf0niie alrdy l0st . 0nly my keychaiin , back c0ver left niia . lols . n0 ch0ice , s0 yst b0ught a new handf0niie , LG SECRETS . hhaas . pr0miise w0nt anyh0w thr0w liaos . b0 hua lorr . shagg =x

been naber attend t0 klass . to tiired & m0rniin siickness iin the m0rnin mahs . buhh ii realii c0nsider ha0 lerh . if my transfer appr0val cant b appr0ve , den b0 biian , ii wil change back to m0rnin klass . lols . ii miiss my sh0ppiin days . ii wanna makan PASTA MANIA leiis ..

为你而活

2008-10-19T03:12:00.003+08:00

my mind ish in a mess .
smtymes ii dunno why am ii living iin tiis world .
ish it worth anythin ?
or ish it a test in lyfe ?
so many tears ii haf drop , so many unhappiness came in2 my lyfe .
my lyfe ish stil in a mess .

mummy said dat im gonna b a mother soon .
askin me why am ii stil so confused in lyfe , so sad everyday .
ii cant answer her questiions .
my heart ish in a mess .

rmbiin , few days back , haf sm lil quarrels wit hubby .
ended up emily & alviin , her bf .
consultin me .
ii feel so ashamed .
ii feel so bad .
lettin so many ppl worry for me .
buhh any1 really know wads on my mind ?
ii jus wann happiness , ii jus wann peaceful lyfe .
n0thing else .
ish it very hard ?

gettin marry , wil ii haf my happiness ?
wil ii b loved ?

2ways forr me to go thru everythin in my lyfe .
to ENDURE or to GIVE UP .
ii chose ENDURIN .
wil ii face everythin ?
cn ii managed to overcome everythin ?

yst wen to watch niight moviie wit hubby .
its been long siince we last watched .
we watched the CONNECTED .
lols . damn funny niice show . hhaas . lovees .

PS . Jeslyn , my beloved nuer . hhaas . ii dunno its y0uu . coosh ii didnt wear contact lense . ii tot who . lols . sorriie . next tyme saw me , come to my front n talk to me . hhaas .

happy siia =D seeiin my preciious gowiin up each day

2008-10-13T23:08:00.002+08:00

happy siia . yst stay over at hubby's ah yi hse agaiin . coosh 2day we niid & wante to go check up . hmm ii wake up ard 8am+ . tks to the babiies again . lols . den prepare , waiit hubby wake up den off we go . hmm . wen to K K Hospital . took bus over frm CCK . lucky gort straiight bus . hhaas . hmm . den go register , took tests , ultrascan & c doc .. & afte dat tks to hubby , wann me paiin , so he told the doc 2day straiight do blood test . den stupiid lorr . the nurse say my veiin too small , my right hand nort enuff blood , so took my left hand blood too . damn paiin nor . buhh nv cry lahs . seeiin the nurse twiist & turn & the 2 bid tube ob blood . OMG =DD

hmm . & the ultrascan was good . hubby wen in wit me . lols . saw my preciious baby lil hand & leg kickiin . wahs . so happy . hubby oso happy . hhaas . den go c doc , talked wit doc abt my pregnancy . den afte dat go tak my medicines & vitamins lerh . took shuttle bus to bugiis , ac c hubby go hiish wrk place den ii go hme & rest . nw starts to feel bad again . ii gonna go rest lerh . tata =x

tired & shagg

2008-10-11T20:03:00.002+08:00

backiie hme . stay over at hubby's ah yi place .
cant realii slp well . so wake up very earli ..
helped to lok afte e 5kids . hhaas . all babiies siia .

hmm . yst met up wit crystal n her bf ard 8pm forr dinner .
hhaas . niice diinner siia . damn long nv eat til so long n spiicy food lerh .
lol . hmm . afte dinner acc hubby finished wrk , den walked to MUSTAFA find Tingda & buy sm tings den headed backiie to their ahyi's hse .
too lazy to blog nw . tata =D

happiest day .. ii tink ..

2008-10-10T15:38:00.002+08:00

hhaas . wake up ard 2pm+ .
wen to cook my own lunch & prepare my aii xiin shapgettii forr hubby .
hhaas . later goiin over to hiih camp ther to fetch hiimh & surprisse hiimh .
cooh he owassay ii weak . den lil tings oso cant do .
so ii wanna prove hiimh wrong .
coosh at least ii cn prepare my own cooked lunch for hiimh .
hhaas .
hope he likes it .
coosh ii know hubby dun tak spiicy food .
so ii prepare tomatoes & potatoes sauce forr hiish shapgettii .
hmm . shagg .
didnt go skool .
coosh very xiin ku . so hubby asked me to stop my skool for smtyme better .

ii wasnt feeliin good , as its my mornin siickness .
duriin pregnancy ish so xiin ku & tough .
yappx . yst told mummy everythin lerh .
ii criied . coosh she didnt scold me .
buhh she say as long ii happy cn liiaos .
hmm . ii tiink mostly wil b a small weddin bahs .
coosh my health wasnt very good .
cant hold it too biig too .
buhh im waitin to wear my lifetyme once de WEDDING GOWN =D

ying & lin say they wanna b my bridemaids .
den help me pull my weddin gown frm bhind .
lols . imgainin they pull off everythin . hhaas .
it was the joke we had went our trip to JB =x

tell me why...

2008-10-09T18:18:00.003+08:00

its been a couple of months since you left my heart behind cryin` all my tears out as my eyes becomin` blind nothing feels the same cuhz i`m so used to being held friends would be concerned of me but never would i tellthat i was gettin` hurt by the only one i ever loved the one who was created to be sent to me from abovei still don`t know what went wrong, or why we had to end not only were you my baby but you were my best friend and now it seems like i`ve lost everything i ever had everything worth livin` for, flyin away from my hand slivin` everyday, questioning myself the same thing you left without a reason, left me here reminicin

bacc when we was younger, we both each made a promise tellin` each other that we would always be honest of how we felt, what we thought, and soon that day came you took my hand, asked me out, and walked together in the rain we spent hours on the fone, we were close like white on rice playin around, asking me to one day be your wife when they saw you, they saw me standing right next to you matchin` everyday, matchin` clothes, matchin` hat and shoes always dedicating songs we hear to each other always thinking that all of those days would last forever tell me why everything had to come to this you dont understand, there`s so much things that i miss

whatever happened to the promises you made whatever happened to the future you wanted to create now it`s all down the drain, all the time we spent, wasted whenever we had problems, we had always fixed and saved it so why the change of heart, tell me why are we apart when you told me before that you loved me since the start tell me why you suddenly wanna leave our past behind baby all i`m asking you is to please tell me why(tell me why, tell me why)

theres so much pain for me to hide inside but you don`t even notice so theres no use to hide i miss the feeling u gave me wen you looked into my eyes and now when i remember the moment all i do is cry the day you left, baby, you took my dreams with you i can`t even rebuild them cuhz i`m standin alone without you stop giving me all the stories, cuhz i know those are lies jus open your heart, look into my eyes, and tell me why

remember the days we used to share when you told me that always nd forever you would care now you left me alone, holding on to the fone hopin` things would go bacc to how it was long ago tell me why what made you decide to leave me bacc tell me why there was nothing that you, you didn`t have tell me why remember the days we used to share when you told me that always nd forever you would care now you left me alone, holding on to the fone hopin` things would go bacc to how it was long ago tell me why what made you decide to leave me bacc tell me why there was nothing that you, you didn`t have tell me why

______________________________

when JB yst wit my two loveely .

yappx . been longg , siince ii last went .

yesh , ii changed my blog's songs again .

my current playiin song so niice & meaninful .

lol . hmm . wen JB . didnt buy anythin .

onii helped hubby buy ciig . lol .

ate our lunch at malaysia's SWENCENSE again .

hhaas . wasnt eatiin well . coosh chii bu xiia .

lols . afte dat wen sopp ard . nth much . dunno why .

den came back spore ard 4pm+ , den wen to Lin's hse to wait her changed .

actuali was goiin to town wit dem , buhh last miin ii didnt .

didnt wiished to mentions .

hmm . wen to bugiis to find hubby .

suddenly very emo .

msged lianx a .

lols . & ii dunno why kiip cryiin .

den ii was alone at bus stop .

criied til gort an office lady offer me a tissue .

lols . lok so much like a clown . haiis .

buhh reali . ii dunno wad happen to me .

buhh Tingda told me its normal .

coosh inside my body , hermones ish changiin .

so very easily emotional de .

ii reali hope ii can overcome everythin .

alrights . yahs . hubby was right .

ii wann my preciious to b a happy baby , so ii cant b too emo .

ii mus stay happy & lok at the bright side .

arghh . im tryiin hard .!!

& afte dat , wen to CCK , wen to find hubby's ahyi .

chatted abt our prob . den decision oso made lerh .

so hopiin tings wil b fine .

me & hubby wil overcome everythin .

& ii wil learn to b a good mummy , good girl ..

ii live for myself . nort for others .

so tose who c me no up de , ii wil prove wrong to youu .

okays . ii lovee myself , my frens , my hubby & my baby ..

ii tink ii cant kiip runnin the facts .

so ii haf told mummy wad happen .

& nw waitin for herr to come hme .

& ii shlld have a good talk wit her lerh .

hopes tings wil b okays .

& as forr my studiies , mayb ii wil stop for awhile or changed to part tyme .

coosh my health wasnt doiin good .=(

bcoosh ii drink too much cold water .. arghh .

ii mus kiick away my bad habits .

my laziiness , my crybaby attitude , my emo attitude & no COLD drinks =xx

c0nfused l0vee

2008-10-07T15:05:00.004+08:00

im c0nfused & scare & l0nely .
ii dunno why ii feel tiis way .
h0pe its n0rt my depressi0ns .
ii dun reali kn0w wad ii wann ,
im reali c0nfused .
smtymes ii find l0vee seems so c0mplicated .
ish all tiis a test or jus my stupiid tinkin ?
perhpas its my imaginati0n bahs .
ii jus wann everythin settle .
& ii dun ask f0rr m0re .
ii jus need m0re l0vee & caree .
buhh ii dun feel any at all .
ii feel so lonely .
tearin over every lil tings .

smtymes im tinkin ,
why ish those who jus passed away at their lil age de ,
g0rt so much c0urage t end their lyfe .
& cant ii ?
if everythin ends , wil ii b happy den nw ?
wil ii feel l0veed afte dat ?
im so so c0nfused ..
all my frens re busy wit their own tings .
no1 kn0w im l0nely .
why ?
ish tis my revenge ?
or im stated to b l0nely f0rever ?

You took your love away
Too fast
Left no chance to say
Look back
Now I know the truth

-It makes it easier,
Maybe when time goes by,
I'll understand
Let's pretend that
I've moved on
And I'll tell myself
That life goes on without you

-Open my eyes and look deep inside,
I run away
You threw it all away
So blind
Pushed me far from you and your life
Now I know the tears
Wont relieve the loneliness
Maybe when time goes by
I'll understand it
Let's pretend that
I've moved on
And I'll tell myself
That life goes on without you

-Open my eyes and look deep inside,
I run away... ...

yappx . tmr im goin to JB wit my pretty lovees .
yahs . finally all the misunderstandin ish bhind us .
let bygones b bygones bahs .
im n0rt dat xiiao qii too .
buhh no matter wad ..
pls note dat ..
no matter wad ..
ii nid ur LOVE n CARE too .
hao bu hao =x

sorry for the long lost updates

2008-10-06T08:06:00.004+08:00

hmm . sorry for the long lost updates nahs . hmm . recently haf been busy wit wrk & acc my baby. lols . so NO TYME to blog nahs . many tings happen ups & dwns too . buhh finally its over . ii made a choice forr ymself & hiimh . hmm . anw , wiished us good lucks nahs =D

cheers . yst was my last day at wrk . coosh its a f**kin liar wrk place . cheated my salary . & ii tot ii was suppose to b a part tymer onii . yet ii haf to wrk everyday & ot . shagg . hmm . yappx . baby released frm DB lerh . so happy . the day he released til nw , everyday wit hiimh . forever so sweet de hiimh . hmm . ii oso 4get wad recently happened . buhh 1 tiing im gonna announced ish dat ... ... IM GETTIN MARRIED =D hhaas . miight seems surprise horr . yappx . buhh me & baby decided hao lerh . afte ROM we goiin apply hse frm HDB . & we'll b our good DADDY & MUMMY lerh . yappx . am pregnant . its a very long tyme ago de tings . baby & ii decided to jus ROm & small buffet & weddin gown onii . hhaas . th latest my weddin date ish christmas . buhh wil arrange tings fast too =xx

ii hope its nort a flash dream onii . anw , baby ish very very sweet & niice to me . im tryiin my best to let every1 knows dat too . coosh ii know hw sm othe ppl feels between me & hiimh . yahs . past he miight b very bad . buhh nw , he changed . he lovees & dotees me =DD

muackxx . wil update my latest news asap . chech it out soon =DD

exams week .

2008-09-22T20:11:00.003+08:00

n0thiing to bllog forr tiis few days . as tiis whole wk am d0iin my diploma exams .

take cares . buhh no worriies , as all taggs wil b replied =D

355th post =D

2008-09-20T19:59:00.003+08:00

yappx . backiie agaiin . hmm . sorriie . yst nabe bllog . cooh am too tired lerh . afte visit hiimh . 12.3opm reached hiish hse . waiit forr hiish mummy to b ready . den siince Tingda stil haven go out . he eat , den chatt wiit hiimh . so nervous upon seeiin hiimh . wonderiin cn get iin anot norr . shagg . ard 1pm . finally . hiish mummy iish okay lerh . den slowly walked to MRT den to YewTee . shagg . reached YewTee ii tot she was goiin to tak cabb . as its alrdy 1.35pm . we mus reached at 2pm . scare latee . den tks to hiis PO . saiid walk very fast de . coosh very near . damn it lorr . ii wil nv 4get the longg distance & the biig merry go round we walked . while walkiin , hiish mummy kiip complaiiniin dat he siiao diing dong . do all tiis bo liiaos tiings . haiis . liisten lerh ob coosh answer herr back nor . no choiice . hiieh owas asked me to talked niicely wiit hiish mummy . hmm . so fiinally . asked so many ppl . & finally , afte 15miins walked . the deep , long way .. & we reached . den go regiister all dat .. den mus waiit agaiin . stupiid .!

fiinally , abt 2.30pm . fiinally cn go iin lerh . so so so anxiious lorr . haf nort been seeiin hiimh for abt 1wk . den fiinally go iin2 the room . table by table . wen to fiind hiimh . YESSH .!!!! fiinally c hiimh lerh . hiieh kept smilin . hiieh chatted wiit hiish mummy 1st .forr nort more den 5miins . hiish mummy passed to me . & everytym left ish miine . hhaas . siilly hiimh . so happy upon seeiin hiimh . chatted . & hiieh stil , the same . jus abiit tann . dunno why . den chatted & hiieh stil the same . asked me dun wrk . asked me forr hiimh come out can lerh . den backiie to our seriious topiic . ii told hiimh everythiin lerh . buhh addiin wit a NOT CFM yet . so hiieh repliied wiit the answer im waitin forr . wil b responsible forr everythiin . & fiinally . he said . okays , we *ahem ahem* bahs . im so happy . & ii asked hiimh agaiin . askiin hiimh cfm anot . & hiieh say YAHS . hhaas . so happy norr .

hmm . nw everythiin so called settle liiaos . im so happy . yahs . 2more days to go to 22th . hmm . nth much . wont realii feel sad . coosh currently im countiin dwn on hiish release date . next mth 20+ . ii shall asked hiimh a cfm date duriin the next visit . hhaas . tmr goiin hiish hse to helped hiimh to packed hiish tiings . & hiish mummy asked meto . coosh she saiid she dunno hw to pack . yahs . so mus go dwn hellped abiit . anythiin , ii wil try to calm dn & talked wiit hiish mummy . coosh its tyme to let the past to go . cant blame her too . aiiyahs . nw everythiin iish haf to waiit forr hiimh release & say & do . anythiin else forr me to worry ? mayb nort bahs .

she told me smtiing . she said herr feelings .. saiid dat my "ahem" will nort mak it. ii know she dun meant anythiin . buhh she nv understand hw it hurts me . so ii decided nort to persue tiis prob . yet ii cant 4get hw she tell me . buhh nvm . ii beliive hiimh . ii know who cn giib me the happiness . who cant . okays . as ii saiid . all tiis re arranged by god . its all a fated giift frm god too . cheriish it b4 youu regret . tiis iish wad ii know nw niia .

smtymes ish beta to b alone den haviin frens . coosh every1 grows up day by day . & every1 ish changiin day by day . youu wil nort know wad wil happen tmr . anw , iim reali wonderiin . wads BFF stands for . its nort a regret versiions in lyfe . buhh a questiion forr youu to answer to urself everyday . haviin true frens , who cares , loves , shares & dotes on youu iish so xiin fu . ii was once statiisfiied wiit dat .. buhh nw , tiings re diff . nort sayiin im jealous or wad . ii jus fiind dat , iim so so so stupiid & silly iin sayiin BFF owas come iin front ob BF . buhh im totally wrongg . ii made a wrong choiice . coosh seeiin dem owas wiit theiir loved ones onii . its beta den hafiin a BFF too . mab to dem , BFF wasnt dat impt like wad ii tiink too . hmm . iif ii can turn tyme away , ii wil make a U TURN . & says my BF ish impt den anythiin else . wil ii b able to overcome tiis ? ii dunno . ii tiink , iim too scare to mak frens anymore . coosh the old frens wil owas b 4gotten as dey haf & iish njoyini wiit their new frens nw ..

anw , yst iish 19th . ish LIANX A bday . HAPPY 20TH BDAY . nw youu re same as me . we re iin our twentiies . diff tiings happens . overcome all & stay as happy as b4 . all the best iin wadeva youu do too . stay pretty .=D

yesh . ii made the choices myself .

2008-09-18T22:06:00.002+08:00

ii know ii haf been up & dwns wiit my mood swiings & emotional changes. buhh .. ii jus cant tak it. ii know sm ob youu re weii lerh wo hao. alright. all ii wann to say iish. very siimple. tings & path ish ii chose de. ii ownt regret. okays.? yesh, thank youu forr ur adviice & feeliins. ii wil hear & kiip it within me. & the final anser wil b myself choosiin the road ii chose to walk. okays.?

if 1day, ii realli regret or wad. dun worry. ii wont blame youu. buhh to blame myself. as its the final decision ii made. okays. & ii wont make youu fiind me a fuss. ii will brace up myself. overcome everythiing myself. bcoosh ii know ii can do it.

riight nw. exam ish round the corner. ii jus wanna study hard. make a PASS iin it. everythiin, shall come afte my studiies. okays. dun worry. ii wont miix my personall feelins wiit studiies de. ii will try my best to make everythiin the best. includiin myself.

every1 will haf a chance to fall iin lyfe. so dats owas up & dwns. no matter wad the outcomes ish. jus brace up, b strong & overcome iit. tiis iish wad ii learn. okays.

1yr ago, ii tot ii wouldn't b seeiin hiimh again. we chose to break off. & liive ourself.
1yr back, we re here tgt. haviin same *probs*. & its all by FATE.
cheriish wad we haf nw & never regrets.
bcoosh everythiin ish destiny.
its fate.
& ob coosh a test frm god.
Pass or Fail? hhaas. no1 knows. onlly y0uu =DD

im very very HAPPY ..

2008-09-18T02:12:00.002+08:00

ii promiised dat ii wil b very very happy n satisfied . ii promiise to cheer up & everythin . everythin ish backiie to normal . ii shall nort tiink too much anymore . yaya =))

2day wen over to find Tingda to read the letter & tings . & im very very HAPPy ii swear .. he never 4get abt me . he asked hiish mum to briing me over to visit hiimh . he asked hiish mum to talk wit me . he asked hiish mum n bro to look afte me . im very very happy . & he didnt 4get abt me .. coosh the very last part ob the letter , he wrote for me .. askiin hw's my exam & study .. askiin me to take care & wait forr hiimh . im reali very happy nw .. ii promiise . & ii made a promiise upon seeiin the letter . ii wont EMO anymore ..

& the promiise ii made withiin the god .. & ii win ..
ii cant sllplast niight .. ii swear to god to make a decision ..
ii saiid . if 2day goiin to raiin , it meant ii shall gibb up on hiimh & everythiin & b strong to face up the fact ob beiing *ahem ahem*..
if it does nort raiin , it means , ish worth my waiitiin & everythiin wil b fiine ..
so ii wen out . & mit hany ..
& 2day ... ...
was a SUNNY day =))
ii won . iim happy . so nw , im very happy & stronger lerh . jiayouus ..

so lets tlk abt my happy tings =))

hmm . b4 mittin my HANY . ii wen to fiind Tingda 1st . den Winnie asked me to acc herr go shoppiin at viillage . so go lorr . no choiice . im bored too . she oso quite frenly . hhaas . den acc herr shop shop shop . saw stupiid Irish . hhaas . she onii regconise my sound den cor me de . hhaas . so funny . yappx . afte Winnie shop finished , ii wen over to Qiji to fiind my Hany . hhaas . ate my lunch wit her n her Bf .. den chatted . aftedat helped Tingda packet lerh . ii acc hany & her bf go junctiion walk walk . chattin happily on my TOPIC . hmm . den afte dat watched MAMA MIA . the moviie . nort bad . buhh its all singiin part . den bside me grt a stupiid lady kiip siingiin thru out the whole moviie . till ii BTH , den ii changed seats . kiip changiin . abt the 3rd tyme . & at last , ii changed wit hany's bf . right to the last seat . hhaas . damn KPO lorr . den afte moviie . acc Hany to Shugar ter do tings . den saw my UNCLE . omg . my ahyi's husband . he saw me , quickly he walked damn fast . & jus within 1min niia . ii lost hiimh . wah lan a. gort family lerh . stil gort fling . ii hatee it . den omg lor . wen ii complainin to my mummy , sorry . ii dunno my ahyi beside herr . den they kiip askin me non-stop tings . im sorry dat ii lost hiimh alright . buhh frankly sayiin . tiis type ob husband dun wan oso good nahs . realii . he haf too much ob tings to let me say abt hiimh . ii jus hatee hiimh . my ahgu , mummy , daddy . many ppl .. all hatee hiimh .. eee ..

hmm . den afte dat , we headed to JERK THAI . my fav .. makan dinner . yappx . suddenly .. im sososo CRAVIN for thaii food norr . ii haf lots of fun wit the 2 frens . even im like a light bulb .. im very happy . coosh she's my best fren . she owas tryiin her best to mit up wit me to listens to my unhappiness . tks girl . love ya .. hhaas . & tks forr ur lucks . ii wil do well in my exam de . okays .!! hhaas .

& here's the end ob my day for 2day . tiired now .. go sllp lerh .. tata =))

at last im relieved jus ABIT nor .

2008-09-16T20:18:00.004+08:00

at last . ii cn ease myself abiit lerh . coosh while waitin for Tingda's sms makes me tinks too much . so ii tried to called up hiish hse & asked hiish mummy . yahs . hiish mummy told me no calls frm there , buhh ther's a letter abt it . she asked me to asked Tingda better . alright . so tryiin hard to get stupiid Tingda th whole day . finally , hiieh read th letter & told me dat , hiish inside DB alrdy . so shall jus onib waiitiin for hiish release date . buhh th letter nv say wen he wil b release . haiis . nvm bahs . at least ii know th stupid MPs ish nort wastiin hiish tymes by pendiin th case . at least hiish inside DB ..

im QUITE relieved . buhh stil im stil waiitiin paiitiiently . my headaches stil haven goes off . damn paiin nor . hmm . im realii siick . nort dat siick . buhh ii know wil b very worse if ii dun rest well . & iic ant b afford to b siick now . ii niid to build up my health . for *smting* . & ob coosh my upcomiin exams nahs . siick lerh hw to go sit forr exams ? dots -,-"

im gonna b strong . stays strong .!
waiitiin forr youu =D

PS. iim reali wonderin . wil youu reply to me mahs ?
pls dun cos me to depression again hao mahs ?
ii trust to lovee youu .
so dun hurt me again .
wil youu ?
my heart is bleedin again .
im scare .
im scare dat youu wil ignore it .
& leave me alone .
wil youu do dat to me again ?
re ur promises true tiis tyme ?

ii cant get to sllp.
ii miissed hiimh badly.
if only he will b by my side nw.
in2 hiis hugg. cuddling me to sllp.
ii ob coos wil nort feel so depress n cryiin whole tymes.
ii dunno why.
cant understand hw.
all ii haf to learnt nw ish b strong.
ENDURE . can ii mak it?

doiin nth . watchiin 恋爱女王again ..

2008-09-16T02:38:00.002+08:00

watchiin 恋爱女王 agaiin . stl haven finished th show .
more n more touchiin . very niice .
nw exam break . at hme . like wann ki siiao .
shagg . no mood . due to sm PERSONAL REASON .
its nort cfm yet . buhh im stil stressiin upon it .
blessed me to overcome it bahs . hmm .
anw , im doiin self study at hme . everyday nahs .
buhh nort a very longg tyme . emily asked me to focus .
& im tryiin . i wil do it de .

haiiz . realii no pllace to go . or any1 wante to mit me .
all seems so busy . haiis .
anw , wed im mittin my hany .
yappx . missed her . its tyme to update agaiin .
shagg . its nort earlii lerh . gonna turn in soon . tata .

PS. emily , ii dun bllame youu for neglectiin me wen im troubled .
coosh afte ii read ur post . ii find dat youu reoso th same as me .
so stress up . nvm bahs . lets' overcome everythin .
JIAYOUUUus ..

suddenly ii miissed hiimh agaiin . missed hiimh badly . & ii miissed hiimh askiin me why ii like to send hiimh sms wit -,-" face .. so cutee . den he wil began to send diff face =)

im tired .. realii ..

2008-09-14T21:07:00.004+08:00

im tired . yahs . youu wann gibb attitude den gibb bahs .
im tiired ob tryiin . ii triied to talk to youu nicely . yet youu stil seem so fed up .
wann to continue tiis frenshiip or nort SUITS YOUU BAHS .!
im tired . ii hatee to b treate tiis way . ii didnt know what did ii do wrong .
made youu treat me tiis way .
ii know youu wil b readiin tiis .
& ii dun miind . coosh im tired . siince youu say dun tel youu abt my tiings .
fiine . b it .
ii dun miind . coosh ii had enuff .
ii dun owe youu anythiin .
yuu owas made me tiink dat youu re th best fren eva ..
coosh youu owas lend me ur ears ..
buhh nw ..
im totally wrong ..ii dunno wads' wrong wit youu ..

yahs . ii know im a loner .. ii dun niid frens .
den b it bahs . all ob youu re jus th same ..
youu know who youu re .
dun fren dun fren lahs . n niid so chiildiish de mahs .. ?
showiin me those f**k up attitude . okays .!

hope youu njoy ur day & lyfe .
goodbye ..!
ii jus dunno wad th f**k ii do wrong & made youu treat me tiis way .
youu nabe talk to me wit : suits you bahs ..
& nw youu did .
youu know th attitude wen talkiin to me mahs .
youu know hw ii feel mahs .
yahs . ii tiink too much .. mayb youu doesnt mean anythin ..
buhh pls lahs . those words n words youu used to talked to me , HURTs me .!
okays .! ii know youu gt mny frens .
dun haf me oso th same .
its okay .! ii leave your world .

GOODBYE . youu jus disappoint me .
in many ways . yahs . youu re educated person . im nort .
coosh im frm NT .. & youu re nort .
happy . im jus an ah liianx . & youu ? gort good future ..
we re 2 world frens ..
okays .!

doiin nth . watchiin 恋爱女王 ..

2008-09-14T13:09:00.002+08:00

hmm . wakiie up by bro disturb . cooh he wann to play comp . play my ds . eat my honey star .
hmm . nvm lerh . coosh he dunno ii sllp at 5am .
lols . cant get to sllp . fiind drama show to watch ..
& finally , found th 恋爱女王 .. so watched lerh .
quite funny . lols . its jus a aii qiing ku shii nahs ..
watch til espoide 2 lerh . gonna carry on later ..

miissiin hiimh dearly agaiin .
its very hard forr me to get to bed .. ii try driinkiin ..
even lots ob martell ii driink . ii jus cant stop miissiin hiimh .
haiiz . mummy asked me wad happen .
& ii told her .. bf wen to trainin in ns .. cant use hp or contact me .. abt 2mths ..
den very emo . nth to do . no mood to go out or leave my room . so ii criied ..
den frens all busy wit their own lyfe . no1 ish ther forr me ..
den mummy asked me to tiink positive . coosh she udnerstand my feeliins nw ..
she knew dat im very emotional .. & depress .
she asked me to go fiind Nini or my aunty .. or even herr . if im realii lonely .
mummy , ii know ii haf grown up . ii shlld b thiinkiin positive sides .
& nort so emo .. buhh im tryiin very hard arr .
tymes takes pllace de .. okays ?

haiiz . ii wil try nort to tiink so muchh .
ii wil kiip myself busy .. buhh at least let me miiss hiimh abiit hao mahs ..

ii miissiin hiimh agaiin . siians . bro nw playiin wit my ds .
later gonna go backiie . no1 acc me agaiin .
haiiz . im sucha loner .
ii learn to b strong . ii tiink ii wil do hse wrk n mak myself busy n self study to 4get those unhappiness .
if nort he c lerh oso wont b happy .

im tryiin . hmm .
anw , ii hereby intro youu guys to go & watch 恋爱女王 .. its a very niice show .
& th AH XING damn yandaos . hhaas .
hmm . as forr girl , ii tiink th JIA XIN & QIAO LE oso pretty ..
hhaas . go do my tiings lerh .. tata .

PS . sorriie lin .. ii didnt turn up .. ii jus dun wiished to leave my room .
ii know its a golden opportunity . buhh stil , sorriie ..

ii jus miiss miiss youu lotsa ..

2008-09-14T02:01:00.006+08:00

ii jus miiss miiss youu so much . its th-2nd niight lerh ..
cant sllp . & im driinkiin alone lorr . sorriie .
ii know ii promiise you dat ii wont driink without youu .
buhh plls understand me forr nw . my feeliins . my miind . ish miissiin youu dearly .
no1 understands me . ii know ii chose youu made many ppl dulan me ..
buhh plls . ii made th choiice myself . jus allow me to b happy hao mahs .?
dun doubt hiimh . ii know he haf once hurt me .. buhh nw , why cant gib hiimh a chance to mend it ?
gort wrong mehs ? wen youu all ignores & neglect me de tymes .
who's th one ther to support n makes me happy ?
wen its my bday , all ob youu cant mak it , gibiin xcuses .. who's th one gibbin me surpriise ?
wen iim lonely .. who's th one listeniin to me ?
plls . im oso human . im a girl . ii niid more attentiions too lorr .
ii know many ob youu haf ur own lyfe , own bf probs ..
buhh me ? ii know ii cant kiip sayiin myself stress , mayb youu all re stress too .
buhh .. ii jus cant accept th facts dat frens re ignoriin me ...
treatiin me like MEI YOU de ..

wen iim cryiin , who ish th one ther to wiipe my tears ?
if youu wann me truely to b happy , why choiices ii make lerh . youu guys cant jus wiished me good lucks ?
ii understands dat ii told youu all many diff tings .. like hw much ii lovee GJYJ .. buhh ..
he jus cant changed away hiish habiit n attitude .. why mus ii b wit hiimh ?
wen ALJT haf alrdy doiin hiish part to mak me happy & changed forr th better ..
cant ii jus gibb hiim th chance mahs ?
why mus ii stuck at th old shoes .?
everyday quarrel over lil tings .. who wann it ?
if GJYJ can mak tiings to b misunderstandiin . & mak all th miscommunicatiions ..
wad forr stayiin tgt ? wil we b happy ?
if youu truely treats me as fren ..
wil youu wann me to choose sm1 who know hw to wrk to earn money while serviin Ns ..
or sm1 who dunno wad he strive forr tmr .. doiin & wrkiin those on & off jobs ?
who can mak me survive ..
yahs . it might b true dat wadeva ii wann , GJYJ cn gibb me .. buh happiness leiis ?
my daddy's trust leiis ? hw youu wann me to do ?

yahs . ii might b sayiin diff tings frm past n 2day ..
buhh if im happiier den b4 .. cant youu jus bless me ?
cant youu jus open ur ears n let me talk ?

or mayb ii wasnt impt to any1 ob youu lerh ?
if tiis ish so .. den plls tel me .. ii dun wann to b like a stupiid ..
makiin th world to listens to me , wen every1 fiinds it dulan n fan ..
ii dun wann to b a clown .. sorriie . im a girl n human too .

nw im 20th yrs old lerh .. many tings to me seems easy to accomplished ..
buhh sm oth tiings may seems to b complicated ..
as longg ii feel dat im happy .. den dun stop me hao mahs ?
im realii tired lerh ..

ii jus cant feel dat my frens lovee me ..
tiis ish my feelins riight nw .
yahs . youu miight b hafiin ur own probs unsolved ..
buhh .. if youu promiised to b my frens .. den frens cum b4 bf or gf .. isnt it ?
mayb im wrong bahs ..

haiiz . dunno lahs .. jus finished th 1030pm show on channel 8 ..
th show actor was Chen long's son .. fang Zhu Ming .. de show damn niice ..
yahs . its abt a girl , 16th yrs old niia .. th family very riich . so many tings was control by th daddy .. n den th FZM gort in2 sm r/s wit her .. den th girl pregnant .. n dy both run away frm hme ..
n wante to build up their own family n gibb birth to th baby ..
coosh dey tiink dat th baby ish innocent .. den many ups & dwns ..
in th end , th girl wan to gibb birth , den th girl's dady ask police catch FZM ..
buhh in th end , de dad nv sue th FZM .. n understands wad th daughter wann ..
n gibb FZM a chance .. buhh den th court wante FZM to tiink properly n seriiously abt briingiin up th kiids ..
so endiin up , he go priison 3mths ..
afte dat , he released . n dey were happy ..
coosh dey were th loviin paiirs ..

so sweet . n th show ended ..
tiis show tells us to b responsible forr our doiins ..
dun regret in th future ..
parents seeiin theiir kiids doiin wrong tiings oso very hurt de ..

if it were me .. ii wil briing up th kiids . no matte wad happens .
coosh th kids ish innocent .. ii made 2 mistakes lerh ..
ii wont do it agaiin . iim goiin to b strong . & b like th girl ..
face everythiin & nv regret ..
outcomes ish dependin on both hands ..
one hands clapp , nv b as loud as two hands de clapp ..
tgt , ii beliieve ALJT wil nort let me dwn agaiin ..
we wil clapp our hands to our future de ..

im waitin patiently .. wit my tears ob miisses ..
no matter wad happens .. nth pull me dwn ..
ii promiise ..

cant go to bed even if ii haf drunk alot ..
watchin 恋爱女王 nw .. quite nicee ..

th-feelins is so bad..

2008-09-13T13:29:00.002+08:00

th-feelin within me ish so so so bad .
actualii goiin forr revision klass . yet im too tired to go lerh .
coosh last niight , ii haf been dreamiin abt smting .
kiip wakiin up frm sllp . ii tear iin my dream . ii swear it hurts .
haiiz . ii know he oso dun wiished to c me iin tiis states .
buhh as ii saiid . everythiin happens too fast .
okays . yahs . ii shoulldn't sound like as iif gort ppl diie .
buhh th feeliins ob miissiin ur lovee ones ish like dat norr .
hmm . perhaps ii wil b reali okays . giib me more tyme .
ii wil do it de .

iim scare to b at hme . ii tiink ii goiin National Library to studiie . self-study allone .
better off den stayiin at hme cry & cry .
riight ? get prepared forr my exams ish impt ..
hmm . anw , ii haf jus update my bllogshops tiings .
go ther c c bahs . anythiin jus text me .
ii wont b answeriin calls . due to my card balance low .
hmm . so sorriie . & nw , iim goiin to prepare to go self study lerh . tata ..

y0uu haf when iin . & ii wil waiit f0rr y0uu..

2008-09-12T23:34:00.004+08:00

ii feel so chiildiish at tymes . & im here emo-iin agaiin .
ii miiss y0uu dearly . it all had happen too fast .
yesh . yahs . it miight b tyme matters . buhh nabe wil ii tiink dat its so fast .
ii jus argue wiit youu abt th cor y0uu made to me & th anger ii vent on y0uu .
why cant ii jus understand y0uu more abiit . kn0wiin dat y0uu re alrdy very stress .
& ii shlld TI LIANG y0uu . & nw , its abiit too latee . coosh y0uu re g0ne .
y0uu jus left me a msg : Hmmm . I going in le . Wait for me . Take care . Ya..

wad am ii goiin to do ? its so sudden . & nw ii kiip repeatiin & liisteniin to th song y0uu sang to me .
Wang Lee Hong - Wo Men De Ge .
ii miiss y0uu more n more . ii even dream ob y0uu .
ii dreamt dat y0uu criied too . ii kn0w y0uu oso dun wann tiings to happen so fast too .
buhh nw , tiings happen , cant b helped .
dun worrii . ii wil wait f0rr y0uu . c00sh y0uu t0ld me to .
ii w0nt leave y0uu de .

& nw im tryiin very hard to b strong & waiit f0rr y0uu .
yappx . th l0ngest oso 14days or more . ii trust y0uu .
& ii trust myself . nw ish my exam break . & im g0iin to fiind a j0bb to wrk & save money .
ii kn0w y0uu reject me frm w0rkiin . buhh nw , y0uu wen iin lerh .
ii tiink ii shlld helped y0uu out . & oso can helped myself too .
coosh ii cant everythiin oso rely on y0uu de mahs .
ii wann b taii taii . buhh oso wil wait f0rr y0uu to b out & mak me a taii taii .
hhaas . lookiin at ur fotos , ur smiles , ur lovees f0rr me ..
all seems so sweet . im statiisfiied . ii wont asked forr more .
jus wann youu to miiss me more wen y0u re inside . kays .?

c lahs . earlii told youu dun AWOL lerh .
c lahs . haiiz . anw , ii wont blame y0uu . coosh ii knew y0uu wante to celebrates my bday .
y0uu wante to acc me more . y0uu wante to mak me nv f0rget th day of surprise y0uu gave duriin my bday .
thanss , im very happy . & statiisfiied & contented .
thans forr everythiin . ii nabe regret on putiin hopes on youu agaiin .
ii wil cheriish everythiin . & nw , im braciin myself up to study hard forr my upcomiin exams & wrk hard to save money ..

Ji de xiiang xiiang wo ahh .
Wo hen xiiang nii leiis .
Wo duii nii de aii yong yuan du bu biian ,
BECOOSH I LOVEE YOUU .!!!

& horr . stupiid tiing da . kiip disturb me .
mak me tiink too muchiie . ii know he wante me to b happy .
& ii wil .
n0thiins g0nna pull me dwn =D

Ps. ii fiind dat lin haf changed . coosh herr attitude ob talkiin wit me iin MSN ish realii diff frm th past . ii dunno why . or iissiit coosh ob JT ? haiiz . buhh ii hope to c my once last owas by my siide de lin b backiie . she asked me nort to tell her anythiin my stuff . yahs . & nw , my 1 n onlly listener gonna leave me .. mayb every1 gonna leave me bahs . ii know wad im doiin . jus respect my decisions . ii mayb b fussy . buhh tiings re all happeniin too fast . many tiings re unsaid . ii oso cant fiind th answer myself . who wil reali b ther for me wen im sad ? mayb if 1 day .. ii wen miissiin agaiin . den pls dun cum & fiind me .. jus leave me allone ..

& nw im lookiin at our fotos nw .. ii miiss youu badly til ii criied agaiin .. feelins re quite helpless . buhh stil , th-happy tymes wil stil b rmbed . waiitiin forr youu ..

tmr ish internal exam for C2..

2008-09-11T18:12:00.003+08:00

yahs . didnt go skool . & its th last day ii gonna ponten lerh . promiise .
coosh C2 ii alrdy ponten for 8days , its damn over lerh lorr .
exams ish drawiin nearer n nearer .
ii gonna study hard . realii . my goal forr tiis yr , ish to pass my diploma .
hmm . wiished me good luck .

read my frenste rose . huii gave me a dead rose . hmm .
she says ask me to re-open my blog . & face th facts . stop runnin abt .
pls lahs . ii nort escapiin th facts . ish dat ii c no niids forr me to let every1 knows abt my blog riight . isnt it wu liiaos .?
ii jus liketo blog tiings ii wann my BFF knows & nth muchiie . jus shun biian wriite dwn th impt tings happen each day in my lyfe .
& it wil enuff . ii hatee ppl to hacked in to read without my permission .
yesh , blog ish an open diary . so .?
ii haf my own privacy . if ii wann it to b priivate den priivate nahs .
wad forr listeniin to ppl judgiin it ?

stupiid . tmr ish my c2 internal exams .
as forr external exam , stil gt 11days more to go .
hereby wiishiin myself , grace , huilin good luck .!
jiiayouus .

hmm . iin lovee wit thaii songs . ii may nort realii understand it . buhh afte all .
ii lovee it man .!!
ii miiss my HUILIN .
dunno wad happens to herr . nv mit me . nv call me . SAD . !!!

many tiings iin me left unsaid . & im stil thiinkiin wad ish it .
tmr's exam , ii promiise to study hard today , to9 & score forr tmr .
hmm . grace's FTT cumiin . wished her GOOD LUCK , MY DEAR =)

nw ii goiin to study lerh . den 7pm goiin catch up my show . damn longg nv watched lerh .
afte dat , study agaiin . til 9pm watch th-9pm show . th-baby damn cutee .

omg . im so envy . every fren ob mine , many gave birth to theiir preciious .
loks so xiin fu wiit theiir lovee ones stayiin by dem .
wil ii b like dem . so xiin fu mahs ?
hhaas . omg . tiink too muchh . nvm . go study lerh . tata ..

thans forr th-diinner , my girls .

ii lovee youu =)

thans, my dearest emily & grace

2008-09-10T23:00:00.002+08:00

hmm. jus gort hme frm bugiis. mit up my dearest grace n emily for dinner.
theiir treats wors. settle our dinner @ Jerk Thai.
thans forr th hello kitty keyboard , th dinner , th cake & th kiip cant blow off de candle.
ii njoyed. & im very happy too.
at last, finally. ii met up wit youu girls.
haf alot ob niice tyme.

ii lovee youu two nahs. dun say ii er xiin.
buhh its reali true.
hmm. n nw, nth to do. bloggiin.
& abt to start off for my assignment liiaos.
damn rushed. & frii ish my c2 exams.
ohh gooshh.=(

happy birthday to myself =D

2008-09-10T15:01:00.008+08:00

yappx . ii know ii damn emo .sorriie . iin th end ,we wen to QB Qool Bar to celebrates .hmm . yahs . im drunk .damn drunk .coosh im happy & sad .jus wanna say abt my happy tings .sad tings shall jus 4get it .coosh it hurts .anw , thanks to Junting , Tingda , Stanely , Bebe & Junjie .thanks forr celebratiin for me .ii might nort b closed to sm ob dem .buhh stil , they made th effort to cum & driink .yahs . ii njoyed .im damn touched .Junting rushed to Orchard swensen & bought me a Oreo Ice Cream Cake .thanks , my dear .lovees*
im very happy . thanks forr th bday song .thanks for PUSHIN MY FACE to th cake .thanks for everythin .im very very happy .& thanks mummy ..forr wakiin up earli , jus to cook me Mee Sua wit two eggs .xiie xiie nii men .im very happy . my 2oth bday .ii haf a great day to all .
im drunk last niight . ii criied .& ii promiise .ii wil cheriish my everyday .eithe wit laughters or tears .ii know who loves me who dont ..

& HANY , my dearest .. th 1st to send me th bday wiished .& crystal , joel , rongzhen , emily & huilin .. xiie xiie nii men .lovees*

wiished me a lonely bday bahs .

2008-09-09T12:16:00.002+08:00

yapp . ii gt my surprise .
& im nort celebratiin .
all ob youu re busy .
& nvm .
iim all alone .
cryiin nw .
tiis ish hw my bday spent .
im tired .
& ii tiink ii am nort impt to any1 .
nvm .
ii understand .
iim jus loner ..

my eyes ish bleediin ...

damn longg nabe update . kiinda lazy . & busy ..

2008-09-08T22:55:00.008+08:00

yahs . backiie frm bugiis lerh . hmm .
very happy . quite STATISFIED bahs .
coosh ii haf received several presents lerh .
hmm . nort bad .
& ii gort a NECKLACE frm taka jewerlly , whiich bought by my beloved , mummy .
lovees you . tks .
& ii oso gort a new NOKIA 312o(white) & 2 T-shirts frm Junting .
lovess* .
tmr , mummy treats for rebondiin .
coosh ii took off my extenstions once agaiin .
looks untidy . so decided to rebond .
mayb a new haiircut =)
whahas . im very very happy forr everythiin .
been siick . buhh nabe go c doc .

& finally . ii made a clear talk wit GJYJ .
& we re nw best frens . hiish stil waitiin for me .
we shall decide our r/s once my studiies over .
& iin th mean tyme cn go tiink ob wad we wann .
& changed our attitude . if we re meant to b tgt .
fate wil briig us backiie afte my studiies .
finally ii haf overcome to say out everythiin .
it took me very longg . its better to mak a clear talked .
cooh many mis-communiicatiin withiin us.
at least we re nort regret . & hopes everythiin changed & b diff afte our long changed .
& changes to th better attitude forr tiis r/s .
at least ii feel release abiit nw .
buhh stil , im gonna concentrate on my upcomiin exams .
its very impt to me .
ii promiise to do well & studii hard .
jiiayouss .!!!

yahs . 1day more , my 2oth bday cumiin lerh .
im happy . im wonderiin do ii stil receviied th same surpriise frm frens ?
ii dunno . yahs . btw , mit crystal jus nw . coosh jus riight im at bugiis too .
so miit up & chatted . talked alot . hhaas . 1st tyme mit herr alone .
niice chattiin & shoppiin . & ii njoyed* =))
smtymes ii miiss th past . buhh it semms to b diff nw lerh .
crystal ish riiight . every1 ish busy wit their own r/s . nort reali cares abt th frenshiip we used to haf .
its true nahs . buhh why ppl owas changes wen they starte their new r/s .
ish BFF impt or BF ?
to me .. ii realii wil choose my BFF .
wad abt dem ?
do they miiss me ?
do they care about me ?
do they lovee me ?
ii dunno . nobody knows . buhh heaven knows .

ii haf changed . nort so jokiin type lerh .
ii turned to b more n more emo .
why ?
what makes me changed so much ?
seriiously , ii dunno .
coosh ii am very very scared to hurt by DEM .. realii .
it hurts ...
its huirts , wen th one youu lovee treat youu as SPARE TYRE . isnt it hurts .?
it miight takes a few miinutes to b frens & lovees & to hurts ,
buhh it miight takes a yr or more to heal ..
do youu agree wit me ?

ii may b seriious at tymes .
buhh overall .
ii stil niid some1 who reali reali cares abt me to stand by me .
listeniin to my lil complaiins .
who wil b ther ?
to me , my frens , all haf their own new frens . & ii guess they haf totally 4gets abt me .
im so sad . & tiis ish th reasons tat ish hurtiin me ..
makiin me emo-iin .
ii dunn wanna say out . buhh its been a longg tyme siince ii haf tiis feelins .
& ii dun tiink ii can hold it anymore ..
ii realii criied out .
im sucha FAILURE ..

& nw , im wiishiin myself a HAPPY 2oth BIRTHDAY ..
hopes every1 ish happy ,
hopes everythings goes well forr me .
hopes forr th better hopes ..

朋友一生一起走
那些日子不再有
一句话一辈子
一生情一杯酒
朋友不曾孤单过
一声朋友你会懂
还有伤
还有痛
还要走
还有我... ...

myself . iim a vaiin bytch =D

presents frm Mummy =)

th-NOKIA 312o . buhh its whiite de =)

ysh , ii gort it .

2008-09-05T07:49:00.003+08:00

hhaas . my 2oth bday 1st presents . & ii gort it lerh .!!
my owas wante de CLEAR TOTE BAG .
omg . im so damn f**kiin happy nor .
whahas . hmm . & gort a perfume frm VICTORIA SECRETs .
whohahax . ROMANCE WISH .! so damn frangrance .
im damn damn happy .

hmm . dat day had a lil misunderstand & so-called quarrels wit huihui .
coosh she horr . dunno hw to say .
ii shall jus cut short & simple .
she asked me abt wher did ii get my stuff , paiints forr my DIY shoebitz .
ii was like .. HUH .? wanna copy my idea .?
den she kiip addiin on say actuali dats her IDEAL .
& wad she long ago owas wante to haf a shoe ob her own .
pls lahs . youu onii askiin th wrong questiion & akiin ppl duLan nor .
ii alrdy wore A SHOE OB MY OWN 2 F**KIN YRS AGO lerh leiis .
& its my LONG LONG ago de idea ob doiin tiis biiz .
jus dat ii dun haf enuff tyme to search forr th paiint .
askiin tiis type ob tings . who wont ???
plus its my shoebitz nor .
den in th end ii lazy to type . buhh she kiip ask me hw if her designs same as me .
damn easy right ? like tiis means sure cfm COPY me de mahs .
coosh desiignin a shoe , depends on th creatiive youu haf .
& oso th imaginatiions mahs . if youu jolly well gort th SO SAME desiigns as miine .
wahs lan a . baby oso know its cor COPYCATs .!
wahs . sayiin all tiis nw oso makes me piiss off nor .
shag . didnt go skool . coosh due to biig raiin 2day .
too lazy . & ii dun like to get myself wet . hmm .
so iim nort goiin to skool . oso nvm de nahs .
coosh tmr SATURDAY , stil gort reviisiions .
arghh . gonna go sllp awhiile . later gort tings do .
tata =)

PS. raiin raiin go away , plls =))

4 more days . im countiin dwn .

& ii gettin older each day .

th feelins of beiin in th twntiies feel soooooooooooo ... ...

hhaas =)

已经听了一百遍

怎么听都不会倦

从白天唱到黑夜

你一直在身边(一直在身边)

如果世界太危险

只有音乐最安全

带着我进梦里面

让各自都实现

无论是开心还是难过

我的爱一直不变

不论是hiphop还是摇滚

我的爱一直不变

所有美好回忆记录在里面

这张forever love那么深

我们的歌那么真

不过界跨时代

再不会叫kissgoodbye

有没有一句能够动人心弦

ye ye

情人总分分合合

可是我们却越爱越深

认识你让我的幸福

如此悦耳

能不能不要记得

继续唱我们的歌

让感动一辈子都记得

my desiign ish muchiie biigger & more niicer .

tiis ish th-OMOS th same desiign niia =D

emo-in lyfe .

2008-09-02T20:52:00.002+08:00

felt abandoned .
abandoned by frens , ladiies , lovee ones & myself .
th feelin nw ish like sittin on th roller coaster .
ii might seem to b happy at my face & in front ob youu .
yet , my heart ish confused & sad .
im sorriie for all th hurtful feelins ii haf cause .
youu made me no choiice .
& ii tink ii reali need tymes to tiink abt it .

backiie to skool . priinted my notes at last .
bought sm tings forr my room .
did a lil tidyiin .
tiired afte dat & ii fall asllp .
wakiie up by th cold air blown by th raiiniin wiind .
so cold . & ii felt so lonely .
no1 was ther to comfort me .
im left alone .
haiiz .

6more days to go .
& its my TWENTIES liiaos .
im xiin fen .
buhh im oso lonely .
ii wann presents =D
ii wann tat clear tote baggiie .
ii wann my smiles backiie .
ii wann to b happy .
ii wann to pass my exams .
ii wann every1 to b happy too .

nth muchiie . let me cool dwn now .
& tiink ob wad ii realii wann bahs .
take kares =)

cant realii get to sllp . & am here to blogg ..

2008-09-02T00:57:00.003+08:00

nabe go skool . hhaas . naughty huh .?
buhh no choiice . promiised to go tmr . & nabe skiip skool anymore .
alrights .? was wit JT siince m0rniin .
den afte dat bcoosh ob smtings , ii walked off , & criied .
saw my LIN & YING at bugiis .
so qiiao . tot they wanna go town . buhh ended at BUGIS .
hhaas . so tagg along wit dem . haf our same old craps non-stop .

hhaas . nth muchiie . jus chatted & update wit latest news abt each othe . hhaas .
my two beloved pretty meiis=)

nort forgettiin tellin YING a stupiid lame joke .
yahs . its nth . buhh stil ..
ii feel dat its damn damn okay niia .
buhh stil , she can kiip laughiin non-stop . OMG .!!!
ii saiid to her wen we were inside a shop sellin SLIVER tings .
den siince dats nth forr me & lin to c , we wante to go off .
& ii told yiing tis :
" stopiin playiin wit others' cock , go liaos lahs .!"
den she kiip laugh non-stop .
coosh to herr mayb she converted to bcome guys de dat tings .
hhaas . bhh seriiously . no lahs . coosh th shop used th wince cock to put at th rack .
mayb stop ppl frm stealiin . so yiing tinks ish cute & played wit it . -.-"

afte dat , sllacked at th cafe at BUGIS STREET . treate lin a cup ob 7-up .
hhaas . ii very good horr ?
hhaas . sllacked & talk cock .
dots . yiing played wiit my DS til very jii dong nor .
funny girl .
afte dat walked awhile more & dey wen backiie to WDLS .
as forr me , ii wen to fiind JT .

hmm . morniin goiin skool again . shag . gonna go sllp . buhh stil cant reali fall asllp leiis .
even if im very very TIRED =(
smtymes ii feel dat , smtiings & feeliins dunno why cant b said through mouth .
& it seems so complicated . ii tot ii wil b wit GJYJ forever .
& made my fiinal choiice . buhh nw ....
tiings re diff . ii regretted . coosh he made me tiinks dat we werent th one forr ach othe .
coosh he jus over-controlled me . & very sensetive .
whiich ii hatee th most . ESPECIALLY read my bllogg wen ii dun like .
arghh . why lovee seems so hurtful & fan naos de .?
can sm1 pls EXPALIN to me .

ii reali reali rathe stay siingle & do wad eva ii like .
ii jus hatee th feelins . coosh it made me feel so EMO & mood-swiing nor .
hatee it . hatee it . hatee it .
haiiz . liianx a asked me to type my feelins to her by email .
yet ii stil dunno wad to write .
ii know smtymes ii make decisions too fast den regret sure KPKB .
buhh . plls lorr . oso nort ii wann de mahs .
ii REALI tot he changed forr th better lerh mahs .
iin a r/s . yesh , there might b UP & DWNs ..
buhh ii jus cant tak it nahs . dunno hw to descriibe .
if im CONTROLLED . ii wil sure fiind ways to run away de .
ppl who known me well enuff . sure wil know de .
ii wann & lovees FREEDOM .
if he realii lovees me , he wil understand & wont repeat th wrong doiins .
buhh nw .. dont youu tiink its too latee lerh mahs ?
even if youu say he haf CHANGED ..
sorriie , over means over . my feeliins forr hiimh starts to FADE .
& ii bliieve everythiin wil nort b mend agaiin .
coosh can youu imagiine ,
he can kiip coor me .. den ii nv answer ,
he wil go fan my bro .
even my bro tiinks he very fan nw .
made me scolded by parents & bros forr disturbiin dem .
ii dun like tiis way he bhaviin .
its very very fan .
who likes tiis type ob feelins leiis ?

yahs . he treats me like a priincess .
very dotee me .
yet he tiinks too much ..
quarrels too muchiie .
tiings re changed .
& ii dun tiink dats a chance to mend it .
coosh iim very tiired ob waiitiin forr hiimh to prove me wrong .
my heart nw , ish reali very numb lerh .
th LOVEE we once haf , wil owas b ther .
& nort forgettiin th quarrels we had .
coosh it hurts too much ..

ii jus like my current lyfe .
ii hope ii wasnt wrong .
& made a riight choiice .
ii jus lovee my FREEDOM .
ii wanna pass my exams .
ii wanna earn more money .
ii wanna go forr holidays .
ii wanna b a BETTER person den th past .
everythiins ish goiin to b changed & nort goiin to b like th past .
& ii wil prove all tiis ii haf saiid ish TRUE .

& nw . im EMO-iin agaiin .
iis wear ii did lovee hiimh alot ONCE .
as forr nw ?
ii dunno eithe .
coosh ob smtiings ii cant accept .
my feelins ish very ruan .
mayb he wil fiind a better girl afte hiish NS .
& ii dun tiink ii suiits hiimh .
sorriie . coosh iim stil decidiin hard .

L E A V E . M E . A L O N E ... ...

7 more days to go .
ii dunno hw to celebrates my bday .
wil ii haf surprise ?
wil ii b happy ?
ii dunno .
iim waiitiin .
waiitiin forr lil surpriise bahs .

PS. can sm1 plls lead me th way out ?
out ob tiis emo-in lyfe .
im very scare , tiired , lonely & hurt ..

happy 7oth bday - ah ma =D

2008-09-01T07:59:00.011+08:00

hmm . yoz . m0rnin . wakee up jus to blog & do lil hse wrk b4 ii go out wors .
hhaas . yst wen to ahma's bday celebratiions @ Ah Yi Bao Yu Restaurant .
hhaas . super duluxe & relatives all were here .
daddy & uncle sang til scream .
c0usiins play til so happy .
ahg0ng happy til drink too muchiie .
ahma happy til driink wit us .
hmm . th past few days forr me might b smhw shag & emo .
buhh nw , stil feelin okay .
coosh ii lovee ahma . c she so happy oso good wors .
hmm . ii bought ahma th jade de necklace . she very happy .
& she lovee it so much dat she asked me to helped her wore up .
lols . its th 1st tyme ii bought her present . yesh , she's touched =D
she happy , ii oso happy lerh .
wiished her good health , live l0ng .!!!
happy 70th bday , ahma ..
hmm . shag . jus no mood go skool . coosh 2day ish teacher days' .
& ii wil b out later . stil cant cfm whether im mittin my lin & ying anort .
dots -.-"

nth muchiie leiis . ooh yahs .
th TRZ hor . say til so loud . den everyday kiip msg me .
like findin xcuse to asked me go out .
& ii starts to feel irratates nor . meii you yong qii de nan ren .!
say 1 word oso cant do it .
actii0ns speaks louder den words . yet he ish like :
speak loud , actiions hide . hhaas .
wu liiaos . im nort entertainin hiimh eithe .
waste ob tyme niia . ii hatee most ish guys bhaviin like hiimh .
f**k .

many days nabe takiie foto lerh . & nw ,
shall upload sm piics ii took yst & my family foto . stay tune .!

me & ahma .

happy bday , ahma .

wiished you liive long & good health =D

sorriie for neglectiin .

2008-08-31T13:21:00.002+08:00

yappx. nth muchiie. been busy. mood-swiings & more. tiink my deariie all shlld b missin me alot bahs.

hhaas. watched DEATH RACE on frii wit Tingda,Junting & Bebe.
wahs. hhaas. damn nice nor.
shag. by th tyme th moviie finished, damn latee. wen hme & sllp =D

nth muchiie. dunno wad to blog.
coosh im waitin for th tyme to pass.
den ii cn do lil hse wrks & prepare to go forr ahma's bday dinner.
hmm. & ii bought her a necklace. a JADE necklace. hope she lkes it=DD

blog again to9.

raiiniin cats & dogs

2008-08-28T07:40:00.004+08:00

omg . its raiiniin agaiin . & ii dun haf th mood forr klass .
coosh am lazy to bring out umbrella .
im scare to get my shoes wet . & th water spashiin on2 me .
it feels irratatiin nor .
omg . its niice weathe forr me to sllp . buhh ii cat sllp .
coosh many tings to bothe & tiink . shag .
why am ii owas so emo .?
ii triied nort beiin emo . & it bcame moodswiing .

why iish lyfe so boriin . ii know ii cant say tiis . coosh ii told myself dat lyfe ish full ob ups & dwns .
buhh hor . ii jus cant stop tiinkiin why . omg .
hmm . ii know ii say ii wana b a good girl to study hard .
buhh 2day realii cant nahs .
raiin ish far too biig . hhaas .
ii know its excuses =D

tiings dat bothers me & made me cant stop tiinkiin :

1. xiiao heii, buddy's m0ney . ($440)
- ii kn0w ii cause every tr0uble to hiimh . ii triied wrkiin buhh .. haiiz . he ish my best buddiies . iic ant treat hiimh dat way . no matter wad . ii wil triied my best to return & nabe to cause hiimh any trouble ..

2. emily's money . ($140)
- ii know ii owe her money . its nort reali dat biig amount . buhh to me n every cent ish so many . coosh iim out ob jobb once agaiin . ii oso dunno wen n ii return herr . she cant realii understand my situations . yet she kiip pressiin me forr money . it reali kills me nor . ii nor wann blame her . jus blame myself nor . who asked myself spent so much without tiinkiin . ppl say go do tiis do dat ii oso okay okay . nw so many prob . haiiz . ii know she oso no money . buhh her situation ish she no money yet she cn go do rebondiin . im nort jealous . buhh th prob ish she do smting & spent her money off , she wil cum press me for money . ii dun like it .. ii know ii haf no right to say tiis . buhh th fact ish she made me feel dat , she no money cn do many tings , afte oiin lerh , know dat she had nort enuff for her expenses , den she cum find me . if tiis carries on .. ii reali wil die .. if reali im dead , readers , helped me to tel my mummy to get frm my funeral & return her .. xiie xiie ..

3. my singtel's money . ($1600)
- owe singtel allow liiaos . nw waiitiin for court letter . omg .

4. jeff's money . ($300)
- yahs . ii know he helped me alot . & reali . ii niid to return hiimh . coosh he ish jus a fen to me niia . iic ant b nort returniin hiish money mahs . ii mus haf my own REN ZE ..

5. mummy's money . ($400)
- ii owe her my computer installment . ii know she helped me alot . buhh .. mummy, im so sorriie . coosh ob my studiies , youu niid to wrk 12hr a day & 7days a wk . im sorriie . mayb youu re right . daddy ish right . ii reali MEI YOU YONG ..

6. bebe's money . ($400)
- yahs . ii know ii hatee her . buhh stil .. ii owe her money . she oso human . she helped me wen ii in helped . ii oso cant b a bastard mahs . ppl helped me without sayiin much .. den dun wann return . at least she's beta . coosh she understand my situations . even she nort enuff . she stil nv press or asked me to return her everyday ..

7. OC's money . ($150)
- ii know she's my ex boss . buhh stil , ii haf to return herr helped . jus like bebe . sorriiie for everythin .

8. my fav tiings . (neba reali go count)
- yappx . ii know im poor . ii cant kiip tiinkiin ob tings ii wann . buhh . im oso a girl mah . ii oso haf tiings dat ii wann too mahs . hw cn ii resist ? ii triied nor shoppiin like th past . ii reali did . buhh stil , my bday ish cumiin . ii haf many tings wan too mahs .. haiiz . ii hatee myself so much . so useless . stil cn tel ppl im cumiin 20yrs . buhh stil . im jus a nth . wtf*

PS . all ish omos $3430 . wher am ii goiin to clear all tiis .??

^.^.!!!

2008-08-27T18:12:00.004+08:00

was raiiniin cats & dogs .
teacher told us dat its WEET WEET days . omg .
shagg . 2day ii go to skool on tme .
yahs . & im a good girl nor .
hhaas . nth muchiie . jus wanna say ish . earlii know no ppl attended klass .
ii tin ii oso don wann go lorr .
f**k . 2o students in my klass . imagine . onii 9 includiin me .. attended 2days' lesson .
hhaas . pethatiic right . omg .

my stomach hurts . & ii haf made my words clear to hiimh . (GJYJ)
ii told hiimh ii wanna study hard for my c0urse . & he ish happy . coosh im backiie to n0rmal .
buhh den , ii told hiimh . if he reali lovee me . den wait til ii graduate den say bahs .
coosh ii dunn wann daddy scold me forr nort doiin my studiies good enuff jus coosh ob hiimh .
ii duno wad ii tiinkiin . buhh seriiously . ii made up tiis choiice .
coosh ii jus wished to b faiir . ii dun wann hiimh kanna scold by my parents forr nth .
any1 understand me ?

yahs . im damn damn moody & emo .
coosh 1 look cn c lerh . my niick , my blogskiins . ish kinda . OMG =)

well . dun worry . im g0ne f0r nw & f0rever .
th old iris ish g0ne f0rever .

& btw , iim feelin more RELIEVED . coosh ii made myself clear frm TRZ .
yahs . we re totally finished . & ii dun wiished to cling on th past .
wad over ish over . ii jus wann a peaceful lyfe . nth else .
even if he tinks dat ii hurt hiimh .
den b it . coosh iim livin for myself . n0rt hiimh .
ii kn0w wh0 treats me true & who's n0rt . okays .
haiiz . lyfe ish like dat . full ob up & dwns . haiis .

if tings were th past , & A cheriish me well .
mayb tings wasnt tiis way lerh . mayb ii oso wont kn0w so many guys .
mayb my preciious alrdy afew mths old .
dats alot ob mayb . yet ii cant finished everythin .
everythin starts wit lil rumors . buhh wen y0uu wane a real truthful lyfe .
my suggestiions ish dat , dearest frens ,
liv f0r urself . dun let othe ppl's sayiin influence youu . like A haf regretted .
& nw , ii dunno anythin . studiies ish all ii wann .
othe den dat .. jus let tyme prove everythiin . alrights =)

2008-08-27T00:53:00.002+08:00

another day . & here am ii to blog .
yahs . damn freakin emo again .
ii know ther might b a thousand ob ppl who dislike me .
buhh ii jus wanna say ish dat , ii wont pull dwn by dem .

coosh ii live forr myself & nort for dem .
ii jus wanna concentrate on my studiies nw .
coosh exam ish drawiin . ii might b emo everyday .
buhh ii am who ii am .

im goiin to f0rget th past & start everythin anew . tiis ii swear ii wil do it .
coosh im tired ob everythin .
reali .
wad ppl wann to say we oso cant say muchiie .
even if ppl say im LOOSE ..
so wad ? youu tink ii care ? ii dun gib a damn . coosh ii know im nort .
onii those BASTARD guys who wanna kip their faces wen dump their old lovee .
so th ladiies reputations wil ZHI RAN ER RAN b spoilt ..

hhaas . happy jiu hao .
xii guan jiu hao lerh .
im nort admittin . coosh ii know ii didnt do those tings .
so wad if ii pregnant b4 .?
does it prove those tings .?
no right .? coosh its nort my fault .
its those BASTARD's fault .
blame dem forr everythin . coosh if they dun NEED IT ..
ladiies wil nort b hurt . am ii right .

so if nw youu tel me youu lovee me truely & hw deep .
den ii wil jus tel youu .
yaya . we shall let tyme prove everythin .
coosh ii dun TRUST LOVE again .
alright . wad eva it ish .. studiies come 1st . dats all .

& im goiin to look forward , forgettin th past & never look backiie liaos .
wad over is over lerh ..
gonna go sllp . tmr gort skool .

btw , jus came backiie frm bugiis .
go find Tingda & Junting .
nth muchiie .
coosh im emo-in .
no place to go . nth forr me to do ..
shagg .
good9**

miserable lyfe ..

2008-08-25T23:53:00.002+08:00

lin ish right .. wen haven stead . treat youu like gold . wen tgt .. treat youu like grass .
every r/s ish th same . isnt it ?

omg . here am ii again . emo-in..
didnt go 2 skool siince last thurs lerh . omg ..
tmr exam . im damn stress .
buhh frm nw onwards .
ii reali wil jus concentrate abt my study ..
othe den dat ..
jus c wad heaven decide bahs =D

*& stab me hard with a knife pls ;

2008-08-25T00:09:00.002+08:00

im feelin feelin so emo nw . ii wished to cry out loud . buhh ii jus cant make myself to do it . due to star ish ard*

it wil b veyr very embrassed . ii swear .
jus gort backiie hme frm moviie wit ALJT .. yappx .
we went to watch 4BIA . wahs . damn scary . kiip force meto lok at th screen wen th ghost goiin appear . lols .
wen to bugiis street . wnate to get myself a dress , in th end no mood . so jus gort myself a slipper . coosh mince ish all torn out . shagg ..
bday ish nearer . yet ii dun seem to b happy .
dunno why .. ii dunno wads lovee all abt .
out ob a sudden . ii feel like mummy sayiin . GJYJ ish so useless . a big gu . yet nort wrkiin . wil he able to yang me mahs ?
im doubtiin . my lovee forr hiimh faded day by day . ii dunno why eithe .
haiiz . shagg . lovee seems so hatred . iim wonderiin why ..

mayb im reali jus an useless one .. slapp me for awakeness . pls .
im tired . ii feel like sayiin goodbye to every1 ..
reali .. if onii ii die , everytin wil changed & solve .. correct .?

th-Ladiies niites .

2008-08-22T13:56:00.005+08:00

yahs . yst mit up wit my ladiies .

was my LADIES niite . finally .

im so happy & excited .

wen to DBLO & pub .

drink & drank & drunk .(nabe drunk.!)

shagg . at last gort th chance to shake .

nth muchiie . fotos shall do th talks .

coosh im doiin hse wrk & goiin to mit my HUIHUI .

hhaas =DD

& ii haf been reciving RED ROSE frm diff ppl .

buhh th fact ish . ii truly lovee RED ROSE ..

my lovely LADIES nite =)

im a good girl=))

2008-08-21T21:45:00.004+08:00

HELLO .!!
jus came backiie frm town wit my cute lil sweety , HUILIN .!!
hhaas . wen forr studiies wit herr , my 1st tyme . oophs . VIRGIN leiis .
yahs . & there , spent 20$ jus forr my beakfast cum lunch cum dinner . damn ex .
tks huh .
ate th dunno ad chicken wrap(wahs lan . inside all vegetable & qiing jiiao lorr) , my fav OREO CHEESECAKEE & a cup ob hot milo .

lols . & there my preciious money flew away .
hmm . den ii was th one very guaii & concentrate .
while , my sweety dunno doiin wad .
kiip drawiin my books : =) =(
lols . buhh she ish kind enuff to erase everythin forr me .
hhaas . den study & sllack til 8pm , finally , she bear to go FEP wit me .
my butt at least JET abiit . buhh sit til damn flat . lols .
den nvm . damn damn freakiin cold too . ii tot ii was at th SOUTH POLE .
hhaas . alrights .
den afte dat she acc me to FEP , wen to search forr my new slippers which ii longg wante to buy as my shos all TORE . ke liianx horr . humptx .
hmm . finally bought my dunno wad BABARAIN shoe . lols . paii seii dunno hw to spell .
hmm . den walked ard lorr . afte dat we headed backiie hme . coosh its alrdy 9pm+ .

hmm . & nw ii jux bathe finished . & ish waitin for my grace baba to cor me .
coosh we re goiin SHAKIN to9 .!!!
hhaas . finally , afte so many mths , ii cn go clubb lerh . lols .
as for emily , she stil nt cfm . coosh her bro lorr .
spoil mood . anw , honey allows me to go . coosh its ladiies niite wors . muackxx . lovee hiimh .

& ii told LIN dat ii wanna b like XIAXUE . blogger queen . lols .
she laughed at me . omg . like her so dariin to scold any1 .
so SHUAN lorr . hhaas . like tis oso cn go b a superstar . so easy .
ob coosh ii wann nahs . hhaas .!!!
am ii FIT to b one too ?

PS . btw , sti gort 18more days afte 12mid9 to9 to go .!!!

SEE .!! DAT'S TH PROOF . I DID GO STUDY HORR .!!

up-to-date

2008-08-20T22:52:00.002+08:00

lols . jenny told me she wanna abort her bb . buhh afte sm tinkin & tings ii told herr . she stop th thinkin . coosh its reali very cruel . omg . bb oso gort lyfe . if y0uu ppl dun wann th bb in y0uu , den j0lly well WEAR A CONDOM or DON'T HAVE SEX nahs . am ii right ?

jus nw saw th news . wahs . nw government so good arr . gib so many benefits to pregnant womans & bb bonus . lols . ii told honey abt it . & he say he alrdy know , he wanna ask me to haf bb wit hiimh too . coosh he say no niid scare lerh . gort government's support , so no prob . omg . den ii jus replied : C hw lorr -.-"

Benefits for FIRST TIME MUMMY :

1. 1st kids = 6k
2. 2nd kids = 6k
3. 3rd & 4th kids = 2k
4. 5 kids & up = 1million 8k(siiao lorr. who wil wann more than 5kids?)
5. maternity leave frm 3mths onii change to 4mths
6. if kanna sacked within 3 to 6 mths duriin pregnacy periiod , company wil have to pay y0uu ..

PS. omg . so many benefits , who dun wann bb ? forr me ? ii c hw lahs . coosh wann a kid is easy . buhh hor . wen youu no money buy smtings forr ur kids , youu know th feelins ?
EG. ur bb wants to eat MAC . den youu tel ur kids , Mummy no money, sorry .. lols . y0uu g0rt it ? th feelin ish damn damn bad norr . so if ii wanna marry & get bb , ii wil stable myself wit a jobb =D

hmm . & nw , jus bathe out n0rt long . gonna go study abiit liiaos . coosh 2day nabe go skool . shagg .

study tyme .!!!

Creative Photography with Canon

2008-08-20T19:01:00.004+08:00

all tiis piictures re linked frm my inbox de . nabe realize dat CANON so magiic . fotos taken wit it all so chiio & creative . mayb iim aimin to get 1 for myself .!!!

http://www.digitaldreams.com.sg/ : Live your Digital Dream with Canon.

PS. btw , ii fixed my DS myself liiaos . hhaas . happy like f**k nor . ii know wads th prob liiaos . smart bo =D

hmm . jus nw damn EMO . cryiin f0r alm0st 3hrs . alone at hme . omg . called up honey & find trouble wit hiimh . lucky he ish very understandiin . he knew my YOU YU ZHEN came agaiin . & he handle me well . pls me . consult ma . ii l0vee hiimh man .!!! tkx h0ney .!!!

omg . nabe go skool agaiin .

2008-08-20T14:28:00.004+08:00

im nort lazy . jus dat ii haf sm reasons forr nort attendiin to klass . haiiz .
shagg . jus kiip my rme finished niia .
honey ish off to collect th mp4 @ Bradell .
raiiniin cats & dogs now .
no pllace to go .
cant mit honey onii frii den cn mit hiimh .
coosh ob assignments & self studyiin .
omg . im sucha GOOD GIRL wors .
stupiid blogger .
log in niia g0rt dunno wad certificates error .
any1 encountiin dat ?
msn cant log in too . dunno why .
siians . saw emily's blog .
stole my frenste . lols .
niice right . hhaas .
hmm . siians nor . goiin self study soon .
abiit tired . coosh im so emo & stress .
dunno why . jus know when ii foniie honey , ii cried .
FOR NTH lorr .
hmm . im jus an emo feak nahs .!!!

dots . dwn loadiin more new song nw . hhaas .
c y0uu soon .

PS. 20days more =))

+ sm hw . sm tyme . ii realii gort one last wished . ii wanna b like last tyme . ii wann do more events . ii wanna earn more . ii wann my MODEL - TO BE de dream backiie . ii mis my days takiin events , knowiin more & new ladiies . ii wil wrk hard & b a pretty model .!!! hhaas . & th most impt de ish ii wanna join racequeen =DD +

backiie frm skool . tired .

2008-08-19T15:07:00.007+08:00

backiie frm skool . im so so tired . tks to A .!!!! wahs . its been a long tyme lerh siince we lasted contact . so catched up abiit norr . omg . lols . anw , bcoosh he say he cant sllp , & ii acc hiimh msged lorr . ii very kind horr .?? dots*

& helped out honey to mak hiish frenste . finally nicely done . so happy lorr . coosh nt so blank liaos . whahas*

anw , nth muchiie to blog .

buhh jus gort 1 questiions .

why guys owas wil lok forr th old lovee again wn they alrdy broke up wit th current girl whom breaks youu up at first .?? why .?

interestin . yappx . frii my assignment hand up day . yet to do anythin . anw , mon is my internal exam . im SELF STUDYIN .!!!!

anw , im backiie hme . wen to A hse . jus to let hiimh helped me mak my DS tings . shit th sales ppl . dunno instal wad . coos no ppl can fix it . ii tink ii goin backiie to complain lerh . humptx . den afte dat he acc me to mrt to mit up wit xiiao jason . damn wu liaos nor . kiip wait forr xiiao jason to chat wit hiish fren . walk til wher oso gt ppl talk to hiimh . til ii buey tahan , ii decided to go hme . den on th way , honey rang me . he said he cumiin dwn my hse . so ii faste go hme nor .

guess wad . hhaas . honey bought me a bonquet of RED ROSE .!! my fav nor . coosh he say he saw my frenste's shoutout sayiin : if youu lovee me den give me my rose .! lols . what ii meant ish th rose inside my frenste profile de . den honey so cute . he say in reality he gave me a real one . he took hold it in th bus alone . all th way frm hiish hse til my hse . jus to surprise me . coosh he knew dat im stress over many tings . hiish surprise bought me to smile =D

im very very GAN DONG lorr . honey ish owas so sweet de wors . lovees*

& he told me tat he bought th roses & gort sm reasons in it . & ii shall list out wad he say :

1. 3 red rose = he love me & he knew dat ii lovee red rose alot .
2. he hold th rose in front ob may ppl in th bus , duriin th peak hr . coosh he say he dun care wad othe ppl tink . he jus wanna surprise me & bring my smiles backiie frm my stress .
3. he proposed hiish lovee for me & hoped dat he'll b th one givin me all th happiness & everythin .
4. he wante to let th whole world to know tat he dotee hiis Laopo(me) alot .
5. he wanna let all th girls to b ENVY wit me .!!

hhaas . honey , tks . ii lovee y0uu too . y0uu th onii one who wil owas gibb me all tiis lil surprise no matter wad happens . im feelin very xin fu nw . & ii swear ii wil b good & cheriish youu well . lovees*

btw , & ii haf one more news. lols . nth speciial nahs . jus wanna tel my frens . actualii ii gradute my Diploma in hotel & casino management next yr jan right ? im goiin to contiune to study forr one more Diploma in F&B operations . hhaas . nort goiin to gibb up study . so by th tyme ii finished , its next yr end lerh . ii wanna b a good skool girl .! hhaas . & its cfm lerh . coosh enrolled lerh . happy siia . out ob a sudden ii lovee studyiin so muchiie . buhh nt all th teacher ii like .!=DD

PS.21 more days to my special big days..

photos forr th days =DD

2008-08-18T14:09:00.007+08:00

below re all th fotos ii took recently . hhaas =DD

- edited fotos -

- unedited fotos -

=DD

2008-08-18T13:52:00.002+08:00

jus came backiie frm skool . yahs . haf quite a tired lesson . due to yst wrk . den today earli mornin mus wakiie up for klass . wah lan a . ii SUPERWOMAN siia . lols . jokiin*

hmm . nth muchiie . gonna study hard for my cumiin diploma exam duriin late sept . hhaas . afte dat , ii wil haf my skool holidays on th 29th sept to 16th oct . wahs . song lorr . 18 days ob holiday . mayb goiin thailand for holiday wit honey , hiish ah ma & uncle . hhaas . happy wors . damn lokin forward lorr . buhh b4 dat , ii reali niid to study hard .

& so , th schedule ish out too . my casino course wil end at late jan . afte tis casino course , im goin for xtra course on F&B wors . mummy say okay . so ii tink ii wil contiune study til next yr end bahs . hhaas . me so guaii wors . kiip wann study nw . lucky nort too latee yet . muhahax**

so tired . every wkend gort wrk , wkdays study . wahs . dunno cn cope properly mahs . no choice tis yr too suay lerh . so mus earn money & return all debts . buhh im sure ii cn overcum de . coosh as ii say , ii haf made it through . im studyiin hard & wont anyhw waste money lerh . hmm . & ii promiise to honey too . he so glad to hear dat . & ii mean it dat ii wont anyhw spend money on those unwante & non-impt tings .. & wont kip changed hp lerh . hhaas .

at last , ii feel dat im reali grown up .!! ii know hw to tink . whahas . lok like a real skool girl huh ? lols . ii shall stop lerh . if nort ii kip KUA JIANG WO ZI JI . lols . laughs**

holiday tyme , who wanna mit me , coosh yuu damn miss me den text me huh .!! dun say ii nv say wors . lols .

& nw , study tyme . tata .

btw , my tagboard okay liiaos . again . many tks to my beloved meii , HUILIN arr .!!!! xie xie ni wors . hhaas . muackxx*

too tired to changed ..

2008-08-18T00:52:00.002+08:00

yahs . ii change my blogskins again .
lols . jus came backiie frm wrk , bathe & here am ii to change my skins .
hhaas . kinda tired ob th old ones .
hmm .
nth muchiie . too lazy to bllog nw .
due to nort enuff sllp .
shall blogg everythin tmr niites .
c ya . & im happy dat my lil bro haf been a very guaii boii lerh .
at last he knows hw to tiink . ii wil cheriish my siblings lotsa =DD

any1 teached me to mak my tag board backiie in color ?
lols . nw onii highlight den cn b seen .
sorriie for th BU FANG BIAN wors =DD

at last ii cn cum here blog & sllp =DD

2008-08-17T01:08:00.003+08:00

at last ii cn come here & blogg .
helped my beloved bro mak hiish 1st blog .
omg .
afte 3hrs .
finished everythin ,
he told me he 4get abt hiish password when he alrdy log out .
den ii nid to re-do everythin .
lucky ii nv clear away th source .
if nort ii dun tink ii haf enuff tyme to blog too nor .
shagg .
tired .
wen to IMM wit honey .
yst was at honeys' hse afte my wrk .
hmm . nth muchiie .
play my DS LITE nor & sllp .
hhaas .
wake up ard 12+ .
tink stil haven sllp enuff so go backiie sllp til 3pm+ .
& finally ii made myself to bathe & get ready to go out .
hhaas .
afte IMM ,
wen over to amk hub .
lol .
nth muchiie .
jus walked ard & bought smtings .
afte dat ,
wen over to PEPPER LUNCH haf our dinner .
its honeys' 1st tyme to ther .
& ii do th orderin & everythin .
silly hiimh .
mauckxx**

recently ,
many tings happen .
dunno hw to say .
jus feel say sad forr every1 .
buhh hopee all their choices in R/S ish right .
coosh ii dun wished to c my frens to b sad .
& ii mean my dearest , grace & huihui .
ii hope both ob youu re happy .
dun b emo .
cor me up .
ii lovee youu all =D

tmr gort wrk again .
shagg .
every1 ish forciin me .
kiip asked me return money .
ii know youu all oso no money .
buhh th prob ish ,
ii jus starte wrkiin niia .
& ii haf many more urgent tings to return den urs .
nort ii dun wann return or wad .
ii know all ob youu re hard too .
buhh ....
out ob a sudden ,
yuu kiip msged me ,
askiin me ..
youu wann me hw ?
ii oso niid to settle those more impt den youu de .
coosh ii haf nort been wrkiin for omos 3mths .
& recently ii jus found a jobb niia .
takiie pay oso mus return to XiaoHei first .
coosh hiish names , hiish helped to me ish much more impt .
ii made a promiise to hiimh ,
ii say wont haii hiimh .
so nw ,
all ii nid to do ish returned hiish share asap .
& as forr th rest ,
ii wil return .
jus gibb me more tyme .
ii wrk oso mus wait til end ob mth ..
haiiz .
so stress .
if ii haf a chance ,
ii wann tyme to turn backiie .
& ii hope ii wont mak th same old mistakes to spend my money on those wu liaos de tings lerh ..
& mayb ii oso wont owe so many ppl $$ .
haiiz .
all my silly mistakes .
ii blame myself for spendiin so muchiie .
buhh nw ,
ii haf wakiie up frm th bad dream .
ii hope tings wont repeat again .
pls .

jus leave me alone forr awhile .
ii nid to sllp nw & solve my prob .
sorry .
ii mean nth .
jus my feelins .
im very stress up ...

finally my SHOEBITZ ish done .

2008-08-14T23:25:00.003+08:00

hhaas . so happy . thans to my beloveed , huilin arr =D
& finally , my shoebitz ish nw open lerh .
so wad re youu waitin forr ?
start to order ur fav desiign nw bahs =DD
PS. thanss girl , forr helpiin me to make & ii know youu spend alot ob tymes in it .
lovee youu nahs**
muackxx x33

hmm . nth muchiie .
afte skool wen straiight to honeys' hse . coosh AUNTY VISIT . very paiin & gao weii .
lols . ate 2 bowls ob riice . damn hungry too .
played wit my DS LITE , sllp , wakiie up , miit mummy at bugiis .
met her & her frens forr dinner . ate steamboat . lols .
didnt get to eat muchiie . coosh dun haf muchiie wei kao .
hmm . afte dat acc mummy go to bugiis street buy fruits for tmr pai pai ..
den walked to parklane to takiie bus hme .

rch hme b4 ten . & nw sittin here rot awhile , & im goiin to sllp .
tired . lols . shagg . my moodswiing kiip EMO - HAPPY - EMO - HAPPY ..
goshh .. damn hurts nor .
& ii goiin dwn load sm games b4 ii go sllp . hhaas . tata =DD

wu liaos lorr . emily asked me see her bllog .
& saw liia lorr . so many spams .
yahs . ii know & understand we might nort know hw many ppl hatee us .
buhh pls lorr . dun b childish . no niid to go til ppls' blogg & spam de mahs .
youu re jus makiin a fun ob urself . coosh outsiders might tink youu haven grown up .
so muchiie tyme to go spam ppl . yet dun wann spend tyme do smting useful .
lols . no braiin .
& ppl haf their right to write anythin , buy anythin , say anythin ..
coosh its their own blogg . & those wu liiaos de ppl .
mayb youu dunno hw to create ur own blogg . so youu XIAN MU ppl's blogg .
so go spam . & youu tin youu wil get POPULAR .?
pls lahs . wakiie up . SINGAPORE so smart . youu know wad ish REPORT POLICE for harrassiin & insultiin ppl mahs .
if youu dun wann tink abt urself (coosh ur ip add lead to ur own hse or office) .
why cant youu tink ob others .? youu tink youu will nort get caught ?
hello . youu re wrong nahs . poliice cn go trace th ip address de nahs ..
stupid**
youu must tks dat my belovee , best fren , ish kind enuff to let youu go .
coosh youu re onii wastiin ur tyme . & she tinks on ur behalf ob ur family or office .
if nort , wen tings turn bad . hhaas . ii tink youu wann PUBLIC apologiise oso hard nahs .
nort ii wann KPO or wad . its all true .
if youu dun like th ppl , no niid spam ppl de . jus CLICK TH RED BUTTON ON TH TOP RIGHT HAND CORNER cn liiaos mahs . lols .

PS. emily , ignore th childness ppl . THEY RE JUS JEALOUS OB YOUU . coosh at least youu stil cn afford to buy fake tings . as forr dem . dey onii cn touch , cant buy . hhaas =DD

Pls visit my new webbiie :
http://shoebitz.blogspot.com/
tks =p

my HAPPY 1yr & 1 mth so sweet wors .

2008-08-14T00:13:00.003+08:00

lols .
didnt go to skool 2day .
coosh its me n honeys' 1yr1mth annii .
wana gibb hiimh lil surpriise + "aunty" visit ..
very paiin .
so didnt go skool nor .
hhaas .
yahhss .
& honey bought me a Pink DS Lite & bought me for haiir extenstiions .
lols .
sm more honey gib me do th most fashiions de clip on diamond on th haiir nor .
hhaas .
ii did 1 strand .
so niice wors .
lovees **

honeys' gift so niice .
ii haf been hopiin to get these damn earlii .
jus no wrk no $$ .
den recently den gort jobb .
tot ii stil niid very long tyme to fulfil my own wiished .
yet honey haf grant dem forr me .
im so happy .
& honey promiise to get me 1 more ting .
oso listed in my wiished list .
hhaas .
ii wil nort say wad .
jus wen he pass me th ting ,
ii wil blogg bahs .
& nw ,
ii reali niid go sllp & tmr go backiie skool .
coosh mummy starts to suspect lerh .
omg .
damn it .
tired .
& mayb ii wont b bloggiin tiis 2 days ..
coosh thurs ,
frii & sun ,
ii wil b wrkiin ..
no money so mus wrk lerh .
jiiayouuss =DD

th-one strand hair full wit DIAMOND . +DD

simply lovee my extenstions nor ..

my new PINK DS LITE =DD

did sm lil cookiin wit emily 2day wors .

2008-08-12T20:23:00.007+08:00

yesh .
wen th clock tiick at 12 to9 .
its me & honeys' anni .
yahs .
1yr & 1mth wors .
& ii haf decided to prepare sm lil tings forr hiimh .
hhaas .
actualii jus nw mit emily wante to go Bishan Park piick smting .
buhh in th end ,
biig raiin came .
so we changed pllan .
ended up wen wen Seng Siong buy sm food to go backiie my hse cook .
yahs .
we total cooked ,
1 Chilli minced met ,
1 Shi Chuan Tofu ,
1 Vegetable with Mushroom &
1 Fried Egg & Mushroom soup .
yummy wors .
afte cookin ,
we ate it .
& its my 1st tyme ii eat so much ob my cookiin .
happy siia .
coosh we haf improved alot .
& ob coosh ,
im nort scare ob oil liaos .
ii cn learn to cook many niice food .
ii loveed to cook my FAV de MINCED MEAT ..
hhaas .
gort mi jue de wors .
so nw ,
here to logg awhile ,
ii goiin bathe & prepared my gifts .
hhaas .
& tmr gort skool & wrk .
shagg .
coosh its our anni .
buhh at least honey understand .
& yahs .
honey say hiieh gonna helped me clear all my tings ithin th mth & buy my tings .
so happ & relieved .
coosh at leas ii no niid to spend those days without money .
& dunno hw to survive each day de days lerh .
cn b like th past .
honey buy my everythin ii wann .
dotee me wit all th lil gifts .
im waitin ... =DD

th presents ii made it all by myself de .

from me to hiimh x33

im goiin to mak hiimh -

24 Roses = Can't stop thinking about you, 24 hours everyday

33 Stars = Saying "I love you" with great affection

99 of Martell de Marbles = I will love you for as long as I live &

1 JohnnieWalker "small" de bottle(my fav bottle of all my collections) = Its a place to rmb wen we 1st met , outside my last tyme wrkiin place , Club 7 .

Ps . Beta dun copy my ideas ob givin ur darlins surprise horr =DD

th - fried egg & mushroom soup .

th - chilli minced meat .

th - shi chuan tofu .

th - vegetable wit mushroom .

& tis ish our dinner for th day =D

changed my BLOGSKINs again ..

2008-08-12T15:57:00.002+08:00

tata =D
here am ii to do a lil blloggiin .
hhaas .
changed my blogskiins agaiin wors .
hmm .
th-previious de lok abiit EMO .
yappx .
iim a EMO giirl .
buhh ..
ii jus wann a sweet sweet skiins to brace me up frm those unhappiness mahs .
chatted wit honey on th-foniie .
he was siick .
& ii cant visit hiimh .
coosh hiieh scare wil pass to me .
& iic ant afford to b siick nw .
coosh my CTHCM diiploma exam drawiin nearer .
lols .
& ii actualii nabe go to skool today wors .
dunno why .
mayb last niite too emo liiaos .
cry too much ,
so too tired .
anw ,
CASINO MANAGEMENT ish damn boriin .
haf no choiice ,
so ii absent nor .
buhh very good lerh .
coosh tiis module iish my 1st day ob absent .
& ii believe wont haf anothe tyme de nahs .
yeshh .
mittin emily iin awhile tymes .
so ii nid go bathe & get ready .
mittin her to do smting .
later to9 in my entry youu wil fiind out de nahs .
so im nort telliin any1 nw =D

bye =DD

ii miissed .. badly .. out ob a sudden ..

2008-08-11T21:42:00.005+08:00

out ob a sudden . ii miiss my lil preciious . ii haf lost it . today , th day . jus right .. 11th . its my 6mths it left me .. if nort , by den .. ii tink . smhw , mayb many tings wil b diff . jus read th girl , caiwei's blog . her blogg is so touchiin . ii cn feel herr feelins ob miissiin th one she lovees deep dwn . ii miiss my lil preciious too . out ob a sudden , ii feel like cryiin . im all alone . honey iish out forr wrk . im bloggiin here . my moods simply changed jus within a few mins niia . ii regret . regretted ob nort takiin care ob myself . regret everythin . if ii didnt hear th doc's words , ii made th promiise to wait for its arrival , mayb .. dats reali a miracle .. wil ther b any .??

ii feel so sad & hurt .. ii lost my two preciious . 1 ish nort wad ii wann . th othe , bcoosh ob my unhealthy health .. im so f**kiin fed up wit myself nw . ii hatee myself . dunno why so emo too . issit th song im heariin in my blogg ? its real true .. ii jus cant say Bye to it . ii jus cnt let go . it stil stands a lil positions in my heart . many might tiink ii did it purposely . coosh dey dun understand me .. my feeliins ish damn damn emo nw .. ii cn feel happy one moment & nw , tiis moment , ii feel so so emo ..

preciious .. mummy miiss youu alot . ii onii haf th very very last foto ob youu . buhh at least ur last foto , in it , youu re smiliin . re youu leaviin mummy happily ? im wonderiin . ii jus miiss youu . hw ii wished to hugg youu , dotee youu , carry youu , guide youu , teached youu .. anythiin abt youu . ii wil b grateful to do anythiin . ii swear ..

haiiz . saw my Gfs' children all grown up . my lil Gans' er zii & nuer .. ii feel so heart paiin .. ii feelin damn weak . damn no mood . cn ii cum & acc youu ? if onii ii haf a wished , ii wished .. tyme would turn backiie . & ii promiise to tak cre ob my health wit youu ard . im willin to do anythiin . ii miiss youu alot . im nort scare ob any paiin . buhh th paiin dat youu wasnt ther forr me ..

mummy lovees youu ..
preciious , youu wil owas b ther forr me to lovee you , & dats a space forr youu . huggs*

& nw .. im jus EMO-iin . leave me alone ? or console me . ii niid a shoulder badly . too bad . honey ish out forr wrk .. ii miiss & ii criied nw ..

This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
No, no, no

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye
As a child there were them times
I didn't get it
But you kept me in line
I didn't know why
You didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through

All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today
Face to face
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wishI could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye byeBye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

You never got a chance to see
How good I've done
And you never got to
See me back at number one
I wish that you were here
To celebrate together
I wish that we could
Spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to
Tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me
That I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact
You're gone forever

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye byeBye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye, bye.

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

2 more days to my cute cousin bday .

2008-08-11T21:28:00.003+08:00

2 more days ish my cute lil cousiins' bday wors . my cute lil Renee Ho =D

afte her shall b my ah gu's son de liiaos , den my grandmother den my ah yi's son . lols . afte their . ish my cute lil BDAY . hhaas . at last turned to Twenty real real soon . buhh ... so tired ob days . & ii wil cheriish everythin . coosh ite fate to decide everythin . hmm . ii dunno hw to celebrate my bday seriiously . mayb ii nort celebratiin liaos . c lahs . c who wu xiim jiio me out or gibb me lil surprise nor . haiiz .. jus anothe yr soon . afte my bday ish my CTHCM exam liaos . gonna go sllp . siianx . me & honeys' 1yr1mth cumiin lerh wors . hhaas . wonderiin wad to gibb hiimh . mayb gonna mak sm lil surprise forr hiimh =DD

piics ob th day l0vees =D

Ps. sorriie ii dun haf Bryan's , my ah yi's son foto . coosh ii hardly tak foto wit hiimh =D

Anw , lovee hiimh too nahs .

Renee Ho

YongQing

Grandmother

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LOVEE ONES..
all th best & ii lovee y0uu w0rs =D

new start for my new creatiion busiiness =D

2008-08-11T15:40:00.006+08:00

hello , dearest =D
yappx . jus off skool . & nw sittin in front ob th com typiin agaiin . lols . ii wanna get my napp lerh . buhh no choiice & haf to cum here coosh ii niid shun biian register forr my CTHCM exam lerh . shagg .. sept nor . co fast . ii tink ii choose 4 module first . excludiin th casiino . casiino shall tak it duriin jan bahs . coosh ii dun tiink ii haf enuff tyme . 4 module ish damn lot liiao lorr . shagg . scare dat stupiid blackiie priinciple ob miine dun allow me to tak my Front Office exam . cooosh he say mus approved thrug our student attendance , general conduct . omg .. my attendance for th module ish th worst nor . damn it .. scare scare**

hmm . yappx . mummy bought me a baggiie made frm japan . th name ob th brand ish Sacde Pinko . lols . th baggiie cost $109/- . omg . ii nabe takiie such an expensiive backiie siince th last tyme ii wrk in th pub . tinkin hw riich ii was dat tyme . & nw.. omg . cant even beliieve . dat ii tryiin hard to survive without any pocket money frm my parents . haiiz . nvm . siince ii gort a part tyme jobb nw .so ii shall jus wrk hard & study hard . afte graduate . ii wil b th same old me . no niid stress abt money at all nor . haiiz .

& nw , ii tot ob a small busiiness . so dearest . if youu re interested plls tagg me . im doiin my OWN CREATION for white & blackiie plaiin shoe . wit ur name or depends on desiign .. & ob coosh drawiin may nort b an artist standard , buhh ii believe mine ish stil okay bahs . coosh ii wear my designed shoes out too . & it cost youu onii $18 =DD

if interested , tagg me ur :
Shoe size , White or Black shoe , th names you wanna put .(designs for sewiin wil b mine..)

above ish th sample .
Full view ->
Right side view ->
Left side view .
*PS. th paiint wash is nort noraml paint. So wont drop off. If you wann th name wit ur own color, let me know. if nort ii wil put in myself.

workaholic & schoolaholic

2008-08-10T23:57:00.005+08:00

workaholic wors . jus came backiie frm wrk not long . bathed & did sm research for my studies tmr . haiiz . damn tired . coosh 2day was packiin stock whole day wit bosses . yappy =D

gort to c anothe actress . forget her full name . jus Debra niia . hhaas . she damn chiio nor . she wen to shopp to helped out wit th stock takes too . lols . honey was wit hiish fren . ii starte to get piiss off . coosh hiieh dat fren onii ask hiimh go town . both dun wann wrk . dunno hw to survive siia . smtyme ii tink honey stil dunno hw to tink . xcuse onii . haiiz . shlld ii wash my hands of everythin mahs ? im gettin tired in r/s nor . reali . ii swear . coosh he seems to b nothe guy lerh . dunno hw to say . mayb ii tink too muchiie . buhh its true nor .

haiis . nth to do . afte wrk , rz came fetched me(ii told hney too) . den he fetched me to my hse dwn ther makan dinner . & baciie hme . hhaas . we re jus frens . nth else . jus hiieh like me so he oso waitin forr me . so im jus goiin out wit hiimh like normal fren . coosh ii hardly mit hiimh .!! hhhaas =D

siians . tmr skool wors . all th best . coosh im damn tired nw . shall blog tmr ..

=D

2008-08-09T23:13:00.003+08:00

hmm . nth muchiie . 2day ish National Day wors . spend my day so happily wors . hhaas . at first , mornin wake up , plan to go market wit mummy coosh ii wanna buy my new white shoe . coosh my old one ish dirty & spoil lerh wors . so wen ii wake up , jus right mummy came backiie . buhh mummy asked me to go washed up & she acc me to 262 de market to buy my shoe . lovees*

afte buyiin , wen to seng siong to buy sm drinks to put at hme & sm mee & sm othe stuff . coosh mummy hardly cook . so mus put abiit ob food dat no niid waste muchiie tyme to cook de at hme forr me & bros wors shopp . shopp . & shopp . reached backiie hme at abt 12pm lrh . th sun damn biig . no mood .

so wen in2 my room & start to do my shoe . afte abt 3hrs ii spend . & ii finally designed my shoe finished . & im in lovee wit it . hhaas . lovees*

den honey reached amk at abt 2pm+ . he so lonely . so my bro wen dwn acc hiimh awhile & go . shun bian pass hiimh my mummy's & bro's moviie ticket de money nor . lols . ke liianx de honey , alone waited forr me , mummy & bro for almost 2hrs nor . lols . muackxx . lovee hiimh nahs .

& honey bought th Money No Enough 2 @ 5.2opm . so th tyme was stil earli wen we reached ther at abt 4pm+ . so we wen walked walked nor . acc mummy bought sm shampoos . den bro bought a new shoe . as forr me , honey bought me a new make up box niia . nth muchiie . den wen to food court forr lunch . yummy .!! shared wit mummy de mini steamboat fish soup . (intro by emily de) nice nice wors**

afte dat , wen tymes up , wen to cinema & get sitted . & th show starte . wahs . niice show siia . hhaas .funny + touched + ke liianx norr . laugh til stomach paiin . den cry til tears flow dwn non stop . lucky nabe put make up 2day nor . afte dat , our show ended at abt 8pm . mummy wen hme first . bro wen to Explanade . den me & honey wen walked walked . we did smting .. secrets**

den afte dat we wen to mac . & share to eat th Big Mac nor . den honey walked me hme den he takiie bus go hme . so niice ob hiimh . lovees*

& nw jus bathed finished . coosh helped bro to edit foto . den nw , gonna go sllp lerh . coosh tmr iim wrkiin alone . god bless me =D

Font viiew ob my lovely new shoe .

-designed by irisQueenie

my name =D

my pet name =DD

Full viiew wors =DDD

My boss cassandra see =D

2008-08-08T19:44:00.003+08:00

hhaas . mus b wonderiin who my boss horr . at last ii found her foto online . hmm . btw , nv go wrk today . nt feelin well . buhh Jas say its okay . hhaas . so sllp & nw awake liiaos . burniin cd to briing to wrk . coosh sun iim wrkiin alone nor . shagg .

hhaas . tmr nt wrkiin . & mummy . mayb goiin library . or eithe acc mummy . haiiz . & ii made up my miind lerh . ii changed my group accompany lerh . bccosh ii jus starte to feel dat Irish & Lhenz was nort th rightful frens to stay ard in KLASS nor . coosh duriin lessons , dey kiip chattin abt their own topiics iin their own language . yet ii du lan de ish . dey stil kiip complaiiniin t me abt hw hard th module ish . den dey stil cn chit chat . haiiz . smtymes dunno wad dey tinkin . dunno lahs . Momo ish right . ii shld study hard by myself . nort clingin on2 dem . coosh dey dun study tgt , yet day expect us to write their names inside th assignment to gain marks . haiiz . its reali unfair . so tiis module's assignment onii gort me , frank & momo nia . jiiayouus bahs =D
& ii reali swear dat tiis module ish damn damn hard . its all abt Law & Taxes & Regulations ..

its very difficult . so dear frens , plls understand dat why am ii rejectiin youu guys to go out tgt . cosh ii cant afford to fail . & th real diploma exam ish drawiin nearer . ii mus jiayouus . & ob coosh ii mus wrk hard . even concenrate on wrkiin too . ii mus earn alot ob money & study hard . o blessed me ..

my boss , Cassandra See.

found a job at last . happy arr =DD

2008-08-07T21:35:00.004+08:00

yst didnt get th chance to blogg . due to wrk . hhaas . btw , congrates me forr findin a job . hhaas . yappx . th company paid me $6/hr nor . shiiok horr . hhaas . wrkiin place at Parkway Parade . siians . ii know its far frm my hse . buhh no prob nahs . lols . & eventhough th clothes in th shop wasnt for my age . buhh stil cn mak it nahs . coosh thay do haf their own dsign dresses . & oso haf Bebe's consignment wors . inside th shop , th cheapest ting youu can c is th shoes , it cost $59.90 norr . & th most expensive is th dress , it cost abt $299/- . guess wad . th boss ob my shop is Cassandra See =D

yahs . an actress nor . wah piiangs . so niice to c my boss . a frenly wrkiin environment nor . hhaas . & th full tyme lady , ish much more even older den my mummy . lols . buhh anw , niice to know her . coosh we chatted alot . we haf many similar lovees nor . especiially wen we talked abt MAKE UPs . hhaas . she's even more experience nor . she like me norr . damn damn lovee those BlingsBlings make up . hhaas . know her oso good . she said even her daughter ish in her 30s' . buhh she lovees talkin to me . she said dat im pretty & she njoy wrkiin wit me . even if we know each othe jus 1 day . hhaas . she's a nice lady nahs . we share lil secrets . coosh dun c her so happy go lucky . she gort many sad tings yet she nabe talked to her children de . coosh she said dat they re owas very busy wit their own wrk . haiiz =((

as forr 2day , skool starts . & th handsome Johnathon , Lhenz fav boii same klass wit us nor . & ii reali made up my mind to study hard . coosh tiis course teacher goes through damn damn fast . dun reali understand . wad makes me more pek cek ish dat , we eva ii copyiin th notes frm th slide , haven finished , den he swiitched th slides . & ii haf to stop hiimh many tymes . & ii c many ob my klass mates all fall asllp . hhaas . ii didnt wors . & ii change my sittin position . ii decided nt to sit in between Irish & Lhenz . coosh frankly sayiin , wen they talked to me , ii gort abiit influence by dem . so ii sat beside Frank nor . buhh nort said seperate frm dem . coosh ii jus sit beside dem & let Irish & Lhenz to partner while ii partner wit Frank . he kiip fallin asllp & ii was damn busy copyiin my notes .

good luck forr my tiis module . ii wanna wrk hard .!!! yappx . & ii jus came backiie frm honey's hse . was siick . so honey lok afte me th whole day . cooked lunch & kiip force me to driink many water .. hhaas . so cariin wors . lovees*

& nw ii goin to sllp . tmr afte klass mus rushed hme & den changed forr wrk . jiayouussss . ii cn do it & ii simply lovee takiin foto wiit my new foniie . so niice wors =D

omg . lastniite ii tink ii haf a bad dreams . & ii go hugg th slut nor . mayb mistaken her as my honey or my Kuma(fav toy) . den afte dat wen ii realised wen wake up , ii scare myself . haiiz . & honey's ah ma say ii was piinch by g***t . coosh forr nth , my hand & leg gort a biig patch ob blue black(green color de) . nort paiin de . jus very ugly . haiiz . gonna go pray pray . as ii said , ii very MI XIN . so dear frens , niite tyme plls dun ask me go out , coosh ii cfm sure wil reject . nw 7mth , dun play play ..

tiired siia . buhh at least ii felt dat im heng enuff .

2008-08-05T17:35:00.003+08:00

wakiie up by emily's cor . actualii mittin her to collect her hp . den hor .smting cropped up . lead me to angry wit her lorr . haiiz . coosh she msged me "You come back then do hse work. I take pone then a while go le. I dont want stay at amk too long. Otherwise spent money again:(" . so ii tot at least ii cn haf my lunch & den go hme . so ii walked to amk central . coosh my ez link gonna finished soon . no money to top up . too leong . den on th way abt to reached central . jus 1 more second niia . ii tink ii nw mayb stil at hospital or wad . sorriie ii not meat to curse myself . buhh its true nor . scare me to death to . coosh ii was walkiin pass th old trees at amk passage way ther . den out ob a sudden , a big branch frm th tree jus landed in front ob me . omos hit my head . jus 1 more second onii & ii swear lo . den a uncle saw too nor . he looked at me wit a stunt face too lorr . omg . scarescare*

den afte dat , ii was scared , ii walked towards central wit my mind blank . den emily msged me . say dat "Later take phone go already cos my mummy going Posb to mit me:)" . wahs . ii was damn damn burst nor . ii stil yet to delete th msged . coosh its true . & ii vent my anger wen honey cor nor . wth . hw can ii mit her jus to acc her tak foniieden go lerh .? if she earli earli tel me dat she mittin her mummy , mayb afte ii wil tel her to pass my screen protector next tyme & ii cn sllp more at hme right .? haiiz . angry awhile oso like dat . coosh she's my fren forr so many yrs . & ob coosh we re okay nw nahs . coosh at least she bought me a drink & asked her mummy longbang me hme . tks girl .!!

afte all , ii tink & tink . we re sucha closed fren . why mus lil bit angry . angry afew mins cn lerh lahs . buhh ii hopeeee .. she wont like tiis lerh . coosh mistakes re onii meant to do it once niia horr . yappx . & nw we gort th same foniie agaiin . hhaas . ii stil prefer my white & orange color . coosh hardly foniie gort tiis type color . every foniie ii tak ish eithe blackiie ar bo red . abiit siianx . so changed a tasted .! hhaas*

den afte tak her foniie , we try try lerh den go find her mummy at Posb ther , den her mummy fetched me hme . tks , aunty =)

reached hme , straight away do hse wrk . washed clothes , hang clothes to dry , fold th clothes , washed th shoe racks , drop unwante shoes away , kiip th doorstep area , clean my rme . shifted my tings , swiped th dust away single tings in my rme , sweep th floor for th whole hse , boil water , do th water tings & nw finally , ii gort th chance to sit dwn in front ob th computer & bllog . hhaas . tired day forr me norr .

tmr start skool again . haf enuff ob holidays ii tink . hhaas . my holidays is like omos everyday stayed at hme do hse wrk . nth muchiie . ar bo mit fren or honey niia . mit frens onii mit toacc dem do tings . nth too . shagg . gonna go rest awhile & watched my 7pm show .. tata =D

arghh . ii tink every1 shlld go pray pray ..

2008-08-04T23:47:00.004+08:00

nth muchiie . acc liianx a whole day to do her foniie stuff . tks to herr 2nd bro . made us run abt like siiao cha bo . & wasted $$ forr cabb fare . hhaas . in th end , stil ii was th one helped liianx a .. at last success wen backiie to amk . lol . bought her foniie . same as me . buhh hers ish blackiie . & get free stuff . tks to me huh .!! laughs*

afte dat , wen to market forr our lunch , den walked ard in amk central & hubb . helped mummy buy new num de hicard . & bought myself one too . hhaas . shagg . ii simply lovee my new foniie . coosh while waitin forr mummy to off wrk , we sat by th fountain ther den eat durain puff & used my foniie to watched channel 8 . hhaas . shiiok horr . pllus no niid waste many battery norr . hhaas . wen mummy arrived , acc mummy buy tings . she bought me one Vinger Tonic . wahs . mus drink everyday de . coosh ii gort low blood . haiiz . buhh damn er xiin nor . yucks*

nth muchiie . nabe mit honey 2day . missed hiimh wors . buhh waitin forr hiimh to go hme nw . hhaas . lovees*

hmm . bad news . my bro buang . buhh lucky onii motor grt prob .. he arr .? scrathes on th leg & waist ther norr . nort very injured nahs . buhh hiish bike injured damn biig . total he niid 75o$ to changed everythin . c lahs . tell hiimh b4 . yet he nabe listen . nw tings happen . haiiz . ii suggest every1 go pray pray beta . haiiz . den he , mummy & sllut mak spoil my BEDFRAME , my PHOTO FRAME jus iin 1 night norr . wahs piiangs . angry siia**

piics taken frm my nw foniie .. niice mahs =)

surveyyyy

2008-08-04T12:04:00.000+08:00

1) Are you really ready for 90 questions?
- yeshh.

3) Do you believe in God?
- stil okay nor.

4) Who did you last you hugged?
- Honey.!

5) Do you regret it?
- Nopee

6) Have you ever been depressed?
- YESH.!!

7) Have a best friend?
- yeshh.

8) Are you a boy or girl?
- girl lor.

9) What is your relationship status?
- married.! hhaas.

11) What did you last eat?
- bread & NUTELLA bought frm honey.

12) Play any sports?
- depends.

13) Do you play an instrument?
- erm. depends on wad.

12) Do you bite your nails?
- NO.!!

14) Tom from MySpace is about to go to jail, what’s your first thought?
- dunno who laii de.

15) Do you have an attitude?
- ob coosh.

16) Ever been in love?
- yeshhh.

17) What is your real name?
- chewyun

16) Like reading?
- depends readin wad nor.

19) Are you gonna get high later?
- no lahs.

20) Do you hate anyone at the moment?
- yeshh.

21) Do you miss someone?
- hmm. ob coosh.

21) Twirl or cut your spaghetti?
- twirl lorr.

22) Who is your best friend's uncle's cousin girlfriend's daughter's boyfriend?
- wahs. so farr. hw ii know.

23) Ya diggin' them white girls?
- wads dat.?

24) Do you tan a lot?
- depends on mood.

24) Have any pets?
- used to.

25) How exactly are you feeling?
- bored & tired leiis.

26) What are you doing at the moment ?
- chargiin hp & surveyy nor.

30) Are Barbie & Ken bad influences on people?
- dunno.

31) Do you regret anything from your past?
- yesh.!! many tings.

32) Do you want to have kids?
- ob coosh wann.!!

34) Ever kissed somebody that's name started with a T?
- surname consider mahs.?

35) Do you type fast?
- okay okay nor.

36) Do you have piercings?
- yappiex.

37) Want any more?
- yappiex.

38) Can you spell well?
- depends bahs.

39) Do you miss anyone from your past?
- yahs. ii mis my bb damn muchiie.

40) What are you craving right now?
- ice cream.!!

50) What should you be doing?
- sllp nor.

51) What's your favorite day?
- Friiday nor.

52) Have you done anything bad recently?
- gort bahs.

53) Does somebody love you?
- yappiex.

54) Whats your favorite color?
- red/white/black/pink

55) So are you liking this survey?
- stil oaky bahs.

56) Do you have a crush?
- ob coosh gort nahs. my honey & me nor.

56) Do you have trust issues?
- yeahs

60) Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
- stil okay nor. depends on their moods de leis.

62) Do you want a guy to serenade you?
- dunno wads th meanin wors.

65) What song do you want him to sing?
- Xuan Ze

67) Should this survey stop?
- anything=D

68) Have you ever walked outside completely naked?
- no lahs. siiaos.

69) Do you think your a good person?
- im nort. depends nahs. my frens wil know beta=DD

70) Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
- depends.

71) Do you take showers?
- ob coosh nahs.

72) Last time you had a nice bubble bath?
- yahs. damn long ago lerh lo..

75) Do you play the Wii?
- wads dat.??

76) How do you feel about Fairprice?
- okay okay nor.

81) Are you mean?
- depends on mood.

82) Can you keep white shoes clean?
- depends nor.

83) Have you noticed this survey stopped getting personal?
- gort arr.

85) Are you proud of the person you've become?
- nopee.

86) Do you wanna change?
- yeshh.. so willin too.

87) Who was the last person to make you mad?
- TRZ

88) Do you like the outside?
- stil okay nor.

89) Are you currently bored?
- super duber.

90) Do you want to get married?
- ob cooshh =PP

hhaas . yesh . ii bought my new foniie lerh wors.

2008-08-03T23:39:00.004+08:00

hhaas . wen dwn to buy my new foniie wit honey & uncle . hhaas . at last . gort it . superr niice & chiio nahs . nabe regret buyiin . coosh miine ish th latest versions . & th seller promiise to get me th PINK cover once th olypiums ends . hhaas . coosh nw all factory ish shut dwn . whahas .

im so iin lovee wiit me new hp . damn loud . damn niice . can watch tv too . den duo siim de . hhaas . camera oso clear . 3mp lorr . =DD stil gort front camera too . omg . im so iin lovee wit it . promise to takiie good kares ob it . hhaas . its an advance bday present forr myself =))

so iin lovee wit tiis hp . nabe regret buyiin tiis =D

& th color iish in white & orange de .

im waitin forr th white & piinkish de wors =DD

th piniish versiions =D

nth speciial..

2008-08-03T12:04:00.003+08:00

nothin speciial nahs . coosh yst actualii wann to go dwn Parkway try try wrkiin lerh . in th end , ii nv go dwn . ii wen go honeys' hse instead . whahas . dunno why . mayb th wrkiin pllace jus too far lerh nahs . yst whole day at honeys' hse til 10pm den go hme . hhaas . was sllpiin , watchiin tv & chattiin wit honeys' mummy & ah ma . lols .

hhaas . honey saw th weather so hot , so wen dwn to buy me ice cream wors . so niice ob hiimh . hhaas . yet silly hiimh . jus lovee hiimh more n more wors . lovees*

hmm . nth speciial . for 2day , sllack awhile more den go do lil hse wrk den goiin bathe & go find honey lerh . hhaas . siians . im stil doiin my *secrets* for honey nor . siians . later mayb goiin change hp lerh . nort waitin forr th liianx a . she consider too slow lerh . ii dun wann wait th hp trade in priice drop . lols .

=DD

2008-08-02T12:50:00.004+08:00

yst acc my liianx a go TTS .. den afte dat we headed to CITY PLAZA . lols . BFF says she nabe go b4 . bought to eat th best MEE HUN KUEY & POPPIAN norr . wheepz .

mit hone at th seng siiong ther , den we walked to city plaza tgt . hhaas . den haf our lunch . damn full . emily treated me & honey ZERO th coke . wahs piiangz . er xiin nor . nort niice . weird taste siia . hmm . den honey treate me emily to eat MEE HUN KUEY & POPPIAN . muhahas . damn nice . we took many chilli too . BFF says dat th chilli very hot too . lols .

afte makan . we wen round shopping th mall . bought nth . jus a comb . coosh no $$ . sadd . nvm . ii goin to wrk PTJ soon . onii emily th one kip buyiin . hhaas . she's riich wors . dots**

den afte shoppin , wen to hp shop . walk & c c . hhaas . saw th china hp ii like . & ii tink ii changiin to dat hp on sun or mon bahs . hhaas . honey oso say niice . buhh BFF kips influence by othe's sayiin . hhaas . dunno her bahs . if she buys too . den me & BFF same hp again wors . nice nice . its a DUO SIM de hp laii de . cn watch tv too . hhaas . good right . nort too expensive too .

hmm . gonna go prepare & den go Parkway try try th job dat my long lost wrk fren intro de .. haiiz . no choiice . no money .. so mus go try try c suiits me anot .. god bless me =D

den afte dat acc BFF go takiie bus while me & honey walked hme watched tv . & tks honey . forr th surprise . he bought my fav lo .. DURIAN .. hhaas . happy . den afte dat watch tv all th way til 10pm show finished , den cabb-ed hme . coosh im too tired to sit bus lerh . hhaas . reached hme bathe & sllp . im a good girl wors ..

in th-end , didnt get to mit up wit my darlink huiihuii & sister yiiwen nor . shagg . ii miss dem lotsa .!!!

=D

2008-08-01T10:43:00.006+08:00

a changed for my bday wished :
1. PSP slim (red)
2. Coach / Gucci bagg " triple As de "
3. New shades " black or white or red for th frame , coosh ii haf brown de lerh "
4. Burberry shawl's (grey)" same design not real brand de lahs "
5. Gucci Lanyard " triple As de "
6. Guess wallet
7. Hair extenstions " asked my mummy sponsor . hhaas . "
8. Rebond my hair " asked my honey do it . lols . "
9. New handphone (w96oi / w35oi) " ii wil do it myself "
10. Mp4 " any brand "
11. Hello Kitty keyboard & mouse
12. Bday surprised =DD

alright . yst didnt managed to blogg . coosh ii nabe use comp for th whole day wors . surprisin mahs . dots-.-*

hmm . nth muchiie . jus helped mummy to do th entire hse cleanin den mit up wit my Hany , babe . hhaas . (Ps.sorriie let youu wait for me for omos 45mins.!!) hhaas . den we wen to haf our lunch at Ah Mei Cafe . lols . abiit too ex . buhh nice nic wors . hhaas . chatted alot . everytyme we mit up ish do our updatiin chats . lols . (Ps.Great to hear dat youu re attached & ur boii treats youu like a PRINCES siia.!!) envy* . buhh anw , th decision youu told me , ii wil go alng wit youu . coosh ii understand hw muchiie youu niid your freedom , babe . good luck**

den afte dat , too cold at amk hub , so wen to central & walk . lols . stil doiin our chattiins en walkiin . omg . we seem to haf a nabe endiin chats . hhaas . hmm . den afte dat walked til no place go . den go backiie to amk hub & relac at CoffeBean for hrs . hhaas . slacks & talked again . hhaas .

& afte dat , hany wen hme for dinner , ii was walkin alone , den liianx a called . she came to mit me . den afte dat we act cute go to th DIY shop . wanna do tings . hhaas . at 1st ii told her ii wann learn to knitted tings , she say ii act cute . afte dat , she ownself act cute wann mak rose . hhaas . both ob us oo act cute .. coosh we bought th rose tings norr . den while waitin for my mummy to mit us for dinner , we actuali decided to go do th fish spa & liianx a wann do th massage . in th onii lianx a do massage . ii nabe do . coosh mummy scare . so ii acc herr . clapps* ii saved money again . hhaas . den afte liianx a njoy okay lerh . me , liianx a & mummy wen to S11 haf our dinner . afte dinner , mummy teached liianx a hw to mak th rose awhile , den we headed hme .

liianx a wen backiie to shop to collect money . den me & mummy act cute wann save money , frm central pushed mummys' bicylce backiie hme . reached hme , damn tired norr . longg tyme nabe walked so farr lerh . den afte dat straight hme cor Honey awhile & wen to bathe .

afte bathed , RZ came my hse dwn stairs . den go dwn chatted wit hiimh awhile .(Ps.Honey approved de=D) den wen hme .. stupid nor . mit RZ awhile niia , my toe nail came off . th whole ting nor . smmore ish th biggest toe nail . %&@#^@$ .!!!

hmm . afte dat , waited th tyme to passed , den me , mummy , daddy & th stupid biitch go dwn pray pray . coosh its Ghost Festival First Day . haiiz . at niites cant go out lerh . bored . forr one whole mth norr . nvm . ii can tahan de =D

dear frens , nw th DOOR opens lerh . plls becareful horr . dun ayhow talk talk or go out too late . no good for yourself =DD

mittin liianx a later . hmm . gonna go do hse wrk den prepare lerh . tata ..

PS. mayb ii wil celebrates my bday at SENTOSA . c hw tings goes bahs =D

PS . ii know very er xiin . buhh ii damn heart paiin nor .
ii lovee my nails so muchiie ..
yet th whole ting came off for nth .
mummy say bccosh she alrdy warn me cant go ou .
yet ii stil go . so ....
arghh . dont say lerh . sobb*

again . th pretty&cutecute ME .!!!!

hhaas . happy like siiao =DD

2008-07-30T21:29:00.002+08:00

im so damn happy nw . hhaas . many mus tink ii crazy de . coosh 2day was my exam . & ii feel so happy . hhaas . ob coosh happy lahs . coosh 2day b4 exam starte , th admin ppl came to our klass & annouced our re-schedule . hohoho =D

actualii tmr off . den frii start skool . & gonna start my BUSINESS OPERATIONs lerh . buhh nw .. change lerh . hhaas . happy like siiao nor . coosh im startin my CASINO MANAGEMENT1 first .. hhaas . buhh nothe sad tings was we mus sepreate wit our klassmates . omg . gonna seperated wit Danny , Mike & blah blah blah . haiiz . haf so many crazy tymes & jokes wit dem for omos 2mths . abiit SHE BU DE .. no choise nahs . haiiz .

hmm . dunno wad to bllog anymore lerh . haiiz . siians wors . actualii tmr gort th chance to mit my darlink huiihuii & sis yiiwen . buhh nw . changed in plann lerh . coosh sis yiiwen nort free nor . boredmen kills .

ii tink mayb ii wil try out th jobb on frii de bahs . coosh reali no money .. too broke . bday cumiin soon . dunno hw to celebrates lo . haiiz . no money de days so CHAM siia . gonna rushed to wrk & earn more $$ norr ..

god , pls guide me to a real path bahs . im so tired abt NO MONEY days .. ii cant spend my happy tymes wit my lovee ones , buy my fav tings , go to clubbin places ii like & many many more nor ..

my bday wished :

1. PSP slim
2. Triple 'A's Coach / Gucci bagg
3. New shades
4. Burberry shawl's (grey)
5. Gucci Lanyard
6. Guess wallet
7. Hair extenstions
8. Rebond my hair
9. New handphone (w96oi / w35oi)
10. Mp4

stil cant tink ob any yet . lols . buhh hopiin my bday wil b a very memoriable day nor . like last yr celebrations . hhaas . so ii mus faste find a job & get my wishes done .

nth to do .. so do sm lame answeriin tings =))

2008-07-29T20:52:00.002+08:00

1) What's most important, money or love?

- Money =)

2) Do you have any nicknames?

- hmm . ah liianx & liianx a bahs .

3) Are you currently happy?

- hmm . consider happy bahs .

4) Who was the last person who hugged you?

- my HONEY lahs =p

5) What song best describe about your love life?

- A Very Special Love . my blogg playiin nw de .

6) Name 3 colours that you like?

- Red , White & Black

7) If you have something troubling you, what will you do?

- Cry nor . or mayb drink my MARTEL alone =D

8) What do you do when you're moody?

- Play viwawa

9) Who is more important to you?

- Family . Friends & my HONEY lorr .

10) If you have a dream come true, what would it be?

- Clear all my debts . if this cant . den ii tink , ii hope my frens & me will b happy owas .

11) What feeling do you love most?

- EMO D

12) How would you feel if everyone turn their back against yours?

- Sad & Emo

13) What do you want in your life right now?

- Pass my diploma lorr .

14) When did you last cry?

- When honey release dat day .

15) If ever a day someone you love passed away, what will you do?

- Cry lahs . & ii dun tiink ii wil b cheerful enuff .

PS. tmr's ish my exam .hope everythin goes well forr me . GBM bahs =))

happy 300th BLOGG =))

2008-07-28T22:20:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 3ooTH BLOGG =)

at last ii haf bllog til 300th blogg entry siince th day ii starte to blogg . lovees*

hmm . sorriie been neglectiin tiis few days . coosh ii haf been wit my honey . hhaas . jus nw afte klass oso wen to hiish hse . do sm revision & den sllp & den wake up makan dinner . den honey acc me hme & wen hme alone . lols . poor hiimh . hhaas . ii haf nort been so happy & loveed forr so longg . ii mean tiis ish th lovee ii wann . & nort wit RZ those lovees . RZ ish jus too sticky lerh . nort my type . sorriie .

ii lovee my lyfe nw . & ii promiise to cheriish everythiin ii haf =))

hmm . shiit* stupiid tag box . & nw ii haf to restart everythin lorr . so dar frens . tagg plls =))

shall update my fotos .. ii know youu all miiss me . hhaas .

happy days ..

2008-07-27T23:02:00.001+08:00

haf not been bloggiin . due to 1 reason . hhaas . was wit hiimh . & we re backiie to our lovely dovely world . lols . nth muchiie . jus wiit hiimh , watchiin dvd at hme , playiin wit hiish cousiin , sllp & sllack . & jus came bk frm hiish ah gu's jia dou tings . hmm . gonna go sllp lerh . tata . blog wen im free =))

lovely days.. friiends 4eva

2008-07-24T08:03:00.015+08:00

yst wen to mit up wit my liianx a . afte watchiin PORM NIGHT online . as emily oso watched it too . hmm . afte watchiin was prepariin to go out . coosh we had an interviiew at 3.3opm at th stupid KATONG SHOPPING CENTRE . omg . wen there earlii , buhh th ppl very buay paii seh . let us waiit abt 45mins . & tiis is wad they cor de 10 - 15mins . omg . jobb interviiew sux lorr . th person talkins' was SECARSTIC . puii*

den me & emily contiune our plan to disturb th stupid & blurr sotong queen , my lovely GRACE .!!! hhaas . coosh we onii left yst to celebrates her bdy . her lovely sweet 20th bday . coosh th actual & th day b4 ish all for herr lovee ones & family . we musnt selfish . hahas . buhh stil , we stil fulfil her lil wished . coosh she wante her fensto gib her surpriised . hmm . backiie to topiic . yahs . afte interviiew , me n emily took bus to BUGIS . we wen shoppiin to kill tyme & was waitin forr th bday girl arrives . omg . she damn damn sllow lo . we purposely find trouble forr her . & she tot its real . while emily wen to fetch her , & ii wen ovr to th steamboat ther waiit forr her wit th lil cake we bought . & she walked til ther stil haven me lor . (mayb im too pretty.!hhaas) & we sang th lovely bday girl a bday song . she say she feel so surprise . hah .! happy jiiu hao lerh , my dear .!!

msg for my deaest grace ;

20th lerh leis . & tyme fly so fast . we haf known each othe for th 8yrs plus liaos . ther's ups & dwns for us . smhw ii feel so lucky to haf youu as my lovely fren . you re owas BLUR s SOTONG stil . hhaas . anw , wiished youu a happy 2oth bday wors . stay pretty owas .!!! ii lovee youu .

backiie to topiic agaiin . afte steamboat , we wen over to PARKLANE to find my bros' , chriis & alan . haf sm driinks wit dem & my two lovely girls ob coosh . hhaas . drink , drank , drunk(lols . ii wasnt drunk.) & singin . ii mis singiin sessions . hhaas . afte dat wen hme , rz came fetch me . as he said he haf smting to pass me . (he was waitin for me , yet im waitin for nothe hiimh) & ther , he pass me a box , wit a dolphin necklace in ther & th wrappiin paper was he DIY de . he wrote 999 tymes ob I LOVE YOU on th paper & gave it to me . haiiz . ii was a lil touched . buhh sorriie . ii haf th answer ii wan . ii jus hope he wil slowly 4get me & get on wit lyfe . hiish a good & cariin bf . buhh stil . my answer wasnt hiimh . sorriie*

afte dat , wen hme , bathe & sllp . & nw bloggiin here . coosh was readiin othe's bllog . coosh grace told me dat a girl pass away . & shes' onii 19yrs lorr . omg its a car accident . afte readin th girls' frens blog . out ob sudden ii haf so many to tel my lovely frens ..

dearest frens & sistas & brothes & buddies ,

through a fenship , ther's owas ups & dwns . smhw ii feel dat tyme fly so fast dat we might nt predict anythin for th future . ii jus wanna treasure every ob my frens lovely de smile . its true . once ob a sudden , many tings might happen . & youu wil nabe know who wil pass & leave youu 1day . ii can roughly get th feelin ob ur close ones left youu . rmb-rin , feb ob tis yr . one ob my fren (ii might not talked to hiimh often , buhh afte all stil frens , coosh we do outiin tgt b4..) , yaoming . left us too . den follow by my bro frens , manman . & nw , my sistas fren . ther might stil b alot . buhh stil , tymes wont stop for us to realise hw impt a fren ish . its our responsibilities to kip track ob every moments youu had wit ur frens . am ii right .? ii jus wished to say , t me nw , r/s wasnt dat impt den my frenship . ppl might tink dat ii might nt lovee my th othe part . buhh pls lorr . if im gone 1 day , youu wil tink r/s more impt den me , as a fren mahs .? (if yesh horr , kindly click on th cross part lahs.!!-.-) every moments youu pass wit your lovee ones ish very very fast . youu jus cant hold on th tyme & sta ther 4ever . all youu can ish njoy every mins & secs wit your frens nw .. tis ish all ii hope . coosh ii dunno wen wil b my turn eithe . ii cant promise dat ii wil live well , haf kids , marry happily & live old . its all abt gods' test . if reali god wans me to leave , ii wil leave . buhh stil , all happy moments wil b within me FOREVER . ii wished dat if im real gone 1 day , ii hope my frens wil b strong & live well & cheriish th every moments & quarrels we haf . coosh its FATE dat we cn b frens nw . & if dats' chance , we wil b fren once again .

oldiies like to say tis : Ai ren zhi you ji ge . dan peng you yi shen zhi you yi ge ..

ii lovee my lovely frens . ii thank god to let me to haf sm wonderful frens by me . leadin me to th color ob my lyfe . im fulfil . ii jus wanna all my frens to know ii lovee dem , b4 its too late .. especially , my liianx a & grace . ii known dem consider th longest in my fen list . ii haf so much to say . buhh stil ii wann dem to know ii lovee youu . tks forr everythin , which both ob youu haf bought to me . even we quarrel at tymes or over lil tings . bcoosh ii care & lovee youu . dats why . we cfm sure haf our reasons to b angry smtymes . buhh no matter wad happens . both ob youu re my 4ever fren . ii wil cherish every moments wit youu two . smiles*

jus wished those BU XING de mo shen ren , RIP . youu wil owas b rmb by ur lovee ones .

th-cheerful & lovely me =))

frens =)

chriis & allan & my 2 lovely girs @ RED ANT PUB.

th-bday celebration we had .

happy 20th bday girl =))

liianx a 1314 =)

tired day.. &ii miiss hiimh lotsa..

2008-07-22T18:56:00.011+08:00

alright. nw left 2 days 1 night lerh. hmm. afte skool wen to NATIONAL LIBRARY for group studiies. & tiis stupiid emily ob miine said dat im actiin CUTE. omg. im a GOOD GIRL lo.. dun INFLUENCE me leis.(jokiin*)

hmm. had a set ob lunch & studiies starts. omg. so tiired. was damn awake iin th morniin. buhh wen tyme ish up.. omg.. my eyes kiip closiin like e auntomatical door. hhaas.

nothiin muchiie. buhh afte studiies wen straight hme & sllp. yahs. den recevied Andrew's msged.(my fake bf whom ii saiid..) omg. hiish dearest & preciious new born bb left to th kingdom ob heaven tiis mornin 112o.. ii feel so sadd nor. she wil b ceremated @ Mandai tmr, 9am. yet ii cant attend. coosh ii haf skool to attend.. haiis. & ii was tinkiin abt thurs takiin MC agaiin. omg. coosh its a impt day nahs. =)

buhh anw, hope their wil lead a happy lyfe even without th bb.. & nort worriied abt anythiin.. as th oldies say de.. no matter wad, lok at th briight siide. coosh dey re stil young. cn haf as many bb as dey wann.. alright.? cheers**

afte a new cut, took piics iin kllaass today.. omg. IRISH oso wen to cut.. th 3 ob us, th LOKALOKA same haiir style nor.. hhaas. so qiiao horr. hhaas. cn any1 tel me.?? my new haiir cut suits me mahs..

hmm. called hiish mummy & talked abt thurs tiins. afte abt tat stuff. den hiish mummy nagg at me agaiin. lols. ii promiise.. & ii swear.. ii reali reali wil stablle wiit hiimh afte hiish return. alriight.. & ii wil b a good gf.. hao bu hao. yahs. afte sm tinkin. every1 ish right. hiish a good bf. yet ii let hiimh go once. & nw ii haf a chance to mend everythiin & ii cant let it sliip agaiin.. ii niid niid to settle dwn my r/s lerh. alrights. its realii been very hard forr me to get in2 r/s til so long. & we alrdy consider tgt 1yr 1 mth soon..

blless me bahs.. & ii promiise to b a good girl & gf=))

th-speciial giift ii did forr hiimh.

& gonna pass hiimh wen go fetched hiimh..

hhaas. th-XIAOXIONG biiscuits ii bought wiit HUILIN=)

my set ob lunch. at HANS'.

cost me $11.8o lorr =)

stil gort sphagetti horr.!!!

th-BRAND new me=))

irisQueenie

th-3 LOKALOKA=)

my bday wiished..

2008-07-21T13:38:00.003+08:00

omg. raiiniin cats & dogs nw lorr. hmm. actualii was goiin for a interviiew. buhh nw. ii didnt go lerh.. coosh its lokiin forr full tyme de. whiile iim jus lokiin for part tyme niia. shag.. omg.!!! gort to get a part tyme wrk soon.. (grace baba, if youu study, ii tink youu fiind PTJ beta.. coosh very TONG KU if no wrk.!!)

hmm. lovely frens & dudes.. my cbox dunno wad happen. youu cn leave a tagg ther.. buh AM BAN lorr. omg.. dunno wads wrong. cn any1 tell me.? hhaas. goiin do sm hse wrk agaiin. tata=)

im waiitiin forr youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu=)

my lovely bday wiished.. hhaas. =))

omg.. im reali reali bored. wher haf all my lovely frens gone to.?

gort bf de acc bf. gort wrk de go wrk..

wad abt me.? no klass today. & im so so LONELY..

haiis.. ii gonna do sm revision for my studiies..

omg.. nearer & nearer lerh..

2008-07-21T04:24:00.004+08:00

omg. left 3 days 2 nghts lerh. & nw.. so latee lerh. ii jus cant get to sllp. hmm. was dwnloadiin new games to my comp & solviin out my folders & stuffs norr. boredmen kills me.. arghh.

yesh.!! ii know ii niid to go to bed earlii. coosh afte all im sti a student right. hhaas. alright. afte my changed ob my bllog foto & updte mye encountiin days. IM GOIN TO SLLP ANW.!!!

bye,dudes=)
hhaas. my blogskin nice horr. jus change abiit niia. coosh am tryiin to act SWEET nahs=))

notes forr my pretty ones, coosh dey re th 10 impt person in my lyfe. without dem. & othe close frens.. my lyfe ish black & white.. dey re th loveely olors in my lyfe to. ii lovee dem & all my frenn. out ob a sudden.. ii miss outiin wit dem siia..:

1. emily - ii miss youu nahs. all th best forr your new jobb searchh.. & oso wiished youu & yourr BF last long long.. beta dun 4get abt me horr. & if gort XINSI rmb share share horr. lovees*

2. grace- omg. your BDAY cumiin nearer & nearer lerh.. rmb youu promiise to mit me soon. hmm. all th best in your wrk & r/s & f/s & everytings,alrights. cheers*

3. huilin - omg. we shlld mit up owas to updates our secrets & joeks man.!! ii lovee youu & outiin wiit youu too. blleahs*

4. jeslyn - my dearest nuer. sorriie marmiie reali busy wit studiies de. jus dat owas th tyme youu wanna mit me gort tings crop up. so was cancelled. ar bo.. cant mak it. hhaas. buhh promiise to miit up real real soon.!! & nort ii dun wanna share my XINSI wit youu. jus dat, youu re omos owas nort by your comp. by th tyme youu start chattin wit me, ii nid go out.. hhaas. sorriie=)

5. ffelffel - wahs. damn damn long long nabe c youu lerh lorr. buhh tks anw. coosh owas gort th heart to cum read my updates. hhaas. mit me soon. im waitin forr yourr CALL =))

6. huihui - girlgirl arr. youu horr. beta dun tink too muchiie. coosh nw youu gort study. so anythin cn tel me.. dun tink ob LET GO.. its nort worth it.. like me.. regret like hell. den nw niid wait & wait.. hmm. anw, mit up soon nahs.!!! jiayouus forr your study..

7. ahyinggg - omg. lil lady. haf nort been seeiin youu 4 smtyme. hope youu pass by & read tiis post. coosh ii miiss your laughter & joeks. hhaas. especially, wen youu re *angry* like dat tyme.. wann sllap th sllut. omg.. cute girllllllllllllll.

8. sharongHONG - hhaa. yuu too. gort bf lerh.. dunno hw to sms me too. sadd liao lahs. hmm. anw, last longg wit yourr BF.. & mit up soon=)))))))))

9. hany - ii miiss SENTOSA sessions wit youu nahs.. omg.. beta contact me real soonn=))

10. GJYJ - ii miissed & loveed youu badly. iim waitin forr youuuuuuuuuuu, hubbiie=))

*ii nabe arrange accordingly de horr. coosh every1 ish so IMPT to me.. mus treat me NICE food lerh. hohoho=))
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to those who re haviin dey re romantiic lovee story.. all th best to youu & rmb.. cheriish what youu haf nw & never regrets. if your names wasnt here. dun b sadd. hao mahs.. ii stil lovee all my sistas & frensssssssss=))

4 more days..

2008-07-19T23:22:00.009+08:00

encountiin agaiin. 4 more days & 4 more niitex to go..

im stil countiin norr. very nervous. day by day th days pass away.. omg.. ii miiss hiimh so muchiie. wonder hiieh does or nort. hhaas. laughs*

smtymes ii relaii feel dat iim very bllessed. coosh nort every1 has th kiind ob lovee ii haf. ii nort HAO LIAN lahs. buhh b true. & owas iim th one spoilin everythin. haiis.. feel dat im a rubbiish smhw norr.

hmm. alrights. lets' drop th sad subject & get backiie to mye topiic forr th day. hhaas. met up wiit my lovely HUILIN. wen to IMM forr shoppiin. hhaas. at last. shopped dao mye XIAO XIONG BING GAN.!!! can bear to eat norr. omg. hhaas. was fooliin & jokiin ard like crazy girls. ( hhaas. we re owas like siiao cha bo ) & tiis bought us to b shoo close afte years ob known. isnt it.? true frens hard to fiind. buhh as long youu haf 1 / 2 / 3 good fens can lerh.. coosh nort all frens re beiin true to youu =)

hmm. Grace baba bdae cumiin lerh lorr.. feel so happy forr herr. coosh she's turnin 2o lerh. hhaas. olld liiao lerh lahs. hhaas. & she say me backiie lorr. coosh 2 more mths mye turn too. den follo by my liianx a. hhaas. anw, tiis yr bdae, ii hope to celebrates wiit mye lovee ones onii-.- x33

siians. afte IMM. wen backiie to CWP walked ard wiit lin frens.. hhaas. niice to know dem too. walkiin ard wiit dem.. smhw ii feel dat iim so olld. buhh.. ii nabe envy dem norr. coosh iim biig enuff to do EVERYTHIN.. oophs**

btw, ii gort my cutee lil haiir CUT.!!! hhaas. a brand new me..

fotos forr th-day..

She's my lovee.. Sistas owas..

th-brand new me.. ENVY or nort..

5 more days.. & im feelin lucky=))

2008-07-19T03:26:00.002+08:00

lols. jus came bk frm MAHJONG sessions. wit Rz & hiish siis & sis's husband. FUN man.!!! coosh ii keep wiiniin nor. shiiok lahs. nth muchiie. jus sllp & do hse wrk den waiit Rz cum fetch me den go mak hiish biike & off for Mahjong Sessions. hhaas. Rz lose til very jiat liat.. coosh hiieh was so SUAY lahs.. blame hiimh for giviib KENNETH ENG a riide.. & so hiieh damn suay lahs.

omg. fens readiin my bllog. although ii broke off wiit hiimh. buhh nw, we re jus like cllose frens. coosh hiieh say hiieh regretted. wanna waiit forr me.. so ii met hiimh jus forr joiniin e fun of MAHJONG.. hhaas. Ps. qiing bu yao wu huii lahs=))

gonna go sllp nw. coosh tmr nini & yiyi cumiin.. den iim mittin my beloved HUILIN=)

hhaas. MONDAY no kllass. coosh Mdm on leave. shiiok lahs. longg wkend..

encountiin agaiin. 5 more days to go..

6 more days to go..

2008-07-17T15:47:00.003+08:00

jus came backiie frm Penisula Plaza. wen to mak copy ob my notes & booklets. so tired. ate KFC as lunch wit my lovely, Lhenz & Irish. th-lokaloka.. hhaas. was damn bored. so shall update th-past fotos whiich ii niid to update. its been mths ago. buhh stil. okay lahs. ii mis th-past BADLY norr.

encountiin agaiin. 6 more days to go..

Memories of my Lovee, Mimi

HWQ ; HCY & HWS

Sentosa Trip - April2oo8

ii visited hiimh = GJYJ

2008-07-16T19:06:00.002+08:00

yesh. & ii didnt turn up to skool 2day again. plls dun scold me. coosh ii haf mye own reasons. as ii say. tmr ish hiish 21st bdae. & ii seriiously miiss hiimh badly. so ii visited hiimh wiit hiish mummy & ah ma.. walked to th wrong way. as emily didnt gib me full directiion. so ii actiion frm QUEENSTOWN mrt there wallk all th way til omos COMMONWEALTH mrt lorr..

in e end, decided to coor up sis, yiiwen. & asked hiimh. afte 10+miins ob talked. fiinally ii gort my way ther. tks lorr. walk a biig round siia. den wrong way, mus U-Turn lorr. like 2day ish mye CrossCountry Day.. omg..

den reached ther on tyme. waited forr hiish mummy & ah ma.. den go iin.. many process too. mus wait. suppose to visit hiimh at 1.3o.. buhh abt 2.15pm den get to go iin & visit hiimh nor.. everythiin oso mus wait. damn it..

buhh so Qiiao.. saw hamster.. my longg lostt fren. hhaas. herr bf oso inside. & ii told GJYJ.. he say ther's a guy same room wiit hiimh. dunno issit e same person we talkiin abt nort lorr.. hhaas. saw hiimh at last. he turns FAT lerh lorr. more fat & big size.. im very happy wen ii saw hiimh.. hiimh too. omos criied.. buhh iin e end, hiish mummy cry. hhaas. chatted. & hiieh say hiieh miissed me alot.. & ii haf gave hiimh e greatest bday present.. hiish very very surprised wen hiieh saw me too. kiip askiin why am ii ther.. hiieh tot hiieh wont get a chance to c me anymore.. lols.. hopes hiieh realii changed & trusted e riight fren.. nv gets into here agaiin, boii..

hmm. nth muchiie. afte visiti hiimh, ii allone wen to bugiis walk walk awhiile den headed to amk to mit mummy. lols. acc mummy buy tings awhile & nw backiie hme.. gonna bathe & sllp lerh. im so tired. coosh oso.. e stupiid lift ob mye hse broke dwn.. den jus nw me & mummy frm 1st storey all e way climb up to e 9th floor lorr.. wth**

rest more.. iim awaiitiin forr hiimh. ii tiink ii gort e answer ii wann.. ii know wad ii wann & who to choose lerh bahs.. even if mummy dun allow.. ii wil stil go forr it.. coosh ii wann mye own answers.. nort othe's thinkin.

arghh. btw, ii haf a good news.. coosh afte my diploma cert. im goiin forr ADVANCE DIPLOMA.. dn afte dat.. im goiin to AUSTRALIA forr my CASINO DEGREE =))

mummy talked wiit uncle & grandpa.. & was approved.. so wiished me all e best.. ii wanna study hard nw=p

wen to do faciial & watch moviie.

2008-07-14T21:42:00.002+08:00

yahs. didnt turn up to skool again. lols. coosh ii hardly sllp abt 1hr.. afte all e tings happen in e niite. ii criied hard.. & nw. im so tired.. was wiit my lovely liianx a.. acc herr do "HER" tings.. den actuali wanna go PS de.. in e end.. we ended up at TPY. do lil shoppiing & FACIAL.. omg.. my face damn paiin nw.. & ii swear.. its e worst & ugliest side ob me nw.. coosh my dark riings ish worsen.. haiis. gonna go sllp earlii & mend it up..

afte faciial wen to mit RZ at j8.. as he wanna acc me watched - 10 promises To My Dog -.. omg.. damn niice. & e moviie was longg.. ii criied alot lorr. & e othe audience too. hhaas. touchiin & niice story man.!!! mus watched arr..

tis moviie teached me smting.. & tat's when eva ii wanna do smting.. ii mus mak sure ii cn confine it & kiip my promises.. & nv regret iin e last miins.. hmm..

& oso.. yahs. ii goiin visit Goh Jing Yuen Joel tiis cumiin wed.. yesh.. ii contacted wiit e mummy at last.. hopes everythin turns good.. 99=)

everythin haf ended..

2008-07-14T03:53:00.003+08:00

everythin haf ended..

ii broke off wit RZ lerh..

coosh my heart ish confused.
ii dunno who to lovee. RZ or GJYJ..

im cryiin hard nw..
ii had a chance to let two loviin guys to lovee me so muchiie. yet ii destory everythin. coosh ii dunno wad ii wann. hatee me nw. coosh im a bastard.. alright..

& im sorriie forr my selfiishness..

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below is my conversation wit my beloved meii.. ii reali stucked lerh. plls. plls god.. give me an answer. alright.? im lost. TOTALLY LOST .!!

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Huilin says:
Joel already can give you a official status le, as in engagement.
RZ, he now in NS.
Huilin says:
Just follow your heart?
Compare the both of them. And ask yourself:
1) I with who, more happier?
2) I with who, not very stress?
3) I with who, no need worry this worry that?
4) I with who, more carefree?
5) Who can give me what I want or give in to me almost everytime?
ιяιѕ???????? says:
1. joel
ιяιѕ???????? says:
2. joel
ιяιѕ???????? says:
3. joel
ιяιѕ???????? says:
4. both oso dun haf
ιяιѕ???????? says:
5. both
Huilin says:
seems like joel wins.
Huilin says:
Okay, so first round, Joel win.
Huilin says:
now second test.
ιяιѕ???????? says:
ιяιѕ???????? says:
youu like my teacher
Huilin says:
lol lol. SHH LISTEN TO ME. LOL
Huilin says:
1) Who when angry, will beat you? Or vent his anger on you?
2) Who will bring you out for fun if your mood is low? (obviously both. -.-)
3) Which side de parents love you more or want you to marry the son.
ιяιѕ???????? says:
1. joel
ιяιѕ???????? says:
2. both
ιяιѕ???????? says:
1. joel
ιяιѕ???????? says:
ii mean 3. joel
Huilin says:
okay. first qn hor.
He vent anger on you, you zai yi mah?
ιяιѕ???????? says:
coosh ii show attitude to hiimh 1st
Huilin says:
hmmm. means ur fault first?
ιяιѕ???????? says:
almost everytyme nahs
Huilin says:
hmms.
then do you blame him?
ιяιѕ???????? says:
smtyme
ιяιѕ???????? says:
but owas wen ii know ii at fault le.. den ii apologise
Huilin says:
so when is nt ur fault, you blame him?
Huilin says:
like u hate him for beating you.
ιяιѕ???????? says:
angry oni
Huilin says:
hmms. kk. second test RZ win. LOL
Huilin says:
now last test lerrrr
ιяιѕ???????? says:
why 2nd test rz win
Huilin says:
joel beat u what. lol
ιяιѕ???????? says:
Huilin says:
ya
ιяιѕ???????? says:
ii tot rz lose at e 3 quet
ιяιѕ???????? says:
*question
Huilin says:
1) can you guarantee that if u patch with RZ/Joel, he won't beat you and he won't give u problems?
ιяιѕ???????? says:
joel cfm wont give prob.. rz wont beat me..
Huilin says:
then the both of them, u must choose a winner le. =/
Both also got good and bad. one give u prob but no beat, one beat but no prob.
ιяιѕ???????? says:
g othe quest.. coos ii reali dunno hw to choose..

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GJYJ's 21st Bday is cumin lerh.. shall ii visit hiimh.? he told me hiish wished was to c me & wante me to celebrates wit hiimh..